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Verse of the Day – Psalm 5:8

Psalm 5:8

Psalm 5:8

Just over a year ago, I was subject to vile abuse on public forum on Facebook, part of me wanted to lash out at the individual, but the Lord told me to pray for them, not to respond with abuse, but to pray for them, only in this way did it bring peace in the situation.

Shortly after I began to pray for them, the abuse stopped.

WAR IS OVER by KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL
The war is over turn around
Lay your weapons on the ground
The smoke is fading before the light
The dead are coming back to life

He has made a way for us
Born for glory out of dust
Children held within the arms of Peace
He has made a way for all
Mercy waits where sinners fall
He is our Victory

The war is over His love has come
To call us daughters and sons
No longer orphans without a home
We have found where we belong

It is finished, it is done
The blood of Jesus overcomes
It is finished, He has won
He has won
It is finished, it is done
The blood of Jesus overcomes
It is finished, He has won
He has won
It is finished, it is done
The blood of Jesus overcomes
It is finished, He has won
He has won

He has made a way for us
Born for glory out of dust
Children held within the arms of Peace
He has made a way for all
Mercy waits where sinners fall
He is our Victory
He is our Victory
He is our Victory
 

Verse of the Day – Ecclesiastes 5:10

Ecclesiastes 5:10

Ecclesiastes 5:10

My worth is not in the size of my bank account, the size of my car or house, it’s in the love the Father has for me and the love I have for Him.

GOOD GOOD FATHER by BETHEL MUSIC & KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL
Oh, I’ve heard a thousand stories of what they think you’re like
But I’ve heard the tender whispers of love in the dead of night
And you tell me that you’re pleased
And that I’m never alone

You’re a Good, Good Father
It’s who you are, it’s who you are, it’s who you are
And I’m loved by you
It’s who I am, it’s who I am, it’s who I am

Oh, and I’ve seen many searching for answers far and wide
But I know we’re all searching
For answers only you provide
‘Cause you know just what we need
Before we say a word

You’re a Good, Good Father
It’s who you are, it’s who you are, it’s who you are
And I’m loved by you
It’s who I am, it’s who I am, it’s who I am

’cause you are perfect in all of your ways
You are perfect in all of your ways
You are perfect in all of your ways to us

You are perfect in all of your ways
You are perfect in all of your ways
You are perfect in all of your ways to us

Oh, it’s love so undeniable
I, I can hardly speak
Peace so unexplainable
I, I can hardly think

As you call me deeper still
As you call me deeper still
As you call me deeper still
Into love, love, love

You’re a Good, Good Father
It’s who you are, it’s who you are, it’s who you are
And I’m loved by you
It’s who I am, it’s who I am, it’s who I am

You’re a Good, Good Father
It’s who you are, it’s who you are, it’s who you are
And I’m loved by you
It’s who I am, it’s who I am, it’s who I am

You’re a Good, Good Father
It’s who you are, it’s who you are, it’s who you are
And I’m loved by you
It’s who I am, it’s who I am, it’s who I am

You’re a Good, Good Father
(you are perfect in all of your ways)
It’s who you are, it’s who you are, it’s who you are
And I’m loved by you
(you are perfect in all of your ways)
It’s who I am, it’s who I am it’s who I am
 

Verse of the Day – Jonah 2:9

Jonah 2:9

Jonah 2:9

Jonah has been dragged to the depths within the whale, but still He called out to the Lord and praised Him, the Lord responded by bringing Jonah to dry land.

How often when we feel we are being dragged down, do we complain to the Lord, rather than praised Him?

PRAISED (BE LIFTED HIGH) by BETHEL MUSIC
I sing praises to Your name
Praise to Your name
The name that’s so much higher than all names

All honor to Your name
All honor to Your name
The name that’s so much greater than all names

Be lifted up
Be lifted higher
Be lifted up
Be lifted higher

I sing praises to Your name
Praise to Your name
The name that’s so much higher than all names

All honor to Your name
All honor to Your name
The name that’s so much greater than all names

Be lifted up
Be lifted higher
Be lifted up
Be lifted higher

Your name is life
Your name is hope inside me, hope inside me
Your name is love
A love that always finds me, always finds me

Be lifted up
Be lifted higher
Be lifted up
Be lifted higher
 

Verse of the Day – Psalm 103:13

Psalm 103:13

Psalm 103:13

Our Lord is the good Father, His love and compassion for us is beyond compare.

