1000 Days Of Sobriety!!!

It’s finally here, the last weeks of counting down the day until I could celebrate my 1000th day of Sobriety, come 10.30pm this evening it will be official, as that was the time I took that last drink on 29th March 2012.

It’s funny how it fell at a time of the year where drinking would be pretty integral to the festive celebrations, up until Christmas 2012 I can’t remember the last time I would have gone through Christmas without having at least one drink, even when we were young kids we were allowed the odd shandy made from the beer my Dad would get in for the period.

Usually on Christmas Eve I would wander into town to pick out a couple of bottles of sparkling wine to have with Christmas Dinner, I would pick something a little be more expensive than the usual cheap wine I would drink day in day out, of course there was only me drinking it, maybe Victoria would have a glass, but not often, she didn’t really like the stuff.

There has been the odd moments in those last 1000 days where the thought of the urge to drink has been high, but I’ve managed to suppress the feeling and carry on with this sober journey, some days it’s not easy, other days you don’t even think about it, you just wake the next day as normal, only with no headache, no fuzziness, no permanent hangover.

Towards the last days I had pretty much got the point that I could get through five pints and a couple of bottles of wine, then still go to sleep feeling pretty sober, I wasn’t slurring my words or staggering about, I would simply fall asleep, sometimes still with a drink in my hand.  I lost count of the times I woke with half a bottle of wine still firmly clutched in my hand and without spilling a drop, I would wake sometimes around five o’clock, drink the rest of that bottle and then shortly after get up and get ready to go to work, it’s amazing how no one noticed.

Obviously there has been a saving in so many ways, in 1000 days I have saved the following;

Money:     £17,558
Units of Alcohol: 29777
Calories:     1693155

Although I feel pretty rough today, with a cold which has been brewing over the last few days, I can safely say that even that is far better than the permanent haze that I was walking around in, I wouldn’t change this freedom from that for anything.

Things here at home may still not be perfect, not all my prayers have been answered yet, but life is so much better since I put my trust in God and prayed for the strength to get by just one night without drinking, which through His grace turned into a new life without drinking.  Each day I wake knowing I still have the gift of the strength to see me through each day, no matter how good or bad the day may be.

I have spoken with my Dad this evening, my Uncle is doing much better today, yesterday wasn’t that good following the operation, he was in a lot of pain apparently, but he seems to be in good spirits today, which is very good news, we just await news of whether the operation has been a complete success.

It been an amazing journey over the last 1000 days and I have had some amazing experiences of God and His love, but this is just the beginning, just the first 1000 days, I look forward to many more.

HEALING BEGINS by TENTH AVENUE NORTH
So you thought you had to keep this up
All the work that you do
So we think that you’re good
And you can’t believe it’s not enough
All the walls you built up
Are just glass on the outside

So let ’em fall down
There’s freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground
We’re here now

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you’re broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark

Afraid to let your secrets out
Everything that you hide
Can come crashing through the door now
But too scared to face all your fear
So you hide but you find
That the shame won’t disappear

So let it fall down
There’s freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground
We’re here now
We’re here now, oh

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you’re broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark

Sparks will fly as grace collides
With the dark inside of us
So please don’t fight
This coming light
Let this blood come cover us
His blood can cover us

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you’re broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark

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