Verse of the Day – James 4:10

James 4:10

James 4:10

I know I can’t make it each day on my own, I know I have to get down on my knees each day and pray for the strength to get through.

LIFT ME UP by THE AFTERS
You lift me up with your love
You lift me up with your love
You lift me up with your love
You lift me up

Waiting for the sunrise
Waiting for the day
Waiting for a sign
That I’m where you want me to be

You know my heart is heavy
And the hurt is deep
But when I feel like giving up
You’re reminding me
That we all fall down sometimes
But when I hit the ground

You lift me up when I am weak
Your arms wrap around me
Your love catches me so I’m letting go
You lift me up when I can’t see
Your heart is all that I need
Your love carries me so I’m letting go

You lift me up with your love
You lift me up with your love
You lift me up with your love
You lift me up

I know I’m not perfect
I know I make mistakes
I know that I have let you down
But you love me the same

And when I’m surrounded
When I lose my way
When I’m crying out and falling down
You are here to

Lift me up when I am weak
Your arms wrap around me
Your love catches me so I’m letting go
You lift me up when I can’t see
Your heart is all that I need
Your love carries me so I’m letting go

I can see the dawn is breaking
I am feeling overtaken with your love
With your love
I don’t know what I can offer
In this moment I surrender to your love
To your love

You lift me up when I am weak
Your arms wrap around me
Your love catches me so I’m letting go

You lift me up when I am weak
Your arms wrap around me
Your love catches me so I’m letting go
You lift me up when I can’t see
Your heart is all that I need
Your love carries me so I’m letting go

I can see the dawn is breaking
I am feeling overtaken with your love

You lift me up with your love
You lift me up with your love
You lift me up with your love
You lift me up

Verse of the Day – Psalm 40:3

Psalm 40:3

Psalm 40:3

It’s time to take this new song and move forward, time to shut down the autopilot and take back the controls, with the Lord by my side all the way.

PRAISES (BE LIFTED UP) by KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL & WILLIAM MATTHEWS
I sing praises to Your name
Praises to Your name

The name that’s so much higher than all names
All honor to Your name
All honor to Your name
The name that’s so much greater than all names

Be lifted up
Be lifted higher

Be lifted up
Be lifted higher

Your name is life
Your name is Hope inside me
Hope inside me

Your name is love
A love that always finds me
always finds me

Verse of the Day – Psalm 65:8

Psalm 65:8

Psalm 65:8

I’m thankful once more for the strength I have received to get through this current trial, strength that allowed me to see the sunset this evening.

MY GOD by LUMINATE
Are you lost, my runaway?
All is spent, squandered away
You’ve had your taste; you’ve had your fill
It’s not enough; you’re wanting still
He said, My son, if you come home
I’ll wrap you in My finest robes
And we will dance until the dawn
No greater love; you are My son

My God, my God
What mercy You have shown to me
My God, my God
Forever I will sing to Thee

Do you feel broke beyond repair?
The crushing weight is too much to bear
And with no hope for innocence
Who will stand in your defense?

But One has come, to claim His own
To fight for you, oh, weary soul
The world you fear, a threat no more
For Earth will hear the victor’s roar
This song will rise, from shore to shore
We are free; we’re bound no more
And we will dance, and all will know
For it’s the coming of my Lord

This song will rise, from shore to shore
We are free, where bound no more

2, 852 & 863

So it’s day 2 without the anti-depressants and once again so far, so good.  I had a couple of minor headaches earlier in the day, but nothing too bad.  As I walked home I had a couple of “dizzy spells”, mainly if I turned my head quickly or stepped heavily, but once again, nothing I couldn’t cope with.

I had a walk up to the Sports Centre and popped into the karate class, my assistant was covering this evening, I had a chat with a few people and decided to walk home.

On the way back I thought about taking a walk up the cycle track and taking in the sunset, but then seemed to talk myself out of it.  But the closer I got to home, the more I found the resolve to force myself to take that walk, I’ve been putting it off all year, making excuses not to get out and walk, to catch a sunset or sunrise, so I decided to take the walk, I’m glad I did, the sunset was great to see.

Light Upon The Wheat

Light Upon The Wheat

Slipping Behind The Horizon

Slipping Behind The Horizon

Evening Sunset

Evening Sunset

Setting

Setting

Light On The Horizon

Light On The Horizon

Golden Blue

Golden Blue

Below The Clouds

Below The Clouds

Across The Fields

Across The Fields

Last Goodbye

Last Goodbye

I’m glad I found the strength to stop taking the easy option and take a walk this evening, now I hope I can do the same in the morning, get back into my old routine and find the time to walk and find some peace.

