Category Archives: Sobriety

My drinking to my downfall and the rebuilding process.

Verse of the Day – Philippians 4:4

Philippians 4:4

Philippians 4:4

As I count yet another day of freedom from the binds of alcohol addiction, currently 1908 days sober, I have every reason to rejoice, everyday I can count as sober I will rejoice in the Lord, always.

BETTER LOVE by GREEN RIVER ORDINANCE
Faith is not an idle grace
Guide my fears and lead my way
Darkest heart that You have saved
I can’t find a better love

When I set out for ruined lands
Shadows heavy where I stand
You took death and called me friend
I can’t find a better love

You take me as I am
Now I understand

The greatest gift to give a man
Is to give him grace to live again

Faith is not an idle grace
Guide my fears and lead my way
The darkest heart that You have saved
I can’t find a better love

You take me as I am
Now I understand

The greatest gift to give a man
Is to give him grace to live…

My wages of captivity and death,
it waited there for me
You took me in and washed me clean
And gave me words and songs to sing

You take me as I am
Now I understand

You take me as I am
Now I understand

The greatest gift to give a man
Is to give him grace to live again

The greatest gift to give a man
Is to give him grace to live again

Verse of the Day – Joel 2:13

Joel 2:13

Joel 2:13

Today I have made it to 1900 days of sobriety, I’ve only made it through this far because of His grace and compassion for me.  His love has been my guide through everyday, the good ones and the bad.

GRACE AND LOVE by KUTLESS
Many things in life are hard for me
Many things can pull us down
I don’t understand why I do what I do
How could I take my eyes off you
After all You’ve done for me
And after all You’ve done for me

It’s by Your grace and love I am saved
It’s by Your grace and love You’ve forgiven me, hey
And by that love and grace, I’m amazed
It’s by Your grace and love I am free
I am free

And it’s by grace and love that I am free
I’ll live with you eternally
I thank you Lord that I am free
I thank you Lord for loving me
I thank you Lord for dying upon the tree of Calvary
I thank you Lord for loving me
I thank you Lord for dying for me

Because it’s by grace and love I am saved
It’s by Your grace and love You’ve forgiven me, hey
And by that love and grace, I’m amazed
It’s by Your grace and love I am free
I am free

Many things in life are hard for me
But by grace and love You’ve forgiven me
And by grace and love we are free
 

Verse of the Day – Hebrews 4:15

Hebrews 4:15

Hebrews 4:15

I am thankful that we have a saviour that was tested yet overcome, when I was fallen and struggling with my drinking, He came and helped me find my way back out of the wilderness.

STARLIGHT by BETHEL MUSIC & KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL
You’re like starlight in the dark
Endless miles can’t conceal You
And every glimmer is a spark
Catching fire as You break through

Oh, You’re not far away
You’re coming close
And oh, even as I wait
You’re coming close

You’re like summer in the night
The sun goes down but still I feel You
And every shadow’s turning bright
Every broken heart is made new

Oh, You’re not far away
You’re coming close
And oh, even as I wait
You’re coming close

And there’s no heart unseen
There’s no space between
You and I
You and I
You are closer than
The very oxygen
I’m breathing in
Oh, I breath You in
You are God with us
You are here with us
Immanuel!
Immanuel!
You are infinite
Your glory has no end
Jesus!
Jesus!

There’s no heart unseen
There’s no space between
You and I
You and I
‘Cause You are closer than
The very oxygen
I’m breathing in
Oh, I breath You in
You are God with us
You are here with us
Immanuel!
Immanuel!
You are infinite
Your glory has no end
Jesus!
Jesus!

Oh, You’re not far away
You’re coming close
And oh, even as I wait
You’re coming close

‘Cause You’re like starlight in the dark
Endless miles can’t conceal You
And every glimmer is a spark
Catching fire as You break through…

Verse of the Day – John 10:10

John 10:10

John 10:10

For years I let the alcohol steal my life, it took everything I had and did it’s best to take my life, but when I opened the door to Christ, I found life.

WHEN YOU WALK INTO THE ROOM by BRYAN AND KATIE TORWALT
When You walk into the room
Everything changes
Darkness starts to tremble
At the light that you bring
When You walk into the room
Every heart starts burning
Than just to sit here at your feet
And worship you
We worship you

We Love You, and we’ll never stop
We can’t live without You, Jesus
We Love You, We can’t get enough
All this is for You, Jesus

When You walk into the room
Sickness starts to vanish
Every hopeless situation
Ceases to exist
When You walk into the room
The dead begin to rise
Cause there is resurrection life
In all You do

We Love You, and we’ll never stop
We can’t live without You, Jesus
We Love You, We can’t get enough
All this is for You, Jesus

Come and consume God
All we are
We give You permission
Our hearts are Yours
We want You
We want You

Come and consume God
All we are
We give You permission
Our hearts are Yours
We want You
We want You

Come and consume God
All we are
We give You permission
Our hearts are Yours
We want You
We want You

Come and consume God
All we are
We give You permission
Our hearts are Yours
We want You
We want You

We Love You, and we’ll never stop
We can’t live without You, Jesus
We Love You, We can’t get enough
All this is for You, Jesus

Oh how we love You
Oh how we love You

 

Verse of the Day – Psalm 94:18

Psalm 94:18

Psalm 94:18

There has been so many times in this sober journey where I have felt my foot slip, but though I may slip, He never let me fall, when it was too hard to go on, He rested with me, when I didn’t want to go on anymore, He walked by my side, my encouragement through every night, His unfailing Love has seen me through everything.

