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Verse of the Day – 1 Corinthians 4:1-2

1 Corinthians 4:1-2

1 Corinthians 4:1-2

If we are the servants of the Lord, we have received His word, His wisdom.  As His servants we must prove faithful by spreading this great word, this great wisdom, there are those that do not know, those that need to find a way out of where they are.

I was once like that, then one night, someone came and told me of the word of God, since that day my life has not been the same, that night doors opened, light came in and I came alive.

BORN AGAIN by THIRD DAY and LACEY STURM
Today I found myself
After searching all these years
And the man that I saw, he wasn’t at all who I thought he’d be
I was lost when you found me here
And I was broken beyond repair
Then you came along and you sang your song over me

It feels like I’m born again
It feels like I’m living
For the very first time
For the very first time
In my life

Make a promise to me now
Reassure my heart somehow
That the love that I feel is so much more real than anything
I’ve a feeling in my soul
And I pray that I’m not wrong
That the life I have now, it is only the beginning

It feels like I’m born again
It feels like I’m living
For the very first time
For the very first time
It feels like I’m breathing
It feels like I’m moving
For the very first time
For the very first time

I wasn’t looking for something that was more
Than what I had yesterday
Then you came to me and you gave to me
Life and a love that I’ve never known
That I’ve never felt before

It feels like I’m born again
It feels like I’m living
For the very first time
I’m living for the first time
It feels like I’m breathing
It feels like I’m moving
For the very first time
I’m living for the first time
In my life
 

Verse of the Day – Psalm 33:5

Psalm 33:5

Psalm 33:5

Where would this world be if we didn’t have the Lord’s love?  Maybe not everyone has felt it, but it is there, there for us all, both the lost and the found.

JUSTICE AND MERCY by FLYLEAF
We can’t be oblivious
We are not ignorant

Blood in our hearts
Blood on our hands

We’re human
We reason
We’re breathing
Protecting
You’re living and dying, surviving, we’re trying
To breathe in safety
Come home safely

Mercy screams its violent love
Justice..
And mercy
Justice..
And mercy
The death of us created for
Justice..
And mercy
Justice..
And mercy
This is where they kiss

Life, here sacrificed
Someone who payed the price
Blood in our hearts
Blood on our hands
We cry out, we’re fighting, it’s warfare, we’re dying
Believing we’re winning, it’s ending, we’re singing
It’s already done
We’ve overcome

Mercy screams its violent love
Justice..
And mercy
Justice..
And mercy
The death of us created for
Justice..
And mercy
Justice..
And mercy
This is where they kiss

With a life on the line (the fire..)
That consumes or refines (the fire..)
To ascend or decline
To retreat or to climb
Out of sight, out of mind
’til attacked from behind
Will this fire..
Consume or refine?

Mercy screams its violent love
Justice..
And mercy
Justice..
And mercy
The death of us created for
Justice..
And mercy
Justice..
And mercy
This is where they kiss

 

Verse of the Day – Ecclesiastes 9:4

Ecclesiastes 9:4

Ecclesiastes 9:4

We have hope because of Christ, we have life because of His sacrifice, if we do not embrace the life we have been gifted by that great sacrifice, then we may as well be dead lions.

ALL AROUND ME by FLYLEAF
My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I’m not used to seeing you

I’m alive, I’m alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I’m breathing
Holding on to what I’m feeling
Savoring this heart that’s healing

My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you

I’m alive
I’m alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I’m breathing
Holding on to what I’m feeling
Savoring this heart that’s healing

So I cry
(Holy)
The light is white
(Holy)
And I see you

I’m alive
I’m alive
I’m alive

And I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I’m breathing
Holding on to what I’m feeling
Savoring this heart that’s healing

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I’m breathing
Holding on to what I’m feeling
Savoring this heart that’s healed

 

Leaving The Past Behind

Sometimes we have to put aside that which holds us down, that which keeps us trapped, that which is the destroyer of our souls.

Five years ago life was changing rapidly, I was now finding a way through that I had never dreamed off, only a week before I was torn between life and death, between holding on and simply giving up on life and everything that goes with it.

But that voice, the voice I later found to be God’s stopped me in my tracks, made me see I had some worth to someone, even if I had none to myself. From that moment chains were snapping, things were changing, a mind set for despair began to see life. That morning after I made a phone call that changed everything for good, last week I described how that single call to my Pastor tore the veil that was shrouding me, the world began to see my pain and more importantly I began to see God.

Two nights later, I prayed for the first time. It had been a long hard day at work, after a nine and half hour shift, I went straight to the architects to do what I thought would only be about an hours work, then home. But they had more work for me than I anticipated and the more I rushed, the more mistakes and the longer it took, I was getting stressed, I had not had much more than three hours sleep over the preceding two nights and I wanted to go home and have a drink, the desperation was returning. I remember thinking to myself it would be fine, on the way home pick up two bottles of wine, drink them both and relax!

After about two hours I finally left, it was gone 7.30pm, over twelve hours since I left home that morning for work, I was tired, irritable and desperate.

I went home, had something to eat, watched some TV and then decided I was bored, so time for bed.

What I didn’t realise was that was almost 11.30pm, but not only that I hadn’t had a drink, I hadn’t stopped off at the shop in the way home, I had gone straight home and what’s more, I don’t remember any of the anguish or desperation that had been there in the preceding weeks. At no point had I paced the house, scratching at the skin on my arms, whilst I tried to resist a drink, there was none of that, but a sense of peace was there.

I turned everything off, laid down, closed my eyes and prayed, I thanked God for that strength to get through without drinking and I asked for the strength to get through each day like that, then I closed my eyes and slept.

Having not really being able to sleep at anytime without a drink over the last few years, in particular the previous two nights, when I woke with my alarm, I realised I had just experienced the most peaceful sleep of my whole life, at that moment I cried as I realised God had heard and answered my prayer, He had brought a peace that is hard to describe, other that absolutely amazing.

By the time Sunday came around, I had only had six pints since the previous weekend, a fraction of what I drank on the previous Sunday and since my phone call, I had brought nothing into my house and had drunk nothing in my house either.

From the previous weekend there was about a third of a bottle of wine left, I had placed it on the top of the fridge. All week I had walked past that bottle, but eventually I began to speak out to it, I told this bottle that it couldn’t have me, it had no power over me, I had a plan for it and as Sunday came around, it was time to action that plan. It was time to say goodbye to some of my past.

I didn’t feel I was ready for Church yet, although I knew that was to be my destiny, but I knew certain things had to be dealt with before I could walk into Church. So I set off into town, I needed the largest plastic container that I could find, yet still carry home.

I brought the container home and began to fill it. Firstly I took all my bedding and put it at the bottom of the box, it all stank of the alcohol I had spilt on it over the years, I had become quite good at falling asleep with an open bottle of wine in my hand, eventually I didn’t spill much, I would wake in the morning with this open bottle, drink the rest and then go to work, that was who I had become, so the smell of sweat and alcohol mixed had to go, I had purchased new bedding, so this was to go.

On top of that I placed the clothes I had been sleeping in, just a tatty tracksuit, a couple of t-shirts and all my worn out underwear and socks, these were the clothes I would lounge about the house in and drink in, like my bedding they had that stale smell of sweat and alcohol mixed, they had to go too. On top of those I added my watch, the fabric strap had the same smell, that had to go with the rest of it.

Then with the box almost full there was one thing left to go in, the last bottle of wine that I had ever purchased, is was only a third full, but it wasn’t going to be drank, this was the plan I had for it all week, to be put in this box and put it away with the rest of my past. I placed it carefully on top of everything else and closed the box. On the box in marker pen, I wrote the date and “This Is Where The Healing Begins”. Then I took the box down into the cellar and placed it with all the other forgotten rubbish we had collected over the years.

The box remains there, five years on.

The Forgotten Box

The Forgotten Box

I honestly don’t remember what prompted me to do this, I cannot remember that actual point that I came up with the idea, it just became a plan that I thought of and put into action. In a way I had to make a symbolic gesture of packing away a part of my life that I didn’t need or want anymore, to make a positive action to say goodbye to the part of me that would lounge around the house drinking, the new me was rising and there was no space in my life anymore for this version of me,it had to be packed away.

I do recall reading a story of a girl in America who gave away a razor blade that she had used to cut herself with to the band Tenth Avenue North, one of their songs had inspired her to quit self harming, so when she met the band she made that gesture, maybe this was what inspired me, I can’t honestly remember, but I knew it was something I had to do.

Four days later, 29th March 2012, I took my last drink, the next morning I woke free, knowing I had made the choice to never drink again, I knew I had the strength now to resist and that I would never have to wake feeling fuzzy ever again, then just a few days later I would walk into the Everyday Champions Church and knew I had found my home.

God had lead me home!

BORN AGAIN by THIRD DAY ft LACEY STURM
Today I found myself
After searching all these years
And the man that I saw, he wasn’t at all who I thought he’d be
I was lost when you found me here
And I was broken beyond repair
Then you came along and you sang your song over me

It feels like I’m born again
It feels like I’m living
For the very first time
For the very first time
In my life

Make a promise to me now
Reassure my heart somehow
That the love that I feel is so much more real than anything
I’ve a feeling in my soul
And I pray that I’m not wrong
That the life I have now, it is only the beginning

It feels like I’m born again
It feels like I’m living
For the very first time
For the very first time
It feels like I’m breathing
It feels like I’m moving
For the very first time
For the very first time

I wasn’t looking for something that was more
Than what I had yesterday
Then you came to me and you gave to me
Life and a love that I’ve never known
That I’ve never felt before

It feels like I’m born again
It feels like I’m living
For the very first time
I’m living for the first time
It feels like I’m breathing
It feels like I’m moving
For the very first time
I’m living for the first time
In my life

Verse of the Day – Psalm 111:10

Psalm 111:10

Psalm 111:10

Only when we find God, do we begin to find a sense of who we truly are and who we can be.

