Bring On Christmas Eve

So this morning I woke completely sober for the 701st consecutive time, all I could think about was when the 1000th SoberDay would be, so I worked it out and it will be on Christmas Eve, which means a double celebration and after last years slightly subdued Christmas period, it give me a real reason to face it positively, which I really couldn’t bring myself to do last December.

So just in case you’re interested, that makes Christmas 300 days away!

I didn’t choose the day I quit drinking, I hadn’t really planned it, I just had that feeling as I followed my usual routine after teaching, as I headed over to the pub it struck me I wasn’t actually enjoying it anymore and if indeed I ddin’t like that first drink, then that would be it, thankfully that last pint tasted bloody awful, the rest is history.

But the first anniversary last March turned out to be on Good Friday and now the 1000th day will be on Christmas Eve, I couldn’t have picked it that way, but it makes it even more special I guess.

This week has been my best week for some time, the deep depression of last November seems to be well in the past and I feel I am moving on again, things are really turning around, my eyes are fixed beyond my current predicaments and firmly fixed on the future.

Having said that, I’m not really looking forward to tomorrow, it’s the first anniversary of my Nan’s death, although I’ve got a busy day ahead, which hopefully will keep me focused, I will drop by her grave in the morning on the way to work.

Tomorrow evening is also my Boss’s stag night, but I have declined to go, even though out of all those at work, I’ve known him longer than any of them.  Since the end of last year I seem to panic when it comes to going out in these situations, it’s not that I can’t be around people drinking, but I really seen to work myself up.  I’ve used the excuse that I can’t really afford it, which is partially true, but the real truth is I just can’t face it.  I’ll speak with him at work tomorrow morning, I’m sure he’ll understand, he’s been very supportive over the last two years, he’s cut me a lot of slack when I’ve needed it.

But then I’m sure I pick up again on Sunday morning, as it will be 100 weeks of attending Everyday Champions Church, another reason for me to celebrate, just try to stop me from being there!

ALWAYS by KUTLESS
Have you not known, have you not heard,
The Lord is an everlasting God, an everlasting God.
Have you not known, have you not heard,
He is creator of the earth, the ends of the earth.

Even the young will stumble and fall,
You are the one that helps me through it all…

You lift me up on eagle’s wings,
I can run and not grow weary,
Always, when I wait for You,
In You I will renew my strength,
I can walk and never faint,
Always, when I wait for You…

Is it not told, not understood,
Since the beginning of all time, the beginning of all time,
Lift up your eyes, behold His great might,
He is the maker of all things, the maker of all things,

Even the young will stumble and will fall,
You are the one that helps me through it all…

You lift me up on eagle’s wings,
I can run and not grow weary,
Always, when I wait for You,
In You I will renew my strength,
I can walk and never faint,
Always, when I wait for You…

When I hope, when I trust, I will find my strength in You.
When I hope, when I trust, I will find my strength in You.
When I hope, when I trust, I will find my strength in You.
When I hope, when I trust, I will find my strength in You.

You lift me up on eagle’s wings,
I can run and not grow weary,
Always, when I wait for You,
In You I will renew my strength,
I can walk and never faint,
Always, when I wait for You…

You lift me up on eagle’s wings,
I can run and not grow weary,
Always, when I wait for You,
In You I will renew my strength,
I can walk and never faint,
Always, when I wait for You…

Always, when I wait for You.

4 thoughts on “Bring On Christmas Eve

    1. waynemali Post author

      That’s the name of the Church I attend here in Newark, it’s been like a home for these last 100 weeks, I’ve met some amazing people there who have supported me all the way.

      Reply

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