Time To Shine!

Okay, so today didn’t start exactly as planned, everything seemed alright, until I got ready for work after a shower, in fact it was going well, but then my watch strap snapped!

So not a big deal in the scheme of things in all honesty, but I do feel a little naked without my watch on.  I always keep it a few minutes fast.  The hands all always five minutes fast and the digital time about two minutes fast!

Why?

So I don’t like being late!  As someone who has managed to get to the age of 40 without ever getting behind a wheel and learning to drive (although I can now drive a folklift truck), I’ve never even applied for a driving license or taken a lesson, but that’s another story.  But walking everywhere can take longer than expected, it’s not so bad on journeys I do often, I know exactly what time I can walk it in, but other times I’ve no idea.

So if I’m in a rush and I glance at my watch, my mind just sees the time and I speed up, I still get there early if I arrive on time according to my watch.  I know, it’s a bit weird, but makes perfect sense to my crazy mind!

So all day at work I’ve not had a clue what time it was, all the computers have random times on the screens, we reset them, but they always end up at a random time.  The amount of times I’ve glanced at my wrist today, just to see nothing!  I’ve been a little lost!

So this morning as I walked to work, I had a reminder that I could easily sort this out without resorting to buying a new watch, that I really can’t afford at the moment!  There is another watch, exactly the same as mine, with a perfect strap, even the watch is working, I could just use that one, easy, problem solved!

But then another part of my mind sprung into action and yelled “NO WAY!!!” 

You see this watch was carefully placed in a box on Sunday 25th March 2012, 772 days ago, just four days before I quit drinking!

The Box

The Box

This box formed a major step in starting my recovery, on that I day I placed in that box everything that tied me to the wine drinking slob that lived in my skin for a while, that watch was one of those things.  The strap stunk of stale alcohol, like many of the things placed in that box, I purchased a watch exactly the same that very day and placed the old one, that was part of a life I wanted to put behind me, in that box with the rest of my old life.

So this morning I was faced with the choice, do I revisit that box and that old life to reclaim part of those memories for inclusion with the life I lead now or do I leave that gathering dust where it is and go without for a while, until the opportunity to replace it comes along.

It was fairly simple really, despite feeling that little bit lost without a watch, I’ll get by, I don’t need to visit a part of me that is no longer living, I have been living a new life since that box has been in the cellar gathering dust and grime.

I don’t need anything covered with dust and dirt, I’VE BEEN CALLED TO SHINE!!!

SHINE ON by NEEDTOBREATHE
Somewhere between the end
And the point where we begin
There’s a fire burning brightly
That’s found it’s way to dim
When the feeling’s gone…

Shine on Shine on
and onto something new
It’s long and overdue
I will remember you
Shine on shine on
And let the other’s see you’ve got your victory
Will you remember me

I was with you in the valley
And up upon that hill
So take just one more step in front of you
For I am with you still you still
And you’re not alone

Shine on Shine on
And onto something new
It’s long and overdue
I will remember you
Shine on shine on
And let the other’s see you’ve got your victory
Will you remember me

Can you see my hands are open I am waiting just ahead
And you think you need it all now
But you needed me instead

Shine on shine on shine on shine on won’t you won’t you shine

Shine on Shine on
And onto something new
It’s long and overdue
I will remember you
Shine on shine on
And let the other’s see you’ve got your victory
Will you remember me

Somewhere between the end and the point where we began

9 thoughts on “Time To Shine!

  1. leftnfree

    Not looking back into the past to retrieve the past is an awesome accomplishment! Proud of you Wayne! What a great testimony of how God has redeemed you!! Amazing how much He loves us!!!

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    1. waynemali Post author

      Thank you, some times I have to really remind myself to move forward and beyond my past, which is not always easy, but through His strength I manage to do it.
      Wayne

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  2. kerlund74

    Great song, I like it a lot. Like you I hate to be late, I’m never, ever late. My daughter think’s that it is embarrassing that we always are early and have to wait for others. But I can’t help it, I don’t feel well when I’m getting late…

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    1. leftnfree

      I was brought up to be leave so that you can be somewhere at least 15 min. early. This usually gives enough time for those hiccups in the process (accidents, or getting lost or stopped by the police, or whatever reason)… It is something that I really try to do all these years later! It drives some of my family crazy and they are always late (we can say a time to 1 sister and we say it just so that she shows up on time (and that is usually a 2 hour window)…

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      1. kerlund74

        I know what you are talking about here… But late people often keeps us waiting, for a long time so I think they might drive me crazy to sometimes;)

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    2. waynemali Post author

      I know how you feel, I would rather be early than late. In karate our Japanese instructors consider being less than half an hour early to a session being late, although I think that’s a little harsh, it’s maybe that’s where I hate of lateness from, but being early is being prepared I guess, it’s also a matter of respect, being late is seen as very disrespectful.
      Wayne

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    1. waynemali Post author

      I know, but at the moment I have neither the time to get into town or the money to buy either, so I’ll learn to get by without a watch, I do find myself staring at my arm expecting it to be there, but I getting by!
      Wayne

      Reply

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