Breaking My Old Traditions

This afternoon I broke an old tradition of mine, one that is now feel is a bit of an embarrassment.

Basically today I attended a wedding!

Okay, so no big deal why is that such a breakthrough?

Before I became a Christian last year, attending a Church was the last thing I wanted to. This wasn’t just confined to my years in darkness, this went right back to being a kid.

I just wasn’t comfortable being in a Church, in many ways it just didn’t sit right with me. Most Weddings I was invited to were held in traditional Churches, just like today, medieval stone buildings with wooden pews, not particularly inviting to me. Then secondly religion just wasn’t on my agenda, it just wasn’t, so I did everything I could to avoid any Church service.

There were many family weddings where I could not avoid attending, I would begrudgingly stand/sit quietly, not really interested in the proceedings, just waiting to get out of there as quickly as possible, maybe there was an element of I just wanted to skip that and get to the reception, let the drinking commence! But regardless, I never enjoyed them at all, indeed although myself and Victoria became engaged of sorts, I really didn’t see myself getting married either, simply as I wasn’t a believer I saw it as hypocritical so say vows in a Church.

If it was a friend’s wedding, I would find an excuse to miss it, Victoria would go, but females just love weddings anyway, but we would come up with a cover story where I was at a karate course or couldn’t get cover for my classes, but I would be at the reception. Essentially she would lie for me.

But today I attended Dom and Sam’s wedding in Dom’s village Church, but today I went with great anticipation, I was looking forward to it and dare I say it, I really enjoyed it.

Although in a traditional Church and not our own Church which I have become comfortable with, traditional hymns were replaced with worship songs played by members of our own worship band and get this, I actually sang at a wedding for the first time without keeping my head down and mumbling into the hymn sheet. Having said that I had no choice really, I was sat next to Becca, one of our Worship leaders, but her singing simply put mine to shame, plus she knew all the words.

It all seems a little bit surreal, after all these years, in fact a lifetime avoiding events like this, to actually attend without any resentment and to enjoy the whole thing is a big breakthrough for me. I know I’ve been in Church for over a year and I hate missing Sunday services, this is a big thing for me, it broke the habit of a lifetime.

It was a really great service, the bride looked beautiful and the groom never lost his smile, just a really great afternoon with fantastic people.

So after a week of quiet I’ve come home to a house full of life again, although the kids have just been packed off to their Gran’s as both Victoria and I are at the reception this evening, it good to come back to house that has it soul back. In a way it’s been a tough week, but it’s over with and I feel great now. Β Oh and Muffin the rabbit made it through too!

It will be an interesting evening, I’ve never been to a wedding reception without drinking, not since I was a kid anyway, another first, it will have its own tests, but I’m determined to come through it and thoroughly enjoy it completely sober.

This is my revelation
Christ Jesus crucified
Salvation through repentance
At the cross on which He died

Now here my absolution
Forgiveness for my sin
And I sink beneath the waters
That Christ was buried in

I will rise (But now I rise)
I will rise
As Christ was raised to life
Now in Him
Now in Him
I live

I stand a new creation
Baptised in blood and fire
No fear of condemnation
By faith I’m justified

I rise as You are risen
Declare Your rule and reign
My life confess Your Lordship
And glorify Your Name

Your word it stands eternal
Your kingdom knows no end
Your praise goes on forever
And on and on again

No power can stand against You
No curse assault Your throne
No one can steal Your glory
For it is Yours alone

I stand to sing Your praises
I stand to testify
For I was dead in my sin

2 thoughts on “Breaking My Old Traditions

  1. garden2day

    I’m so happy! You have cheered me up. I am not sure I can attend a wedding yet but for different reasons. They grow on you btw πŸ˜€ . Congratulations!!! Take care! πŸ˜€

  2. leftnfree

    Wow, I love how you are accomplishing the triumphs of a new life. Thank you for sharing. I have no doubt that you will get through the reception as well. I look forward to hearing how much God transformed you at this reception. Enjoy your new life of transformation. God allows us to transform when we put down our lives for the life He desires. Glad that you and the rabbit made it through. πŸ™‚


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