Trust me, I've been there, I've looked, I've searched and I know now, that there are no answers to be found in the bottom of a bottle or on the edge of a blade! Fighting Hard, Recovering, Rebuilding, REBORN. Moving on from addiction to a new life.
Where was my mind Of tortured torment and turmoil Trying to find a way out Searching for a reason For being stuck in that bottle Not wanting to return Still one can only take so much Before a heart and soul can break Where no matter what the comfort zone You still need a way to move on But how and why It’s so cosy there Trapped inside that bottle Where nothing makes much sense Yet no one can reach you You’ve shut out the ones you love And the world outside doesn’t give two hoots What was the point i n carrying on You can cry all your tears Blame the world for all you like But the walls keep closing in And the air within the bottle gets so very tight But at the moment of the breaking It takes all the strength you have To turn oneself into a hypocrite And cry out to the Lord On someone come save me Of this drowning I can take no more Still no matter where you find yourself The cries are answered by the Lord He who breaks down all walls before Him Rips apart the barriers we build No one is beyond saving Who cries out to our God Now with a sober mindset I can look back on those times And in these words I’ve written here You can clearly see where was my mind But now it’s been set free by grace Release to a world beyond the bottle By the saviour who heard the cries Of a s self tortured mind So this mind now lives in the hope To see the Christ at His returning
No longer in the mist The haze The almost there But not really My mind is clear It is my own No longer controlled From the bottom of a bottle Grace released me Grace set a mind free With a heart to beat And soul to live And for the I’m thankful For the good moments lived This moment right now And all that is to come
I have found my way From the torment of my past To the peace our Lord brings Time and again I wept in pain To face an end at the bottom of the glass Still His voice came calling through And I rose again in the grace He gives A sober mind I rest in now Shadows o the bottle all at rest So now I look to our Lord One who took the cross for us For when I remain in Him and He in me I find a way to make it through
I took a drink to find slumber Until the effect no longer held To drain the bottles a way of life Once the only way to fall asleep Then a mind confused by life A mind lost in the chaos of living A darkened heart upon the edge A drunken life close to the end
Then grace opened the door bringing forth light Shadows of the mind diminished A clarity flooded down to this heart A will to end was lifted with a whisper A drunken life that day found it’s end Now a living praising grace I live With Christ I walk in mercy’s glory With a sober mind to live each day