THE REASON by LACEY STURM
All my life I’ve searched
For something
To Satisfy
The longing in my heart
And every time I’d come away…
Emptier than before…

And now I finally see The Reason
‘Cause I was made to be yours alone

You formed my heart with your own hands
But I just could not understand
If I gave you my life
I’d be healed by your grace
I was made, for your love
And gave others your place…

I’d spent my days giving my heart away
To anything new
Only to ache from the, poison
Of my temporary muse

And there were times I’d cry myself to sleep at night
Only to wake up, wishing that I didn’t

And now I finally see the reason
‘Cause I was made to be yours alone

You formed my heart with your own hands
But I just could not understand
If I gave you my life
I’d be healed by your grace
I was made, for your love
And gave others your place

Thank you for never giving up, on me
When I looked to everything else
And lived, so selfishly
You bled, you died
To be with me
Why would you do
Something like that?
For someone like me?

And now I finally see The Reason
‘Cause I was made to be yours alone

You formed my heart with your own hands
And now I finally understand
That I gave you my life
And I’m healed by your grace
I was made
For your love
That no one can replace
This is it, I won’t miss…
Everything I am made for!

To be yours…
All yours…

 

Verse of the Day – Matthew 6:22-23

Matthew 6:22-23

Matthew 6:22-23

For a time my eyes focus on everything that was wrong, all I could see was dark clouds hanging over my life, then the darkness grew within to and my addiction fed it further, but then the light came, my eyes were opened and I found Christ, now that darkness has turned to light and dark clouds to blue skies, but only if I keep my eyes fixed upon Christ.

YOU’RE NOT ALONE by LACEY STURM
It’s been hard for me to breathe for such a long time
I only stayed so I could hold you, maybe ease your mind
I can’t hold you anymore tonight
And I feel your heart is breaking as I let go
And it hurts me to be leaving but you must know
I can’t hold you anymore tonight

When no one else can save you
Remember

You’re not alone
Beyond the universe
Echoes out a promise to us
Where the darkness meets the day
You’re not alone
Close as the two of us
Stronger than the pain runs through us
You can hear the angels say
You’re not alone
You’re not alone

When the memories come to haunt you with the sad lie
“No one loves you, they all leave you! So why even try?”
Let truth hold you in loving arms tonight
When you feel like you’re the only one you can trust
And it proves a lie when you’re the one who self-destructs
Let truth hold you in loving arms tonight

When no one else can save you
Remember

You’re not alone
Beyond the universe
Echoes out a promise to us
Where the darkness meets the day
You’re not alone
Close as the two of us
Stronger than the pain runs through us
You can hear the angels say
You’re not alone

This love will never leave
Truth will not forsake
Eternal thoughts will keep your heart safe
The love will never leave
Truth will not forsake
Eternal thoughts will keep your heart safe

You’re not alone
You’re not alone
Beyond the universe
Echoes out a promise to us
Where the darkness meets the day
You’re not alone
Close as the two of us
Stronger than the pain runs through us

You can feel it when you pray
You’re not alone

You’re not alone

You’re not alone

 

Verse of the Day – Habakkuk 3:18

Habakkuk 3:18

Habakkuk 3:18

With out God I would have perished so long ago, without Him I am nothing, so in Him I rejoice for the life that I have.

MERCY TREE by LACEY STURM
On a hill called Calvary
Stands an endless mercy tree
Every broken weary soul
Find your rest and be made whole
Stripes of blood that stain its frame
Shed to wash away our shame
From the scars pure love released
Salvation by the mercy tree

In the spot between two thieves
Hung the blameless Prince of Peace
Beaten, battered, scarred, and scorned
Sacred head pierced by our thorns
It is finished was his cry
The perfect lamb was crucified
His sacrifice, our victory
Our Savior chose the mercy tree

Hope went dark that violent day
The whole earth quaked at love’s display
Three days silent in the ground
This body born for heaven’s crown
On that bright and glorious day
When heaven opened up the grave
He’s alive and risen indeed!
Praise him for the mercy tree!

Death has died, love has won
Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
Jesus Christ has overcome
He has risen from the dead

One day soon, we’ll see his face
And every tear, he’ll wipe away
No more pain or suffering
Praise him for the mercy tree

Death has died, love has won
Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
Jesus Christ has overcome
He has risen from the dead

Death has died, love has won
Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
Jesus Christ has overcome
He has risen from the dead

On a hill called Calvary
Stands an endless mercy tree