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Ups And Downs Of Working Life

I have to say the last couple of months have seen a real swing in terms of work, at the beginning of last month I was facing an investigation at work, we were caught out in a number of transactions by an individual that turned out to fraudulent, myself and a colleague, although in no way complicit, did not follow correct company protocol that could have minimized the risk of being caught out.

For a week as the investigation went on, we both could have been sacked, although our Manager was on our side and understood we were put on the spot, made a judgement call and got it wrong under pressure, he didn’t think we would get the sack, just a warning, but if he was pressured by his superiors, they could push for dismissal, as it was they pushed only for a written warning and that was what we received, we both breathed a sigh of relief.

My colleague feared the sack far more than I did, when I heard of the investigation, I was nervous about facing the interview about my part in it, but I was really not that bothered if I was to lose my job, I had prayed about it and each time I felt I was being told not to worry, whatever happens there are bigger plans for me anyway and things will be fine in the mean time.

We have been that busy over the last few months that it really is exhausting work some days, we don’t have enough staff and there isn’t enough time in the day to do everything that I need to do to fulfil my job, to say I have been a bit fed up with it at times is an understatement, I guess in a way I’m not that happy with the job at the moment, it’s just hard work and there doesn’t seem to be that much help for our branch from the company, due to budgets and finance etc, even though we are beating our budgets month after month.

I also find it hard in my job to feel as though I showing my Christian values.  It’s a builder’s merchants, most of our customers speak in a rough and ready fashion, with casual swearing the norm, I guess I used to swear a lot before, but since I became a Christian I try not to, but it’s hard not to when those all around are.  Even when we are busy, I sometimes think my colleagues aren’t really pulling their weight, they don’t go that extra mile, just do the minimum they have to do, I try to just get on with it and do whatever what needs to be done.

So all of this has been playing on my mind.  Until last night, it was our area’s regional roadshow, basically a meeting of all the branches in our area, to discuss how we are doing as a region and how things can be improved.

Part of the meetings there are a few awards handed out and last night I received an award from the company for all of our area, which is seventeen branches with over 180 employees, I received the most positive feedback for customer service from our customers than any other of the employees.

It could have been awkward, as most of the time the awards include a few vouchers and a bottle of something, thankfully my Manager had forewarned his Area Director that this wouldn’t be a good idea, so I just got a few more vouchers instead, which is fine by me.

I do think it a little ironic that the same company that last month could have sacked me, this month is giving me an award!

This morning as I walked to work, I was thinking about what this award really means, then I had this real sense that I was being told that this is how I stand out as a Christian in my work place, you go the bit extra for people and they recognise that and they obviously appreciate it, that’s why you got the award you did.

So even in a place where I find it hard to be the Christian I would like to be, to stand out as different to the others, in a place where I felt I wasn’t doing what I should be doing, it seems I am standing out to my customers and they obviously recognise it.

I came across this version of the song Brother by NeedToBreathe the other day, I thought the original off their last album was good, but this version with Gavin DeGraw is even better and well worth a listen.

Ramblers in the wilderness we can’t find what we need
Get a little restless from the searching 
Get a little worn down in between
Like a bull chasing the matador is the man left to his own schemes
Everybody needs someone beside em’ shining like a lighthouse from the sea

Brother let me be your shelter
I’ll never leave you all alone
I can be the one you call
When you’re low
Brother let me be your fortress
When the night winds are driving on
Be the one to light the way
Bring you home

Face down in the desert now there’s a cage locked around my heart
I found a way to drop the keys where my failures were 
Now my hands can’t reach that far
I ain’t made for a rivalry I could never take the world alone
I know that in my weakness I am strong, but
It’s your love that brings me home

Brother let me be your shelter
I’ll never leave you all alone
I can be the one you call
When you’re low
Brother let me be your fortress
When the night winds are driving on
Be the one to light the way
Bring you home

And when you call and need me near
Sayin’ where’d you go?
Brother I’m right here
And on those days when the sky begins to fall
You’re the blood of my blood
We can get through it all

Brother let me be your shelter
I’ll never leave you all alone
I can be the one you call
When you’re feelin’ low
Brother let me be your fortress
When the night winds are driving on
Be the one to light the way
Bring you home

Brother let me be your shelter
I’ll never leave you all alone
I can be the one you call
When you’re low
Brother let me be your fortress
When the night winds are driving on
Be the one to light the way
Bring you home
Be the one to light the way
Bring you home

My First Blogging Award

Reality Blog Award

Reality Blog Award

So after two days of a few ups and downs, I’ve had chance to reflect on my first blogging award, so gratefully received on my day of anniversaries, the day of my 39th birthday (oh heck, one more year then I’m 40), 36 sober weeks (every Thursday is a SoberDay for me) and then two months after I start this blog I receive my first award, REALITY Blog Award, from Candy S at Finding Order In Chaos, it is so appreciated.

I try to write straight from my heart and the pain or the ecstasy of my memories.  I treasure every comment I receive, I’ve not received anything negative, just some fantastic comments of praise, support, inspiration and some proclaiming me as an inspiration, I thank you all for your likes and comments.

So in the spirit of the award I make my own six nominations below, with obviously a link to each blog and a brief explanation as to why I have nominated their blog.

Lost Companion

My writings mainly come from processed memories of where I’ve been and what has happened, over the last month I have seen this young Blogger see her father go into rehab, only for her father to tragically die and then see her deal with all of this, in real time, not memories, as it happens in the true spirit of reality.

I’m sure I couldn’t be as strong as she has been if I was in her shoe’s, I pray for her, an inspiration of spirit for us all.

Hope For Heather

I’ve never heard of Cowden’s Syndrome before, I still not sure I understand it, but once again another Blogger going through these experiences in real time, exploring and posting on the reality of their day to day situation.

My achievements pale in comparison to the day to day struggles Heather and other like her face, I’ve been able to walk away from my demon, she has to face her’s everyday, she will be in my prayers.

Human in Recovery

Another Blogger who goes through each day dealing with the ongoing reality of their situation, unable to just put it behind them and walk away from it, just finding the strength everyday to keep moving forward despite everything and still post about it.

Once again I am inspired by the strength Kina show’s in face of the reality of her situation.

Running On Sober

Another alcoholic in recovery, another dealing with the day to day reality of not wanting to fall back to the mess we were.  We have a lot in common, not just the alcohol, but our love of music for inspiration and her running and my walking.

I’m inspired by many others who are working through the same as myself and Christy, but I can’t nominate everyone, but as one of my earliest followers and frequent commenters, especially after the kind comments and songs posted on my post Wylie & Me, for that I thank her with all my heart and nominate her for this award.

Robin Claire

Another of my fellow alcoholics in recovery and another Born Again Christian who found God in the most amazing of circumstances.  Her posts about her Christianity and recovery are from her personal experiences and help me and I’m sure others come to terms with the reality of their own situations.

She has left me some of the most fantastic comments, both praise and inspiration, she has taken me under her wing so to speak, become a bit of a mother figure, such a lovely human being, I’m blessed to have found her.

Deep And Wonderful Thoughts

This blog focuses more on the spiritual side of life, but with some very thought provoking posts on life, spirituality and everything in between.

Amazingly her cover picture is the image of the tunnel and light I described in my post The Wind Up Torch, I’ve never seen the picture before and she had never seen my post before, just one of those life coincidences.

Also she has asked my to contribute an article on my journey with God and how it has changed my life, as part of a feature she has planned for her Blog throughout January, I am so proud to have been asked, thank you so much.

So there you have it my wonderful nominees, please give their Blogs a read, if you haven’t already.

My understanding of this award is that each nominee should do as follows:

a) Display the award logo on your blog.

b) Link back to the person who nominated you.

c) Answer the Questions below

d) Pass the award onto to any other bloggers you want — and link to one of their specific posts so that they get notified by ping back

So here are my Answers to the Questions:

If you could change something what would you change?

I can only change my past by changing my future, I know that doesn’t make much sense, but stay with me here.

I cannot change the things I’ve done, I can’t change the person I’ve been, but I can learn from the mistakes I’ve made and change who I am going to be, thereby growing from the roots of my past mistakes.

I would never change my walk with God and Jesus, only wish I could have made the journey sooner.

If you could relive one day, when would it be?

I would relive my Baptism day, everyday again and again for the rest of my life, if that was my Groundhog Day, I would never tire of life.

What’s one thing that really scares you?

Now I found God in my life, it scares that if I stop counting my Days, I might also lose my walk with God.

What one dream have you not completed yet, and do you think you will be able to complete it?

My ultimate dream would be to rebuild my relationship with my Partner, under the love God, I don’t know whether that dream will ever come to fruition, but I’ll keep praying.

If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be?

I don’t deserve to be anybody other than myself, my shoes are mine to walk in and I will live and die by my mistakes, my failures, my triumphs and my achievements.

I wouldn’t wish anybody else the pain of walking in my shoes either, for one thing they smell a bit, plus I’m only a size seven (UK size), a bit small for most normal men.

So there you have it, my first Award Ceremony so to speak, I hope the recipients enjoy their award as much as I have.  I’m sorry I couldn’t nominate everyone, I hope there will be other awards, so I can spread the love and appreciation further.

I can never finish a post without my usual song, so today I give you Strong City by NewSong:

“We all have days that we just can’t escape
Everything we try
Every trial we face
It gets the best of us
Our strength is not enough
But His greatness will not be shadowed
And His kingdom will last forever, forever”
(Strong City by NewSong)

Thank you all for putting up with my ramblings and I hope you stay with me, wherever this journey takes me, I will take you all along with me for the ride.