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Verse of the Day – Proverbs 11:2

Proverbs 11:2

Proverbs 11:2

Pride can lead us down avenues we should never tread, it lead me into a darkness from which I nearly didn’t return, thankfully we have a God who forgives and leads us into light.

STARLIGHT by BETHEL MUSIC and KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL
You’re like starlight in the dark
Endless miles can’t conceal You
Every glimmer is a spark
Catching fire as You break through

Oh, You’re not far away
You’re coming close
And Oh, even as I wait
You’re coming close

You’re like summer in the night
The sun goes down but still I feel You
And every shadow’s turning bright
Every broken heart is made new

Oh, You’re not far away
You’re coming close
And Oh, even as I wait
You’re coming close

There’s no heart unseen
There’s no space between You and I
You are closer than the very oxygen
I’m breathing in, I breath You in
You are God with us
You are here with us, Emmanuel
You are infinite, You glory has no end
Jesus, Jesus

You’re like treasure in the sea
Wind and waves could never move You
And You are shining in the deep
Every searching eye will find You

 

Verse of the Day – Proverbs 3:3-4

Proverbs 3:3-4

Proverbs 3:3-4

These two commands should be so easy, yet on some days I find both so hard to do.

WAR IS OVER by BETHEL MUSIC
The war is over, turn around
Lay your weapons on the ground
The smoke is fading before the light
The dead are coming back to life

He has made a way for us
Born for glory, out of dust
Children held within the arms of peace
He has made a way for all
Mercy waits where sinners falls
He is our victory

The war is over
His love has call
To call us daughetrs and sons
No longer orphans
Whithout a home
We have found where we belong

He has made a way for us
Born for glory, out of dust
Children held within the arms of peace
He has made a way for all
Mercy waits where sinners falls
He is our victory

He has made a way for us
Born for glory, out of dust
Children held within the arms of peace
He has made a way for all
Mercy waits where sinners falls
He is our victory

It is finished
It is done
The blood of Jesus overcomes
It is finished
He has won
He has won

 

Verse of the Day – Joshua 24:15

Joshua 24:15

Joshua 24:15

There are many ways to serve the Lord, but do not serve out of obligation, out of habit or because you believe you should before you are judged, serve the Lord because it brings joy to your soul.

NOTHING HOLDING ME BACK by KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL & BETHEL MUSIC
Thank You for the cross that You have carried
Thank You for Your blood that was shed
You took the weight of sin upon Your shoulders
And Sacrificed Your life so I could live

Now nothing is holding me back from You
Redeemer of my soul
Now nothing can hold me back from You
Your Love will never let me go

Thank You for Your death and resurrection
Thank You for the power of Your blood
I am overwhelmed by Your affection
The Kindness and the Greatness of Your Love
The Kindness and the Greatness of Your Love

Now nothing is holding me back from You
Redeemer of my soul
Now nothing can hold me back from You
Your Love will never let me go

Thank You that we’re living in Your Kingdom
Jesus You’re the King upon the throne
Thank You for the way You always love me
Now I get to love You in return
Now I get to love You in return

Thank You that we’re living in Your Kingdom
Jesus You’re the King upon the throne
Thank You for the way You always love me
Now I get to love You in return
Now I get to love You in return

Jesus, You make all things new
Jesus, You make all things new
Jesus, You make all things new
Jesus, You make all things new

Jesus, You make all things new
Jesus, You make all things new
Jesus, You make all things new
Jesus, You make all things new

 

 

Verse of the Day – Psalms 135:13-14

Psalms 135:13-14

Psalms 135:13-14

His name should be put higher than any other, maybe sometimes I place others before Him, yet still He has compassion for me, despite my failings.

PRAISES (BE LIFTED UP) by KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL & WILLIAM MATTHEWS
I sing praises to Your name
Praise to Your name
The name that’s so much higher than all names

All honor to Your name
All honor to Your name
The name that’s so much greater than all names

Be lifted up
Be lifted higher
Be lifted up
Be lifted higher

I sing praises to Your name
Praise to Your name
The name that’s so much higher than all names

All honor to Your name
All honor to Your name
The name that’s so much greater than all names

Be lifted up
Be lifted higher
Be lifted up
Be lifted higher

Your name is life
Your name is hope inside me, hope inside me
Your name is love
A love that always finds me, always finds me

Be lifted up
Be lifted higher
Be lifted up
Be lifted higher

1500 Sober Days

It’s hard to believe this journey, hard to believe that this evening I’ve had 1500 reasons to praise and thank God.  From those dark days of mid March 2012, when everything around me was collapsing in on itself and I finally realised that I had no control anymore, the alcohol had control over me.

