Category Archives: Music

A Journey In Four Songs

I’ve made no secret of how much music has been a part of my life and in particular part of my journey, from a trapped alcoholic to where I am now, messages through the music I listen to have been a vital part of the process.

When I walk I’ve often felt a song has played in answer to a thought or prayer that has been running through my mind at that point.  This morning was a little different, at first I felt one song had begun playing in answer to how I felt at that point, a little on the low side, it was Fall Apart by Josh Wilson, then followed by Becoming Who You Are by Mainstay, these two songs reminded me it’s okay to fail, it’s okay to struggle, God is there for us and as the song says “with every fall you’re just becoming who you are”.  I thought at that point that these two song were the answer to how I was feeling, then a third song played which added to the ongoing response to my feelings, this time Jars of Clay with Weapons, just a reminder that sometimes we don’t need to keep fighting, just let God go before us.  Then finally to complete the story was Our God Reigns by Jesus Culture.

So essentially it was as though I was feeling like I was falling apart, yet being told that’s okay, you can get through this and come out stronger, let God go before you and trust in him, all through four songs.

By the time I arrived at Church, I was once again feeling a completely different person and ready for a fantastic morning at Church once again.

FALL APART by JOSH WILSON
‘Cause my whole world is caving in
But I feel you now more than I did then
How can I come to the end of me
But somehow still have all I need?
God I want to know you more
Maybe this is how it starts
I find you when I fall apart

BECOME WHO YOU ARE by MAINSTAY
I keep on chasing the wrong things and coming up empty
This isn’t who I’m supposed to be
I keep on learning the hard way from every mistake
And I’m finding each time that you fall, you’re just becoming who you are

WEAPONS by JARS OF CLAY
Lay your weapons down
Lay your weapons down
There are no enemies in front of you

Hallelujah, we can finally see
How the bitterness was bruising on our skin
We didn’t notice that grace had run so thin
Till we’re falling apart and the cracks in our hearts let the truth sink in

OUR GOD REIGNS by JESUS CULTURE & MARTIN SMITH
Our God reigns
Our God reigns
Forever Your kingdom reigns
He reigns, He reigns
He reigns, He reigns
He reigns, He reigns

O For Grace by Brady Toops

I must admit I had never heard of Brady Toops until yesterday evening.  As you will know on YouTube you have suggestions down the right hand side of the page, when I was selecting a song to go with a post yesterday evening, I saw this song listed.

Normally I don’t bother clicking on any of these, I just select the video I want and then shut it down, but for some reason I clicked on this song.  I absolutely loved it the first time I heard it, it’s such a great song.  I downloaded the album version, but I think this version is so much better, it’s worth a listen.

O FOR GRACE by BRADY TOOPS
Oh for grace to lay down all my dreams in Him be found
O for faith to keep it true and never stop believing you

And when it’s strong or when it falls through
Oh lord to know my answer is you

And oh for love to trust some more to fix my eyes on heaven’s shore
And for hope with every step every word my every breath 

When it’s strong or when it falls through 
Oh lord to know my answer is you

For your light I lose my all, cause I’m not staying here, I’m moving on
So give me strength to hold on tight through stormy gales ‘til morning light

When it’s strong or when it falls through 
When it’s strong or when it falls through 
When it’s strong or when it falls through 
Oh lord to know my answer is you

Washed By The Water

Over the last few days I’ve written a few times about my fears and thoughts on the vision that I witnessed back in October.

There have been a few things this week that have helped to calm this fear, together with a number of other things this week that I’ve managed to get under control.

But this morning I had one of those moments which put my mind at complete rest. Once more it was in the form of a song that I’ve heard dozens of times, but this morning the song rang out with words which spoke to me in my current predicament.

Even when the rain falls
Even when the flood starts risin’
‘Cause even when the storm comes
I am washed by the water

There have been so many times I’ve been spoken to via my music, not just since I found God, but before also, but this morning this song did just what I needed it to do.

WASHED BY THE WATER by NEEDTOBREATHE
Daddy was a preacher
She was his wife
Just tryin’ to make the world a little better you know, shine a light

People started talking
Just to hear their own voice
Those people tried to accuse my father said he made the wrong choice

Though it might be painful
You know that time will always tell
Those people have long since gone
My father never failed

Even when the rain falls
Even when the flood starts risin’
‘Cause even when the storm comes
I am washed by the water
Even when the rain falls
Even when the flood starts risin’
Even when the storm comes
I am washed by the water

Even when the Earth crumbles under my feet
Even when the ones I love, turn around and crucify me
I won’t never ever let you down
I won’t fall
I won’t fall
I won’t fall as long as You’re around me

Even when the rain falls
Even when the flood starts risin’
‘Cause even when the storm comes
I am washed by the water
Even when the rain falls
Even when the flood starts risin’
Even when the storm comes
I am washed by the water

Even when the rain falls
Even when the flood starts risin’
‘Cause even when the storm comes
I am washed by the water
Even when the rain falls
Even when the flood starts risin’
Even when the storm comes
I am washed by the water

Words: Heard & Unheard

Sometimes the words we need to hear are said but not heard, I spent so much time hearing the Truth, but stuck in the seemingly never ending circle of an addiction you never seem to take things in, you carry this “I’m alright, it’s everybody else” attitude, you believe they are the ones with the problem and really you just wish they would go away, leave you alone.