GOOD GOOD FATHER by BETHEL MUSIC
Oh, I’ve heard a thousand stories of what they think you’re like
But I’ve heard the tender whispers of love in the dead of night
And you tell me that you’re pleased
And that I’m never aloneYou’re a Good, Good Father
It’s who you are, it’s who you are, it’s who you are
And I’m loved by you
It’s who I am, it’s who I am, it’s who I am

Oh, and I’ve seen many searching for answers far and wide
But I know we’re all searching
For answers only you provide
‘Cause you know just what we need
Before we say a word

You’re a Good, Good Father
It’s who you are, it’s who you are, it’s who you are
And I’m loved by you
It’s who I am, it’s who I am, it’s who I am

’cause you are perfect in all of your ways
You are perfect in all of your ways
You are perfect in all of your ways to us

You are perfect in all of your ways
You are perfect in all of your ways
You are perfect in all of your ways to us

Oh, it’s love so undeniable
I, I can hardly speak
Peace so unexplainable
I, I can hardly think

As you call me deeper still
As you call me deeper still
As you call me deeper still
Into love, love, love

You’re a Good, Good Father
It’s who you are, it’s who you are, it’s who you are
And I’m loved by you
It’s who I am, it’s who I am, it’s who I am

You’re a Good, Good Father
It’s who you are, it’s who you are, it’s who you are
And I’m loved by you
It’s who I am, it’s who I am, it’s who I am

You’re a Good, Good Father
It’s who you are, it’s who you are, it’s who you are
And I’m loved by you
It’s who I am, it’s who I am, it’s who I am

You’re a Good, Good Father
(you are perfect in all of your ways)
It’s who you are, it’s who you are, it’s who you are
And I’m loved by you
(you are perfect in all of your ways)
It’s who I am, it’s who I am it’s who I am

 

Verse of the Day – Hebrews 4:15

Hebrews 4:15

Hebrews 4:15

I am thankful that we have a saviour that was tested yet overcome, when I was fallen and struggling with my drinking, He came and helped me find my way back out of the wilderness.

STARLIGHT by BETHEL MUSIC & KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL
You’re like starlight in the dark
Endless miles can’t conceal You
And every glimmer is a spark
Catching fire as You break through

Oh, You’re not far away
You’re coming close
And oh, even as I wait
You’re coming close

You’re like summer in the night
The sun goes down but still I feel You
And every shadow’s turning bright
Every broken heart is made new

Oh, You’re not far away
You’re coming close
And oh, even as I wait
You’re coming close

And there’s no heart unseen
There’s no space between
You and I
You and I
You are closer than
The very oxygen
I’m breathing in
Oh, I breath You in
You are God with us
You are here with us
Immanuel!
Immanuel!
You are infinite
Your glory has no end
Jesus!
Jesus!

There’s no heart unseen
There’s no space between
You and I
You and I
‘Cause You are closer than
The very oxygen
I’m breathing in
Oh, I breath You in
You are God with us
You are here with us
Immanuel!
Immanuel!
You are infinite
Your glory has no end
Jesus!
Jesus!

Oh, You’re not far away
You’re coming close
And oh, even as I wait
You’re coming close

‘Cause You’re like starlight in the dark
Endless miles can’t conceal You
And every glimmer is a spark
Catching fire as You break through…

Verse of the Day – John 11:25

John 11:25

John 11:25

It’s five years ago this weekend that I accepted Christ as my saviour and gave my life to Him, that was just three weeks after I almost gave up on my own life.  That day, in front of that mirror, with that knife in my hand, I guess something within me did die, because from that moment on everything changed, life changed, I began to live, thanks to the Father and the Son.

WHAT A BEAUTIFUL NAME by BETHEL WORSHIP
You were the Word at the beginning
One With God the Lord Most High
Your hidden glory in creation
Now revealed in You our Christ

What a beautiful Name it is
What a beautiful Name it is
The Name of Jesus Christ my King

What a beautiful Name it is
Nothing compares to this
What a beautiful Name it is
The Name of Jesus

You didn’t want heaven without us
So Jesus, You brought heaven down
My sin was great, Your love was greater
What could separate us now

What a wonderful Name it is
What a wonderful Name it is
The Name of Jesus Christ my King

What a wonderful Name it is
Nothing compares to this
What a wonderful Name it is
The Name of Jesus
What a wonderful Name it is
The Name of Jesus

Death could not hold You, the veil tore before You
You silenced the boast, of sin and grave
The heavens are roaring, the praise of Your glory
For You are raised to life again

You have no rival, You have no equal
Now and forever, God You reign
Yours is the Kingdom, Yours is the glory
Yours is the Name, above all names

What a powerful Name it is
What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus Christ my King

What a powerful Name it is
Nothing can stand against
What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus

You have no rival, You have no equal
Now and forever, God You reign
Yours is the Kingdom, Yours is the glory
Yours is the Name, above all names

What a powerful Name it is
What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus Christ my King

What a powerful Name it is
Nothing can stand against
What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus

What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus
What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus

Verse of the Day – Psalm 34:1

Psalm 34:1

Psalm 34:1

As I quickly approach five years sober, my praise for the strength that the Lord gave me to overcome who I was and my addiction, will ever be on lips.