UNSTOPPABLE LOVE by JESUS CULTURE & KIM WALKER-SMITH
Try to stop Your love, and You would wage a war
Try to take the very thing, You gave Your life for
And You would come running, tear down every wall
All the while shouting, “My love you’re worth it all!”

God, You pursue me, with power and glory
Unstoppable love that never ends
You’re unrelenting, with passion and mercy
Unstoppable love that never ends

You broke into the silence, and sang a song of hope
A melody resounding, in the deep of my soul
You have come running, You tore down every wall
All the while shouting, “My love you’re worth it all!”

God, You pursue me, with power and glory
Unstoppable love that never ends
You’re unrelenting, with passion and mercy
Unstoppable love that never ends

No sin, no shame, no past, no pain
Can separate me from Your love
No height, no depth, no fear, no death
Can separate me from Your love

No sin, no shame, no past, no pain
Can separate me from Your love
No height, no depth, no fear, no death
Can separate me from Your love

God, You pursue me, with power and glory
Unstoppable love that never ends
You’re unrelenting, with passion and mercy
Unstoppable love that never ends

No sin, no shame, no past, no pain
Can separate me from Your love
No height, no depth, no fear, no death
Can separate me from Your love

No sin, no shame, no past, no pain
Can separate me from Your love
No height, no depth, no fear, no death
Can separate me from Your love

No sin, no shame, no past, no pain
Can separate me from Your love
No height, no depth, no fear, no death
Can separate me from Your love

No sin, no shame, no past, no pain
Can separate me from Your love
No height, no depth, no fear, no death
Can separate me from Your love

 

Verse of the Day – Psalm 32:5

Psalm 32:5

Psalm 32:5

From my first meeting with my Pastor I began to confess to all my sins and the control my addiction had over my actions, from that night I stopped hiding, more importantly I stopped hiding the truth from myself, by being open, I found out more about myself and who I had become that I ever realised.  I confessed this all to God and asked for help and strength to overcome, He forgave my sins and answered my prayers.

So five years on I can still speak my testimony of God’s great works.

ECHO THE SON by RED ROCKS CHURCH WORSHIP
House this heart so prone to leave
Yield my pride oh Lord to Thee
May my prayer echo the Son
Not my will but Yours be done

’cause Lord You are worthy
You raise me up mighty and strong
Let my testimony, be all for Your glory
Be all for Your Kingdom to come

Oh-ohhhhhhhhh-ohhh
Oh-ohhhhhh oh-ohh-ohhhh

For God alone my soul will wait
My trust and hope in You I place
Evermore my prayer shall be-eeeee-oh-ohh
Oh let Your will be done in me
Oh-ohhhh-ohh

’cause Lord You are worthy
You raise me up mighty and strong
Let my testimony, be all for Your glory
Be all for Your Kingdom to come

’cause Lord You are worthy
You raise me up mighty and strong
Let my testimony, be all for Your glory
Be all for Your Kingdom to come

Oh-ohhhhhhhhh-ohhh
Oh-ohhhhhh oh-ohh-ohhhh

I will trust in You
For You are in control
Falling on my knees
Oh I surrender all

Oh I will trust in You
For You are in control
Falling on my knees
Oh I surrender all

Oh I will trust in You
For You are in control
Falling on my knees
Oh I surrender all

Oh I will trust in You
For You are in control
Falling on my knees
Oh I surrender all

Oh I will trust in You
Oh I will trust in You (Oh-ohh-ohhh)
Yes I will trust in You
Oh I will trust in You
Oh-ohh Lord

Lord You are worthy
You raise me up mighty and strong
Let my testimony, be all for Your glory
Be all for Your Kingdom to come

’cause Lord You are worthy
You raise me up mighty and strong
Let my testimony, be all for Your glory
Be all for Your Kingdom to come

’cause Lord You are worthy
You raise me up mighty and strong

Home

Home

Time spent wandering aimlessly
Knocking upon doors
That never received me
The only place that with open arms
Would ever receive me
Was deep at the bottom of the bottle
I was blind
And my ears distorted
I could hear the words
But always turned my face

It took the edge of death
To bring me to life
My eyes were opened
I could see the door
The door wide open
That I had ran from so many times
Where the Father stood with open arms
Waiting
Waiting for me to come home
To release me from my chains

In open arms my heart fell
Clothed in the love of the beloved Son
The One who gave His life for my soul
Now held me same within arms
I came home to the Father’s heart
Felt the love which I’d searched so hard
All my addiction just fell away
I rose again
Now I could see
The Son who for died for me