For me these words were not just coming from those close to me, but also in the form or music, it’s no secret that music has formed a large part of my everyday life, it’s very rare I go anywhere without my headphones on.

About eighteen months before I began to really struggle, I started listening to Christian artists, I’m not sure why or how, but I liked the music and actually began to gravitate towards that as opposed to secular music, but still I never heard the messages within the words, the Truth still passed me by.

Now I rarely listen to anything other than Christian artists.  I have certain songs that I listen to if I feeling a certain way, some songs to match a mood or simply for inspiration.

Since New Year when I put together a number of bible verses to go with the empty wine bottles that remained in my cellar, I’ve been choosing a verse each day, dependant on how I feel, I search for something to go with my feelings, whether I need inspiration, strength or for gratitude and praise, I search for a verse and place it onto one of the photo’s I’ve taken over the last year, then of course I add a song to the post and a brief thought to go with the verse.  All of these images with verse I have saved in a folder on my laptop.  A while back I set my screen saver to scroll through these images.

Now from time to time I find myself just looking at the laptop as the screen saver scrolls through the numerous verses, there is nearly always one that pops up that gives me a lift, that bit of inspiration, simply put it must be the best screen saver ever!

I try not to let these words pass me by anymore, I spent too much time letting the Truth just breeze by, rather than stop, listen and take it.

WHAT IF I MADE A MISTAKE? by STEPHANIE SMITH
There’s a gentle guiding in my gut
It shows me the way out when I’m in a rut
This time it led me to my knees
Instead I chose to do as I please
Now I think it is too late

What if I made a mistake?
What if I heard you but I ignored you
How many tries will it take?
What if I made a mistake?

Oh the steady burning in my heart
It gave me direction right from the start
This time I took the long way around
Until I found myself face on the ground
I guess it is never too late

What if I made a mistake?
What if I heard you but I ignored you
How many tries will it take?
What if I made a mistake?

It’s real relentless and it won’t let me go
I can’t fight this, this dirt on my soul
It’s relentless and it won’t let me go
I can’t fight this, this dirt on my soul

What if I made a mistake?
What if I heard you but I ignored you
How many tries will it take?
What if I made a mistake? 

What if I made a mistake?
What if I made a mistake?
What if I made a mistake?

What if I made a mistake?

Beautiful Rider

The new Jake Hamilton album was only released earlier today, I started to listen to the full album this evening, but after hearing the title track I couldn’t listen to anything else, I’ve had it on repeat ever since.

BEAUTIFUL RIDER by JAKE HAMILTON
How beautiful is the rider on the white horse
How beautiful is the lamb that was slain
How beautiful is the rider on the white horse
Worthy is your name. Worthy is your name.

Our only hope was wrapped in hay
Our Fathers promise to show the way
He lived to set the captive free
And died to live inside of me
He is Savior He is Lord
Emanuel The living word

How beautiful is the rider on the white horse
How beautiful is the lamb that was slain
How beautiful is the rider on the white horse
Worthy is your name. Worthy is your name.

There’s a man who’s wrapped in light
With eyes of fire burning bright
With feet like bronze and a blinding glow
A golden sash and hair like snow
He is King and he is judge
He is mercy and he is love

How beautiful is the rider on the white horse
How beautiful is the lamb that was slain
How beautiful is the rider on the white horse
Worthy is your name. Worthy is your name.

Your a Lion, Your a lamb
Your a Lion, Your a lamb
Your a Lion, Your a lamb
And all creation bows before you

Your a Lion, Your a lamb
Your a Lion, Your a lamb
Your a Lion, Your a lamb
And all creation bows before you

Your a Lion, Your a lamb
Your a Lion, Your a lamb
Your a Lion, Your a lamb
And all creation bows before you

Your a Lion, Your a lamb
Your a Lion, Your a lamb
Your a Lion, Your a lamb
And all creation bows before you

Verse of the Day – John 3:16

John 3:16

John 3:16

I heard this song on the way to work this morning, it’s the first time I’ve really listened to it, but all I can say is that it’s message spoke to me.