EVER BE by BETHEL MUSIC & KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL
Your love is devoted like a ring of solid gold
Like a vow that is tested like a covenant of old
Your love is enduring through the winter rain
And beyond the horizon with mercy for today

Faithful You have been and faithful you will be
You pledge yourself to me and it’s why I sing

Your praise will ever be on my lips, ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips, ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips, ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips, ever be on my lips

You Father the orphan
Your kindness makes us whole
And you shoulder our weakness
And your strength becomes our own
Now you’re making me like you
Clothing me in white
Bringing beauty from ashes
For You will have Your bride

Free of all her guilt and rid of all her shame
And known by her true name and it’s why I sing

Your praise will ever be on my lips, ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips, ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips, ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips, ever be on my lips

You will be praised You will be praised
With angels and saints we sing worthy are You Lord
You will be praised You will be praised
With angels and saints we sing worthy are You Lord

And it’s why I sing
Your praise will ever be on my lips, ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips, ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips, ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips, ever be on my lips

 

Verse of the Day – Psalm 98:1

Psalm 98:1

Psalm 98:1

It’s just over five years since my first prayers to the Lord and almost five years since He gave me the strength to quit drinking, He is my salvation and I am ever thankful for this second chance at life.

WAR IS OVER by KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL & BETHEL MUSIC
The war is over, turn around
Lay your weapons on the ground
The smoke is fading before the light
The dead are coming back to life

He has made a way for us
Born for glory, out of dust
Children held within the arms of peace
He has made a way for all
Mercy waits where sinners falls
He is our victory

The war is over
His love has call
To call us daughetrs and sons
No longer orphans
Whithout a home
We have found where we belong

He has made a way for us
Born for glory, out of dust
Children held within the arms of peace
He has made a way for all
Mercy waits where sinners falls
He is our victory

He has made a way for us
Born for glory, out of dust
Children held within the arms of peace
He has made a way for all
Mercy waits where sinners falls
He is our victory

It is finished
It is done
The blood of Jesus overcomes
It is finished
He has won
He has won

 

At The Edge Of Life

Sometimes I believe time passes really slowly and at others it seems to pass so quickly, so I’m finding it hard to believe where I was five years ago today to where I am now, 18th March 2012 was the beginning of a two week period which changed my life entirely.

That day I found myself in the depths of despair, just five days before my relationship with Victoria had ended, we had drifted apart over the two years where I was drinking heavily and removing myself from daily life, refusing in a way to deal with my problems, certainly not admitting I had any. But after that night, I realised I had no longer any control over drinking, alcohol had it’s grip and I was helpless.

For the previous five days I had barely eaten, maybe a two or three meals, but I had drank, oh boy had I drank, I drank more in those five days than I had in any week in my life. Each time I left to go to the shop, I cried, I apologised, I couldn’t help myself, I tried not to, but it was just too hard, it was easier to admit defeat and give into the grip of the bottle.

But on that day, I found myself at home, my son was in the house, but Victoria and Eve had gone to Church, it was Mother’s Day and my kids hadn’t got anything for Victoria because I hadn’t got them anything. I went upstairs to have a bath, to clean up before I went out to teach karate, get rid of the smell of the previous evening’s alcohol.

There I found myself staring at myself in the mirror, I had picked up a penknife I had in the bathroom, the blade was out and I held it against my left wrist. In my mind I only had thoughts of how worthless I was, how everyone I knew would be better off without me, Victoria and the kids would be better off, they wouldn’t have to struggle for money or keep dragging me along, they would be free.

I decided I was going to cut my wrists and then get in the bath I had just ran and wait to die.
As thought after thought repeated in my head, each one telling my how I was worthless to everyone, there was one thought that came out of nowhere. I heard a voice say…

“Your children are better off living with you as your are now,
than living with the memory of what they will find.”

I looked down at the bath and I could see the image of myself laying dead in the water and then releasing that it would be one of my kids that would find this, most probably my six year old daughter, after that I put down the knife, I couldn’t go through with it, I just stood there crying.
This voice and this thought was in opposition to everything that I was feeling, I didn’t know from where it came from, but it was enough.

