Beautiful Memories

Daily Prompt: Moved To Tears

Does something beautiful really have to be something we have to see to appreciate?

Is beauty purely visual?

Or is it something we truly feel within our hearts?

Over the last 18 months I’ve been moved to tears so many times, probably more than the rest of my life put together. Mostly they were tears of pain, especially in the early months, emotional pain of a relationship break up, of the loss of myself and the intense pain of withdrawals. Earlier this year I had the pain of the death of both of my Nans to deal with, deep emotional pain hits hard.

But the last few times I’ve been moved to tears the only thing in front of me, the only thing in my physical vision, were my own words.

The beauty which has moved me to tears of late, including just this last Sunday, was memories of people’s actions, these simple memories  move me to tears every time.

On Sunday in my post “Alone In A Crowded Room” I wrote about my first morning in Church, about going in alone, sitting quietly at the back, until an elderly couple, John and Eve, came and sat with me, as I wrote about that moment and I ran through the images of that morning in my mind, I shed tears as the ‘beautiful’ actions of two wonderful people filled my head and my heart. A scared sinner, in a strange place, far outside his comfort zone, trying to stay anonymous, afraid of how people would conceive him when they knew the truth, but all of that was wiped away, John and Eve weren’t bothered who I was or what I had done, none of that mattered as they welcomed me to Church and offered their help in anyway possible, the memory of that moment was a beautiful vision as I’ve ever seen, it moved me to tears.

But these memories that move me to tears are not confined to just that single moment, but so many different moments, so many times over this last 18 months when I have been shown such kindness, the  hope and inspiration I receive from people as I meet them for the first time, as my story unravels and none of it matters.

To me these moments are priceless, memories I will treasure for ever and hold on to when times are so good, when things aren’t so fantastic, I can remember how I feared so much before, how when I was afraid to let people see who I was and how I was feeling, none of that mattered.

There have been so many times since those first weeks when I’ve been low or struggling and the members of Everyday Champions Church have picked me up and put me back on my feet, so many time where they have carried me and rebuilt me, I could never repay them for what they have done for me.

I am so thankful to all these friends for the care and love they have shown me, but mostly I am so thankful to God, for releasing me from my chains and for bringing these people into my life.

SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL by NEEDTOBREATHE
In your ocean, I’m ankle deep
I feel the waves crashin’ on my feet
It’s like I know where I need to be
But I can’t figure out, yeah I can’t figure out

Just how much air I will need to breathe
When your tide rushes over me
There’s only one way to figure out
Will ya let me drown, will ya let me drown

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, ’cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I’m in reach
‘Cause I am down on my knees, I’m waiting for something beautiful
Oh, something beautiful

And the water is risin’ quick
And for years I was scared of it
We can’t be sure when it will subside
So I won’t leave your side, no I can’t leave your side

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, ’cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I’m in reach
‘Cause I am down on my knees, I’m waiting for something beautiful
Oh, something beautiful

In a daydream, I couldn’t live like this
I wouldn’t stop until I found something beautiful
When I wake up, I know I will have
No, I still won’t have what I need

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, ’cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I’m in reach
‘Cause I am down on my knees, I’m waiting for something beautiful
Oh, something beautiful (fade out)

6 thoughts on “Beautiful Memories

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  3. nopew

    I rejoice with you on such wonderful memories. And I have shared in a small way your pain. These are what make the blogging world far more than I could ever have imagined.
    Peace

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  4. determined34

    Dear BotG, Your post is a wonderful description of the power of God’s Grace. I have a passage for you, and left the link for you to explore. D34
    Ephesians 2:4-9 But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ— by grace you have been saved—and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.

    Read more: http://www.whatchristianswanttoknow.com/20-inspirational-bible-verses-about-grace/#ixzz2bcUmGEB

    Reply
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