SO LOVED by MATTHEW WEST
Some say they’re just nothing
But some words upon a page
In a dusty old bible
At a back road revival
Or a Sunday School lesson from Childhood days
Yeah and some say they’re just numbers
Just some numbers on a sign

3:16

They don’t mean a thing
We see it all the time
But the world pays no mind

Well, all I can tell you
Is what it means to me
These are the numbers of my hope
These are the words that set me free
They tell the story of a savior
Who gave his life for me
And with all that is within me I believe

For God so loved
So loved the world
He gave His one and only Son
For God so loved

My Daddy was a preacher
Made me who I am
Told me Jesus wants to reach you
And Jesus did through Billy Graham
I heard him talking through that TV
He said come just as I am
So I Came

Now in my life I’ve failed and fallen
I have drifted far and wide
I have wandered from my calling
I’ve believed that devil’s lies
But I never have forgotten
The truth that pulled me from the bottom
From the day I joined that prodigal parade

For God so loved
So loved the world
He gave His one and only Son
For God so loved

All who believe will never die
But will have eternal life
For God so loved

Hallelu, hallelujah
You sent You one and only Son
For God so loved

Hallelu, hallelujah
You sent You one and only Son
For God so loved

Every life’s defining moment
Is the moment you decide
What will you do with Jesus?
Will you let Him change your life?
Well, it’s an open invitation
Calling out to everyone
It don’t matter where you’ve been
It don’t matter what you’ve done
Hear that still small voice calling
It’s calling you to come
And if there words wash over you
Your new life has begun
Your new life has begun
Your new life…

For God so loved
So loved the world
He gave His one and only Son
For God so loved

All who believe will never die
But you will have eternal life
For God so loved

But you will have eternal life
For God so loved

The Most Unexpected Of Comments

These days I’m getting used to waking up at random hours in the morning, it’s become the norm for me. Like many I guess one of the first things I do, especially in these days of smart phones, I check my social networking accounts.

Usually it’s Twitter or WordPress then maybe Facebook, although to be honest I don’t spend much time on there these days, I only check to see if I’ve become a target for more veiled attacks from people I once called friends.

I’m aware of late I haven’t been responding to any comments on my blog, to be quite honest I’ve been posting, but not really interested in my blog of late, I’ve not been too positive over the last few months, which is not what I set out to be. I haven’t been visiting many of my followers either,interactive blogging has been a chore and one of many things that have slipped over the past weeks.

But one comment this morning has breathed a bit of new life into my blogging life. When I checked my interactions this morning I had a notification to approve a comment, not from a fellow blogger, not even one of my recent posts either, but from a search which found a post of mine from back in March.

Back in March just three days after my Nan died the song that I wanted as a tribute to her I couldn’t find on YouTube to go with a post about her, so I made a lyric video for the song Mama by Flyleaf.

So I was amazed this morning to find a comment from Lori Mosley, the Mother of Lacey Sturm, the former lead singer of Flyleaf.  Not only that but Lori wrote and sings the last part of the song.

I still find it unbelievable that in this day and age of technology, that not only does my blog and testimony reach out across the world, but it was also found and commented upon by the Mother of someone I admire and respect, in fact for nearly two years Flyleaf’s song All Around Me was the ringtone on my phone.

That got me thinking again though, that was way back in autumn 2008, at the time I was far from a Christian and thought that the song was about a relationship, now when I hear it I understand that yes it’s about a relationship, but one with God (although I still want to answer my phone we it comes on). There are many Christian songs I listened to before I was saved, many I heard and never understood, that’s all changed a little bit now.  Music is a big part of my life and Christian and inspiring music is something I listen to a lot, especially when walking.  My current favourites aren’t hard to spot, they tend to accompany my recent posts, over the last few months the music of Jesus Culture and associated artists has been my go to music when I’m low and in need of lifting, but the music of Flyleaf and other artists still make up my regular daily playlist.

Thank you Lori for your kind comment and encouragement, I really appreciate it, as I do all the comments I receive, I read them all and appreciate everyone of them, thank you all so much.

As things improve each day and I feel more positive as each one passes, maybe I can get back to the more positive and hopefully inspirational posts.

ALL AROUND ME by FLYLEAF
My hands are searching for you…
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips…
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire runs in through my being…
Burning…
I’m not used to seeing you

I’m alive, I’m alive, I’m alive

I can feel you all around me,
thickening the air I’m breathing
Holding on to what I’m feeling,
savoring this heart that’s healing

My hands float up above me….
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade…
Into our secret place
The music makes me sway…
The angels singing say
We are alone with you…
I am alone and they are too with you

And so I cry…
The light is white…
And I see you…

I’m alive, I’m alive, I’m alive

I can feel you all around me,
Thickening the air I’m breathing
Holding on to what I’m feeling,
Savoring this heart that’s healing

Take my hand I give it to you
Now you own me , all I am..
You said you would never leave me
I believe you, I believe…
I can feel you all around me
thickening the air I’m breathing
Holding on to what I’m feeling,
Savoring this heart that’s healed