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What an amazing promise of God this is. Knowing that I am His, has been the only thing that has got me through some trying times in the last few years.
EMBRACE by JAKE HAMILTON I want to feel Your embrace I want to feel Your arms around I want to feel Your heart beating Next to mine, next to mine
And it’s telling me
It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay
I want to see You Your face Want to see who I can be Want to see what You can see In the mirror of Your eyes
And You’re telling me
It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay
And I know, if Your eye is on the sparrow Than Your heart is on me
And I don’t have to wait To go to heaven when I die I wanna go right now We’re gonna go right now
‘Cause this is the sound of heaven Invading earth, this is the sound
I have worried myself so many times over the direction of my life and how I would get through if things didn’t go the way I had hoped, the truth is that despite all my fear, He never left me, He gave me everything I needed to get through.
EMBRACE by JAKE HAMILTON I want to feel Your embrace I want to feel Your arms around I want to feel Your heart beating Next to mine, next to mine
And it’s telling me
It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay
I want to see You Your face Want to see who I can be Want to see what You can see In the mirror of Your eyes
And You’re telling me
It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay
And I know, if Your eye is on the sparrow Than Your heart is on me
And I don’t have to wait To go to heaven when I die I wanna go right now We’re gonna go right now
‘Cause this is the sound of heaven Invading earth, this is the sound
For us all there is a fortress Where our weary souls Find rest within the battles He is the Father Our gift of salvation And in His arms we find protection So let us run to His embrace And find rest in His majestic presence Where we can never be shaken again
Remember a time when you were afar In a place of distant darkness Swimming against the tide I watched over you from closer than you knew Keeping you safe when it felt like the end
Father I was so far away on the edge of existing Plotting a path of simple destruction Yet now Lord in this emptiness I drift Empty echoes of my silent screams Ring within this mind of unfeeling fog
Remember you’ll always be close no matter how far I gave my Son for the world This I did to bring the lost ones home So tonight I bring you ever close Into the Father’s unending embrace
I came home yesterday evening from our Church youth groups Christmas get together to some sad news. When I checked Facebook, at the top was a post from a friend in London. He posted that a member of his Karate club, whom I met some years ago, had recently been struggling with mental health issues and in the end, with it all becoming too much, had taken his own life, it just brought home how fragile the human mind is!
I met Leon about nine years ago when I travelled to London to train at his club which is run by our organisations Chief Instructor, I had the pleasure of pairing off with him, he was by then in his mid to late fifties, I was early thirties and had just made it onto the England squad, to cap it off he always wore a white belt, the mark of beginner despite the fact he had been a black belt for over 30 years, he announced his attack to me, a kick, which I assumed given his age would be to my stomach, I got a surprise when he rattled my head when kicked me right in the ear. I learnt that day never to judge a book by it’s cover.
I have to say I have been very negative in the last couple of days, after hearing this news I was feeling even more negative this morning, after the struggle of the last couple of months, the dip into deep depression and having worked so hard, yet not having a lot to show for it, this morning I really wanted Christmas to pass me by, just to sleep through it and wake again in the new year, I even contemplated quitting blogging for a while.
After work this morning I shot into town, the crowds and the slow pace everyone seems to move really got to me, so I walked home with only a fraction of what I wanted to get, I was by then feeling even more that this Christmas is just not going to work out for me.
Then something changed, on my iPod a song played that I hadn’t heard before, it’s from an album I brought a couple of weeks ago with some iTunes vouchers I got for my birthday, I found myself singing along as I walked and with each word I began to feel so much calmer, with each step the negativity began to subside.
So this Christmas may not work out the way I would like it to, but what will be will be.
IT’S ALL GONNA BE OKAY!
EMBRACE by JAKE HAMILTON I want to feel your embrace I want to feel your arms around I want to feel your heart beating Next to mine next to mine
And it’s telling me
It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay
I want to see you your face Want to see who I can be Want to see what you can see In the mirror of your eyes
And you’re telling me
It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay
And I know if your eye is on the sparrow Then your heart is on me
It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay It’s all gonna be okay
Praise The Lord with all my soul All that is in me Praise his name Praise The Lord with all my soul All that is in me
And I don’t have to wait To go to heaven when I die I wanna go right now We’re gonna go right now
’cause this is the sound of heaven Invading earth this is the sound
The Bottom of a Bottle 