I couldn’t say no anymore, even if I tried, to some it may seem like a cowards way to give in, but when you’re there in the middle of the fight, trying to resist, but just not able to, you know that it’s not being a coward, it’s being a prisoner of addiction. I still remember crying out I’m sorry as the tears fell, each time I left the house to go buy more alcohol, I tried not to, but I just couldn’t hold back the tide of addiction, I was useless to resist.

By that time I wasn’t even eating, I couldn’t eat, everything tasted like cardboard, I just survived by drinking, I was heading for oblivion. Darkness and the bottle were my only friends.

As that dark week dragged on I found myself on the edge, I wanted to end it all, but couldn’t.

Come Monday 19th March 2012, things began to change, there was a conscious choice to start fighting back, I rang Gareth, the Pastor at our local Church, met with him and made the choice to change everything.  In the ten days between that meeting and that last drink on Thursday 29th March 2012, I began praying for the first time in my life, reduced my drinking, stopped bringing alcohol into the house and started to sort myself out.

On that evening of 29th March, I made the declaration that I would never drink again if I didn’t like the taste of my first drink that night, it tasted awful, the worst drink I’ve ever had, I finished it, but since that night I have never drunk a single drop of alcohol again.

I’m in the happy place now that drinking is the furthest from my thoughts. Now it makes my angry when I see relentless alcohol adverts on TV, the though of being in a pub is hard to deal with, though with the right people I can go into a pub and enjoy a Pepsi, at times when I’m in a shop and see all the alcohol close to the checkout, I often feel like smashing every bottle.

This ride isn’t easy, life still has it’s good days and some really bad days, but each night I can be thankful to God that I am still sober and still free from those chains.

Life may not be perfect or the way I want it, but I’m still alive, deep inside I still believe that had God not saved me from myself, I would not have lived beyond 2012, for that I am truly thankful.

I can’t thank everyone enough for the support I have received in those 1500, to everyone I have met at Everyday Champions Church, who have been by my side all the way through and also everyone who has took the time to read this blog, to comment and encourage or have simply liked one of my posts, I thank you all.

PRAISES BE LIFTED UP by KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL
I sing praises to Your name
Praises to Your name
The name that’s so much higher than all names

All honor to Your name
All honor to Your name
The name that’s so much greater than all names

Chorus:
Be lifted up
Be lifted higher
Be lifted up
Be lifted higher

Bridge:
Your name is life
Your name is Hope inside me Hope inside me
Your name is love
A love that always finds me always finds me

150 Sober Weeks!!!!!!!

This one has crept up on me a little, it was only in the last couple of days I realised the significance of today, that another magic milestone has arrived, this time it’s 150 weeks of Sobriety that I celebrate.

Could I really have believed all those weeks ago that I could actually have made it this far.  There have been temptations, many, including just last week when I had a blazing row with a co worker, one that would not listen to my explanation and continued to force his opinion, oh and this was the same guy that called me ignorant/anti social for not going to the Christmas party.

I have to say I was shaking with rage, but managed to keep some sort of composure, I simply declined to argue further when it was obvious he wasn’t listening to any reason, unbeknown to him one of the Regional Managers was in the adjacent office and heard everything, he wasn’t happy.

“Your opinion isn’t a trump card, it doesn’t simply beat everyone else’s!”

It situations like that which put me on edge, then I begin to think a drink would bring the calmness that it used to, but it’s the new strength that helps me to overcome that and bring a calmness without resorting to alcohol.

What I’ve realised over the last three years is that sobriety doesn’t automatically take away all your problems, but it does stop you from hiding from them.  In time it gives clarity and in time allows you to begin addressing each one.

It’s not an overnight process, but a lifestyle, a choice, a victory!

I still have things I struggle with, some I still keep hiding deep inside, some things I just keep trying to hide from the world and I guess from God, although I know He see’s all and in the end I find myself in such I mess I commit them to prayer anyway, the instant I do that the pain I carry begins to ease and I find that peace again.

I certainly could not have made it far without the strength I receive daily for the Lord, from my first prayer He answered and He continues to answer.

THANK GOD FOR HIS GRACE AND MERCY.