PURSUIT by JESUS CULTURE
Strip everything away till all I have is You
Undo the veils till all I see is You

Strip everything away till all I have is You
Undo the veils till all I see is You

I will pursue You, I will pursue Your presence
I will pursue You, I will pursue Your presence

I’m pressing in to You so do not pass me by
I’m breaking through the boundaries
I will not be denied

I will pursue You, I will pursue Your presence
I will pursue You, I will pursue Your presence

Open my eyes, search me inside
I cant live without Your presence
I can’t live without Your presence

Verse of the Day – 1 John 1:7

1 John 1:7

1 John 1:7

I know my light has not been at it brightest these last few months, but I feel it’s time to be the light I was saved to be.

LIGHT FOR YOU by ANTHEM LIGHTS
So many souls need your hope
Let me go I’ll leave it all behind
They’re all around in my town
In my city there not hard to find
We can brighten up the dark
We can heal their wounded hearts
So many souls need your hope
Let me go I’ll leave it all behind

I wanna be a light
I wanna shine so bright
I wanna be a light for you
A light for you
I wanna be a light
I’ll set the world on fire
I wanna be a light for you
A light for you

I’ll lay my life on the line
Not a price that I wouldn’t pay
That’s how you love me
That’s how you want me
So I’m ready to love you the same way

We can brighten up the dark
We can heal their wounded hearts
Lay my life on the line
Not a price that I wouldn’t pay
To love you in the same way

I wanna be a light
I wanna shine so bright
I wanna be a light for you
A light for you
I wanna be a light
I’ll set the world on fire
I wanna be a light for you
A light for you

I wanna be a light for you
A light for you

Lay my life on the line
Not a price that I wouldn’t pay

Set me on fire

I wanna be a light
I wanna shine so bright
I wanna be a light for you
A light for you
I wanna be a light
I’ll set the world on fire
I wanna be a light for you
A light for you

I wanna be a light for you
A light for you

Light Up, Light Up, As If You Have A Choice

So it’s day one without the anti-depressants, which coincides with my 851st SoberDay.  So far it’s been okay, a few headaches as the day went on, but other than that it’s been pretty good, although it will be too early to tell.

This morning on the way to work I had one of those moments of inspiration and support.  As I do every time on the way to work, I stop by my Nan’s grave and pray.  Obviously today I prayed for support today, for help to get through the next few days as I try to get through without the anti-depressants, I know it won’t be easy and I know I will need His strength to get me through.

I always leave me headphones in and the music on quietly when I pray, so as I finished my prayer and started to walk away, the song changed in that instant.  Now I’ve experienced this before, where no sooner than I’ve finished my prayer, the song changes and brings comfort. Well this happened again this morning, usually though the song is from a Christian artist with a strong Christian theme, this time it was a little different.  It was not a song which inspired from start to finish, not even a song by a Christian artist, it was only a part of the chorus that seemed to speak to me, the song itself seemed loader than usual and the chorus even loader, I couldn’t ignore it.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you dear

I have to say I have heard this song so many times over the years, it’s a great song, but never before has it put me on the verge of tears.  This sort of thing happens quite often to me, I can hear a song I have heard time after time and suddenly this one time, it resonates with how I am feeling and provokes a strong emotional response, just like this morning.

I still know this will be a rough few days, maybe weeks, but I know I can get through it, because He is right beside me.

RUN by SNOW PATROL
I’ll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You’ve been the only thing that’s right
In all I’ve done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we’ll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we’ll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can’t raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we’ll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can’t raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don’t have time for that
All I want’s to find an easy way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart, my dear
We’re bound to be afraid
Even if it’s just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you dear

 

Verse of the Day – Philippians 4:19

Philippians 4: 19

Philippians 4: 19

As I face a week where I know I will have to lean into Him to get through, it’s a comfort to know He will meet all my needs.

YOUR LOVE IS A SONG by SWITCHFOOT
Yeah

I hear you breathing in
Another day begins
The stars are falling out
My dreams are fading now, fading out

I’ve been keeping my eyes wide open
I’ve been keeping my eyes wide open

Your love is a symphony
All around me
Running through me
Your love is a melody
Underneath me
Running to me

Oh, your love is a song

The dawn is fire bright
Against the city lights
The clouds are glowing now
The moon is blacking out, is blacking out

So I’ve been keeping my mind wide open
I’ve been keeping my mind wide open, yeah

Your love is a symphony
All around me
Running through me
Your love is a melody
Underneath me
Running to me

Oh, your love is a song
Your love is a song
Oh, your love is a song
Your love is strong

With my eyes wide open
I’ve got my eyes wide open
I’ve been keeping my hopes unbroken, yeah

Your love is a symphony
All around me
Running through me
Your love is a melody
Underneath me
Running to me

Your love is a song
Yeah, yeah
Your love is my remedy
Oh your love is a song