But I felt so angry, anger at myself for being what I perceived as a coward, I remember thinking how I didn’t have the courage to live, but I didn’t have the courage to die either, I was trapped in this state of nothingness, this void, from where it seemed I couldn’t escape.

I had my bath, got my mind ready for karate and set off. I taught as if the world couldn’t see who I really was, after all when I put on my karate suit I escaped from who I really was, it was like an alter ego, nobody knew what was going on in my life, the only thing that seemed normal was karate. After teaching I hit the pub, had at least five pints of strong cider and set off home, on the way back I picked up two bottles of wine and set about drinking them until I drifted off to sleep, that had become my normal routine by now.

But things where changing, I knew by then I had to get help, if I couldn’t die, I had to start living. I had asked Victoria if I could speak with her Pastor, I had met him a few times and really liked him. But my initial intention was to convince him to get Victoria to give me another change, it was purely selfish, I knew Victoria respected him and thought he could broker something between us. Yet after the finding myself on the edge of life, Victoria came home with a lifeline, she gave me Gareth’s number. So that night I decided that come the morning I would call Gareth, but this time to ask for help to put myself right, nothing else mattered other than I needed help, big time.

Things were changing, once I put down that knife I knew I needed help, help to quit drinking and find a new way of coping with my problems, we were heavily in dept, I had made such a mess of things and I needed direction.

But it was that voice, that whisper against all the screams that I was making that made the difference. It wasn’t until much later that I realised that it was the voice of God that spoke to me that day, it was the Lord who told me to hang on, it was His spirit that showed me what my children would find and have to live with. It may have been the most painful moment in my entire life, but it started a chain of events that saw me find help, find God and find sobriety.

I hear many people say that suicide is weak or selfish, but believe me suicide is the point of all hopelessness, it is the point where all hope has gone and you can’t see any other way.

The only one who can fill that void of hopelessness is the Lord, He spoke to me that day and led me to Gareth to find help, all part of path He had set for me many years before, He had put everything in place for me to find a way out, now I just had to find the courage to make that call the next morning.

WAR IS OVER by KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL & BETHEL MUSIC
The war is over, turn around
Lay your weapons on the ground
The smoke is fading before the light
The dead are coming back to life

He has made a way for us
Born for glory, out of dust
Children held within the arms of peace
He has made a way for all
Mercy waits where sinners falls
He is our victory

The war is over
His love has call
To call us daughetrs and sons
No longer orphans
Whithout a home
We have found where we belong

He has made a way for us
Born for glory, out of dust
Children held within the arms of peace
He has made a way for all
Mercy waits where sinners falls
He is our victory

He has made a way for us
Born for glory, out of dust
Children held within the arms of peace
He has made a way for all
Mercy waits where sinners falls
He is our victory

It is finished
It is done
The blood of Jesus overcomes
It is finished
He has won
He has won

Verse of the Day – Philippians 2:9-11

Philippians 2:9-11

Philippians 2:9-11

I am thankful for the name above all names, thankful that I bowed before Christ and acknowledge that He is my saviour, life has never been the same since.

WHAT A BEAUTIFUL NAME by BETHEL MUSIC & KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL
You were the Word at the beginning
One With God the Lord Most High
Your hidden glory in creation
Now revealed in You our Christ

What a beautiful Name it is
What a beautiful Name it is
The Name of Jesus Christ my King

What a beautiful Name it is
Nothing compares to this
What a beautiful Name it is
The Name of Jesus

You didn’t want heaven without us
So Jesus, You brought heaven down
My sin was great, Your love was greater
What could separate us now

What a wonderful Name it is
What a wonderful Name it is
The Name of Jesus Christ my King

What a wonderful Name it is
Nothing compares to this
What a wonderful Name it is
The Name of Jesus
What a wonderful Name it is
The Name of Jesus

How sweet is your name, Lord, how good You are
Love to sing in the name of the Lord, love to sing for you all?
Death could not hold You, the veil tore before You
You silenced the boast, of sin and grave
The heavens are roaring, the praise of Your glory
For You are raised to life again

You have no rival, You have no equal
Now and forever, Our God reigns
Yours is the Kingdom, Yours is the glory
Yours is the Name, above all names

What a powerful Name it is
What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus Christ my King

What a powerful Name it is
Nothing can stand against
What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus

You have no rival, You have no equal
Now and forever, Our God reigns
Yours is the Kingdom, Yours is the glory
Yours is the Name, above all names

What a powerful Name it is
What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus Christ my King

What a powerful Name it is
Nothing can stand against
What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus

What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus
What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus