Pebbles To Mountains And Back Again

It’s funny how things go sometimes, this year is already flying by so quickly, although the early days started fairly well, it’s not been particularly plain sailing since then.

But considering everything, my emotional state has been relatively good. I know I got a little stressed the other evening, but other than that there have been very few points where I would consider that I’ve slipped into any kind of depression.

I’ve had some aches and pains, but nothing serious, they come and go, I can live with that.

I’ve come to terms with my financial situation, I gets no better, I started the year overdrawn and don’t get paid until the end if the month, so things are extremely tight to say the least, the money from the Architect’s would really help, but as it all beyond my control, so why let it beat me down.

Back in November all of this was eating away at me, each day I let the problems get worse. As each day went by I let tiny pebbles in my path become cobbles, the cobbles became rocks, they became boulders, which in turn became mountains. Eventually all I could see were mountains I couldn’t overcome, that’s when I wrote the poem Mountains, I just couldn’t face it anymore, I was spent.

Mountains

Mountains

I guess it’s a mental process now to reverse all of this and begin turning the mountains back to boulders and so on and so forth. It would be do easy to keep seeing all these little things the same way, eventually just adding to mountains before me, but they’re not, they’re pebbles or rocks upon my path and although I must watch my steps they are no longer insurmountable.

I can identify now when I feel I’m losing it, now I can take a step back, take a breath and get myself into a completely different mindset. Obviously the bible verses I search for everyday are helping, when I feel a certain way, I search for a verse to help with that feeling.

So despite everything, I keep fighting and His word is key to my defence.

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armour of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Ephesians 6:10-12

CHRIST THE ROCK by KIM WALKER-SMITH & SKYLER SMITH
On Christ the solid rock I stand
No double minded shifting sands
On Christ the rock I plant my feet
A firm foundation for me

On Christ the rock I place my heart
And trust in who you say you are
No circumstance that blows my way
Will ever move this solid place

Holy,Holy
Holy,Holy

On Christ the solid rock I stand
Leaving behind the fear of man
With Christ the truth I will agree
Forsaking lies that come for me

Holy,Holy
Holy,Holy

On Christ the rock I lay my dreams
Come with your fire consuming me 
With Christ the rock I make my plans
Partner with your purposes

Holy,Holy
Holy,Holy
Holy,Holy
Holy,Holy
Holy,Holy,Holy,Holy
Holy,Holy,Holy,You are holy oh God,yeah

On Christ the solid rock I stand

1 thought on “Pebbles To Mountains And Back Again

  1. leebaileyseiler

    If I can make it another 14 and a half hours I will have been sober for exactly 1 year. I have walked through great valleys in that year and have been surrounded on all sides by mountains of distress, pain, fear, loneliness and worry. It was at these times that God removed me from that place by dropping me a rope. He did not simply lift me up but allowed me the strength to climb out on my own. Without the rope and my own work I would still be in the shadows. Thanks for adding another strand to my rope today, Lee

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