How About We Make Today “International Healing Begins Day” To Highlight The Problem Of Addiction?

Today brings another in a long list of little anniversaries that led up to me making the decision on Sobriety, on this Tuesday a year ago, just the very day after meeting with Gareth, I received one of those messages in my head, a message that you don’t really know where it comes from or why you are thinking it, it’s just there and will not go away, not until you have satisfied that urge, believe me it’s not an urge like an addiction, but an urge for something you know you need to do!

My urge that night, that message was that I had to listen to the song Healing Begins by Tenth Avenue North, I have written in detail about that message and the song, so I won’t go into great detail and relive every moment of the night in this post, but needless to say the lyrics hit me smack in the face, it highlight where I was, what I had done and what I needed to do to start that healing process.

But that song became a guide of sorts in those early weeks of my recovery, it woke with me every morning, it walked with me everywhere I went, I comforted my in dark moments and it sang to me as I lowered my head to my pillow each night in search of rest.  The song reminded me of why I was making these changes, reminded me that there was a way forward and that the light will meet my dark.  I know now it was a message that could only have come from God, it wasn’t a coincidence or my own thinking at all.

Although I started the actual writing of my journal the weekend after I met with Gareth, I back dated the writing to the night I met with him, those early pages of my journal are littered with references to lyrics of the song and other words of inspiration, I even labelled that first journal book “The Healing Begins”, incidentally I label the second book “The Precipice” after the song which inspired me to start this Blog, the third book had yet to be named, but I’m sure when I complete it there will be one song that sums up that period of my life.

Journal 1 Cover

Journal 1 Cover

Healing Begins Lyrics

Healing Begins Lyrics

This Is My Time

This Is My Time

Healings Begun

Healings Begun

I Will Be Strong

I Will Be Strong

I don’t think for one moment that this little voice from little old Newark on Trent will be heard around the world, but I urge that if you agree that we should make this day “International Healing Begins Day” to highlight the problems of addiction, then please lend you voice, via your Blogs, Facebook or Twitter, etc, together you never know!

So you thought you had to keep this up
All the work that you do
So we think that you’re good
And you can’t believe it’s not enough
All the walls you built up
Are just glass on the outside

So let ’em fall down
There’s freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground
We’re here now

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you’re broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark

Afraid to let your secrets out
Everything that you hide
Can come crashing through the door now
But too scared to face all your fear
So you hide but you find
That the shame won’t disappear

So let it fall down
There’s freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground
We’re here now
We’re here now, oh

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you’re broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark

Sparks will fly as grace collides
With the dark inside of us
So please don’t fight
This coming light
Let this blood come cover us
His blood can cover us

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you’re broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark
(Healing Begins by Tenth Avenue North)

6 thoughts on “How About We Make Today “International Healing Begins Day” To Highlight The Problem Of Addiction?

  1. javaj240

    We all have “that” moment. Some of us are also lucky enough to have a soundtrack. Mine was “Fix You” by Coldpay.

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    1. waynemali Post author

      Fix You is a great song, like so many of Coldplay’s, I have so many songs now that mean so much, but that moment in time and that point in my life is defined by Healing Begins now, part of the Sound Track of my life.
      Wayne

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  2. Freedomborn

    Thank you Wayne for sharing from your own life experiences with addiction, I have a special song too that I sang after being delivered from my gambling which was when I came to True heart repentance it’s called “Change my heart Oh God ” and He can only do this as we let Him, He will never go against our free will. I asked Him to teach me all that I needed to know so I could Love Him and Love others like He does.

    Song – http://youtu.be/CEtsHWFE6-w

    Psalm 139:23-24 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

    1John 4:16-17 And we have known and believed the Love that God hath to us. God is Love; and he that dwelleth in Love dwelleth in God, and God in him. Herein is our Love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as He is, so are we in this world

    I was addicted to gambling on and off for a total of 14 years + 3 years at G.A and have now been completely delivered for 16 years, I have assurance that I will never gamble again, I have no desire to, although I was tempted about 5 years ago but I asked Jesus to help me to overcame it and He did. I have had other addictions that God has delivered me from over the years, one was Bulimia which I suffered with on and off for 10 years from the age of 20 to 30, once again when tempted, I resisted because I knew it was not what God wanted me to do to my body and He gave me the strength not to do it and I never have since, that was just over 30 years ago. I also suffered from Kleptomaniac for 20 years from the age of 10 to 30, I’m now 60, once again God told me to stop as I was about to steal and although I was tempted He gave me the strength not to and I never have again. All these Addictions have withdrawal symptoms that cause many to relapse, Gambling especially has Adrenalin rushes which when stopped causes depression and is why many suicide when unable to gamble but after deliverance I had none.
    God showed me the way to have victory over all Temptation and by trusting in Him not myself I no longer fear I will relapse, I have been set free from the slavery of sin and it’s control in my life.

    May you also find victory and assurence Wayne in Christ Jesus and have no fear of relapse.

    Christian Love from both of us – Anne

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    1. waynemali Post author

      Hi Anne
      I can see how the words of the song would be of some inspiration, sometimes we need that, just to remind us to give it all to God and trust in him.
      Thank you so much for sharing your story, it’s very inspirational, I will keep fighting and keep trusting in the Father.
      Thank you again.
      Wayne

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