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Verse of the Day – Ecclesiastes 7:8-9

Ecclesiastes 7:8-9

Ecclesiastes 7:8-9

I still seem to be harboring some pent up frustration, which boarders on anger, but I pray for better days, I pray for clarity and peace, brighter days are coming.

HEALING NOW by SICK PUPPIES
I wrestle with my thoughts at night
Anchored to the ropes I tied to myself
Heaviness in my both my legs
Like I walked a thousand miles a day

If I could stand on top of my world
I’d still be looking up at stars that I can never touch

When a sky full of tears falls to the earth
I gotta believe we’re healing now
Now before you give up, before it gets worse
I have to believe we’re healing now

Healing now
Healing now
Healing now

From where I stand it’s hard to see
What anyone has to offer me today
Courage comes from letting go
And loving everything you fear away

If I could stand on top of my world
I’d still be looking up at stars that I can never touch

When a sky full of tears falls to the earth
I gotta believe we’re healing now
Now before you give up, before it gets worse
I have to believe we’re healing now

Healing now
Healing now
Healing now

I dream about war
I live without peace
A cell without bars
Breathe air I can’t breathe
I choose to believe
In the face of my doubts
I am what I see
I am healing now

Healing now

When a sky full of tears falls to the earth
I gotta believe we’re healing now
Now before you give up, before it gets worse
I have to believe we’re healing now

Healing now
Healing now
Healing now

I Can’t Fight No More

I CAN’T FIGHT NO MORE

I can’t fight no more
This frustration is beating me down
I feel it rising deep within
As the poison arrows
Strike from every direction
This anger rides the veins
Invading the heart
Extinguishing the fire within
Like a poison within soul

I stand at the centre
Of a lonely battlefield
Holding on with all I have
Yet slowly I fall
Upon my knees
Surrounded by darkened eyes
Where the fire behind
Died long before
I’m on my knees
I can’t fight no more

I can’t fight no more
I will stand aside
I can’t defeat the frustration
I have to stand aside
I can’t halt the anger
I will stand aside
I can’t conquer the fear
I have to stand aside
I can’t fight no more

I stand aside
To let You in
I’ve tried
Yet I can’t do it alone
I need You now
To fight for me
Please let me rest
Beneath the shadow of Your wings
And there

Let me be stayed
By Your Perfect Peace

Taming The Angry Beast

Night’s like these are when I have to fight the beast inside, where the old me would be reaching straight for a bottle or a handful of cans, I hate these nights.

For the second night running I’ve come home from work completely frustrated and angry.  It’s been a hard couple of weeks at work, it always is around stock take time as a lot of the work falls into my remit, it just seems more so this year.

I just feel like I’m working alone at the moment, I running around trying to get everything done within the deadlines, as well as trying to manage my normal workload, whilst everyone else just stands around watching, no one offers to help out, I’m just left to do everything whilst they stand around chatting, waiting for customers.

Maybe it’s just me, I’m not one to just approach people for help, it’s my job so I just get on with it, it’s just so frustrating, but it should be all done tomorrow and next week back to the normal workload.

The problem is, in the past when I went home angry and frustrated, the first place I would go, quite often before even going home, would be the shop around the corner, buy some alcohol, usually a couple of bottles of wine and a handful of cans, just so as soon as I got in I could start drinking and dealing with the problem in my own special way, to escape it all.

So on nights like this, there is a part of me that just wants to go and do that, a small voice from within reminds me of how I used to deal with these things.  This all makes dealing with things harder, it’s just another thing to get over, it just adds to all the frustration.

So how do I deal with it now, I walk home and try to put myself in a different place, think of everything I’ve achieved so far and how I got where I am, obviously praying for the same guidance and strength I have received from the beginning.  Then when I get home, I have my tea and sleep it all off for an hour or so.

Last night was fine, because I was out at with my Connect Group for a social night, which as always is fun and takes my mind of the problem at least for a few hours.  Tonight it get’s a little tougher as I am at home, I do have some architectural work to do, but I’m in no rush to do that, especially after a hard few days and also because I’ve still not been paid for the last 10 months work, it will get done when I’m ready and in the mood.

I guess the good thing about Thursday’s is that every Thursday is a another week of sobriety, it’s 127 weeks this evening, which as always spurs me on.

WE MUST REMEMBER by JEREMY CAMP
We must remember
That You have forgotten
And You don’t remember our sins anymore
We must remember
That You have forgotten
And You, You died once and for all

You are the God that bore our shame
You are the taker of our pain
And we know that You are, yes You are
The one true life we need

You are the pure and spotless Lamb
You are the only Great I Am
And we know that You are, yes You are
The God of the redeemed

And we must remember
That You have forgotten
And You don’t remember our sins anymore
And we must remember
That You have forgotten
And You, You died once and for all
Once and for all

The power of Your blood is all that we need
You laid down Your life and the captives were free
The veil was torn and there was victory

We must remember, we must remember
That You’ve forgotten, yes You’ve forgotten
We must remember, there is victory
There is victory
There is victory
There is victory

We must remember
That You have forgotten
And You don’t remember our sins anymore
And we must remember
That You have forgotten
And You, You died once and for all

Verse of the Day – Exodus 14:14

Exodus 14:14

Exodus 14:14

Sometimes I frustration sets in and I’m am quick to anger, at time like those I know I just need to step back and be still.

IT WAS YOU by THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS
Hiding away for years to come
To having bullets but no gun
This song is not for everyone
And I failed once before
Yes I failed twice before
But someone caught my fall

It was you, oh
It was you, oh
Memories take your time
I needed someone by my side
It was you, oh

Things not always as they seem
But I have nothing up my sleeves
Maybe that’s why I will succeed
Cause I failed once before
Yes I failed twice before
But someone caught my fall

It was you, oh
It was you, oh
Memories take your time
I needed someone by my side
It was you, oh

Cause I failed once before
Yes I failed twice before
But someone caught my fall

It was you, oh
It was you, oh
Memories take your time
I needed someone by my side
It was you, oh

It was you