Thirteen years ago at the age of only 26 I was diagnosed with Chronic Hypertension, my blood pressure was extremely high, close to 200 over 112, further tests found evidence of a heart strain, I was shattered by the diagnosis and then referred to a heart specialist for further diagnosis and treatment. I was started on a series of different tablets before it the combination of tablets was settled upon, I was to take three a day for the rest of my life, if I missed my tablets for a more than a few weeks the blood pressure would rise back to where it was, I was on these for life and that was that.
Then back in March last year I returned to my Doctor and just days before I quit drinking I found my blood pressure was back to where it was way back in 2000, even though I was on my tablets and hadn’t missed any for more that the odd day every now and again, it was dangerously high, I admitted my problem with alcohol and as the weeks passed and I ceased drinking and looked to be getting back on track the blood pressure returned to satisfactory levels, not perfect but an acceptable level.
But my last lot of tablets ran out before the end of July and I’ve gone over five weeks without any, I tested my blood pressure a few weeks ago and it was creeping back up. I’ve been so busy with work, I just hadn’t had time to go to the Doctor to have my prescription renewed and the weeks were passing and I wasn’t getting on top of things.
Then last week I wrote about it on this blog, I did that purposely because I knew I couldn’t keep hiding any more, the next day I got on the phone and made an appointment for this morning.
After I wrote my journal last night it dawned on me about my appointment this morning and I could immediately feel the pressure rising, I became nervous and worried about what I was going to hear, I was dreading the results. I prayed and felt an almost instance relaxation, I was calmed and fell asleep quite quickly.
But then I woke this morning at 4.30, I was wide awake staring at the ceiling, the worry was returning. So I got up and got out walking, I have to say it was the most amazing walk I’ve had in a long time, it wasn’t hard to forget about the worry when the sunrise was so spectacular, so amazingly beautiful that my attention was taken by my surroundings, I almost forgot about my appointment.
As I got ready to set off for my appointment I could feel the tension return, so I took myself to my quiet place and prayed, again I felt calm and set off for my 7.30am appointment.
It was an understatement to say I was expecting the worst, I was sure my blood pressure would be returning to where it was back in March last year or back in 2000, I was ready for a dressing down and I deserved it.
I explained my situation and the Doctor took my blood pressure, but then came something that I just wasn’t expecting, yes my blood pressure was high, but not as high as expected, in fact it was lower than when I tested it myself a few weeks ago.
The thing was my Doctor wasn’t concerned by that, he was actually pleased at the level considering I had missed an amount of tablets, so pleased that he decided that we could try reducing my medication!
So after thirteen years of taking three tablets a day, I am now on two tablets a day, the strongest of the two tablets I take for my blood pressure has been removed, it’s a trial for the next month to see how it goes, but it’s an improvement and something that in my wildest dreams I never ever thought would happen, I expected my medication to increase over time not decrease.
To say I was over the moon was another understatement, this morning as I walked from the Doctor’s Surgery to work I felt like I was on top of the world, my prayers had been answered and I’m getting my life back.
As I approach 75 weeks of sobriety this coming Thursday, I have to say this is the best present I could ever wish to receive, God has come through for me and I feel so blessed by what He has been done in my life since that day back in March 2012 when I just wanted to make it all stop.
HEALING OIL by KIM WALKER-SMITH
I can feel Your healing oil
Running down my brow
I wouldn’t trade another lifetime
For how I feel right now