EVER BE by KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL & BETHEL MUSIC
Your love is devoted
Like a ring of solid gold
Like a vow that is tested
Like a covenant of old

Your love is enduring
Through the winter rain
And beyond the horizon
With mercy for today

Faithful You have been
And faithful you will be
You pledge yourself to me
and it’s why I sing

Your praise will ever be on my lips
Ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips
Ever be on my lips

You Father the orphan
Your kindness makes us whole
You shoulder our weakness
And Your strength becomes our own

You’re making me like you
Clothing me in white
Bringing beauty from ashes
For You will have Your bride

Free of all her guilt and rid of all her shame
And known by her true name and it’s why I sing

Faithful You have been
And faithful you will be
You pledge yourself to me
and it’s why I sing

Your praise will ever be on my lips
Ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips
Ever be on my lips

You will be praised You will be praised
With angels and saints we sing worthy are You
You will be praised You will be praised
With angels and saints we sing worthy are

Your praise will ever be on my lips
Ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips
Ever be on my lips

Verse of the Day – Psalm 47:2

Psalm 47:2

Psalm 47:2

The King over all the earth loved me enough to save me, I am ever thankful.

YOUR PRAISE WILL EVER BE ON MY LIPS by KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL
Your love is devoted
Like a ring of solid gold
Like a vow that is tested
Like a covenant of old

Your love is enduring
Through the winter rain
Beyond the Horizon
With mercy for today

Faithful, You have been
Faithful, You will be
You pledge Yourself to me and it’s why I sing

Your praise will ever be on my lips,
Ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips,
Ever be on my lips

You father the orphan
Your kindness made us whole
You shoulder our weakness
As grace restores the soul

You’re making me like You
Clothing me in white
Bringing beauty from ashes
For you will have Your bride

Faithful, You have been
Faithful, You will be
You pledge Yourself to me and it’s why I sing

Your praise will ever be on my lips,
Ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips,
Ever be on my lips

And You will be praised
And You will be praised
With angels and saints
We sing worthy are You, Lord

Your praise will ever be on my lips,
Ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips,
Ever be on my lips

Verse of the Day – Psalm 13:5-6

Psalm 13:5-6

Psalm 13:5-6

Tonight I celebrate 134 weeks sober, I praise The Lord as He has been so good to me.

YOUR PRAISE WILL EVER BE ON MY LIPS by KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL
Your love is devoted
Like a ring of solid gold
Like a vow that is tested
Like a covenant of old

Your love is enduring
Through the winter rain
Beyond the Horizon
With mercy for today

Faithful, You have been
Faithful, You will be
You pledge Yourself to me and it’s why I sing

Your praise will ever be on my lips,
Ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips,
Ever be on my lips

You father the orphan
Your kindness made us whole
You shoulder our weakness
As grace restores the soul

You’re making me like You
Clothing me in white
Bringing beauty from ashes
For you will have Your bride

Faithful, You have been
Faithful, You will be
You pledge Yourself to me and it’s why I sing

Your praise will ever be on my lips,
Ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips,
Ever be on my lips

And You will be praised
And You will be praised
With angels and saints
We sing worthy are You, Lord

Your praise will ever be on my lips,
Ever be on my lips
Your praise will ever be on my lips,
Ever be on my lips

Verse of the Day – 2 Corinthians 12:10

2 Corinthians 12:10

2 Corinthians 12:10

For some call me weak for suffering my alcohol addiction, yet in this weakness He gives me the strength to resist and fight the temptation.

STRONG IN US by JEREMY RIDDLE & KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL
Our God is strong in us
His love has overcome
He is alive in us
He is the risen one
The same power that raised Him up
Is the power that lives in us
Our God is strong in us
Our God is strong in us

When darkness rises all around us
We will see His glory
Breaking through the night
The King in all His wonder
Fills us with His power
Christ in us the answer
A hope for all the world

Our God is strong in us
His love has overcome
He is alive in us
He is the risen one
The same power that raised Him up
Is the power that lives in us
Our God is strong in us
Our God is strong in us

His promise stands throughout the ages
He will never leave us
We are not alone
Greater than our weakness
He is strong to save us
We will stand victorious
A hope for all the world

Lift Him up, let the whole world see
We will never stop singing
Lift Him up, let the whole world hear
We will never stop shouting
Lift Him up, every voice in praise
Everyone lift Him up, lift Him up

Verse of the Day – Deuteronomy 32:4

Deuteronomy 32:4

Deuteronomy 32:4

How blessed are we that a God so great loves each one of us.

GOD I LOOK TO YOU by KALLEY HEILIGENTHAL
God I look to You
I won’t be overwhelmed
Give me vision to see things like You do
God I look to You
You’re where my help comes from
Give me wisdom, You know just what to do

And I will love You Lord my strength
And I will love you Lord my shield
And I will love You Lord my rock
Forever all my days I will love you God

Hallelujah our God reigns
Hallelujah our God reigns
Hallelujah our God reigns
Forever all my days Hallelujah