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Alarms Off

Tonight I have switched off both alarms on my phone, I do not intend to wake up early at all tomorrow.  For the first time since New Year’s Day I don’t have to get up to leave the house before 8am.

I have the next three days off work, apart from Christmas and New Year, it’s my first days off since Victoria went to The Gambia, especially now I work every Saturday morning, so I fully intend to take it easy.  It will also give me the chance to catch up on a few blogs.

Having said that with two kids in the house, rushing around getting ready for school, I don’t actually think I’ll get much in the way of a lay in though.

Plus you can bet that my body clock will kick in at about 5am when my first alarm usually goes off, what’s the betting I won’t be able to get back to sleep.  Oh well, we’ll see!

I’m burning inside, these thoughts of you control my mind
A love I can’t shake as I lie awake tonight
This is different from the rest, more than a feeling or a second guess
And I can’t breathe ’til you’re holding me again
This is love, keeping me awake tonight
This is love, I can’t free you from my mind
Cause I’ve never felt a part of something greater than myself until now
(Oh) I’m waking up
Cause this is love
I have to be with you, cause I can’t make it on my own
My fears are forgotten when I’m standing here with you
So where do we go from here, they say the future’s so unclear
But I don’t care I’ll go anywhere with you
I’ll go anywhere, we can go anywhere
To a love I can’t deny
You are the dawn that breaks the night
You have my heart, you have everything
Cause this is love
This is love, oh
This is love, oh

Lazy Saturdays

For the first time in absolute ages I’m having one of those days where I actually have nowhere to be and nothing I really need to do, so forgive me but I’m having a really lazy day, catching up on a bit a rest after a testing number of weeks.

On the plus side the side effects from the medication seems to be subsiding, the spaced out feelings and the feeling sick seem to have passed, I feel almost normal today.

Within myself I feel okay too, but so far this week there hasn’t been anything too testing to deal with, which has been a bit of a relief.

I’m still not sleeping very well, I still wake after around 4/5 hours sleep, like this morning I woke at just before 4am, I ended up watching “The Christmas Card” before getting back to sleep for a few hours somewhere around 6.

I think at first I was a little worried about the stigma I attached to taking antidepressants, I never thought for a moment it could happen to me, but then you realise once you start speaking to people, just how many seemingly normal people have taken them at some point in their lives, it removes that stigma altogether.

Hopefully this is the start of another recovery process, with things getting easier and in deed better as each day passes.  My journey continues and this is just a new obstacle to overcome, but with the strength granted me by God I have overcome so much, I’m not going to let this beat me, I’ll keep praying and I will get through this.

I see heaven, invading this place, I see angels, Praising Your Holy Name
And I sing praises, I sing praises, I give You honor, Worthy Jesus

I see Glory, Falling in this place
I see hope restored, healing of all disease
And I sing praises, I sing praises, I give You honor, Worthy Jesus

We give You Praise, and all of the Honor
You are our God, the one we live for
We give You Praise, and all of the Glory God

Let Your Presence fill this place, Let heaven come
Let Your angels be released, Let Heaven come
We will worship at Your feet, Let Heaven come
Face to face we want to meet, Let Heaven come