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Verse of the Day – 2 Chronicles 20:17

2 Chronicles 20:17

2 Chronicles 20:17

It is amazing to know that each fight I face, I never stand alone and it’s by His strength I have victory, not my own.

FOLLOW YOU by LEELAND & BRANDON HEATH
You lived among the least of these
The weary and the weak
And it would be a tragedy for me to turn away.

All my needs you have supplied.
When i was dead you gave me life.
How could i not give it away so freely?

And i`ll follow you into the homes that are broken.
Follow you into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy god.
Follow you into the world.

Use my hands use my feet
To make your kingdom come
Through the corners of the earth
Until your work is done
`cause faith without works is dead
And on the cross your blood was shed
So how could i not give it away so freely?

And i`ll follow you into the homes that are broken.
Follow you into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy god.
Follow you into the world.

And i`ll follow you into the homes that are broken.
Follow you into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy god.
Follow you into the world.

I give all myself.
I give all myself
I give all myself.to you.

And i give all myself.
Yes i give all myself.
And i give all myself.to you.

And i`ll follow you into the homes that are broken
Follow you into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy god.
Follow you into the world.

And i`ll follow you into the homes that are broken
Follow you into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy god.
Follow you into the world.

Scenes From The Week So Far

Okay, so Monday was a wash out, I got wet walking to work, it took hours for my trousers to dry out and then a matter of minutes after leaving work, it absolutely chucked it down, I was soaked to the skin!

Thankfully, the weather since has been a lot better and the sun has finally began to show it’s face once more.

Bright Beyond

Bright Beyond

Breaking Reflection

Breaking Reflection

In Reflection

In Reflection

Soft Morning Glow

Soft Morning Glow

Bright Morning

Bright Morning

In The Blue

In The Blue

Reflective Moment

Reflective Moment

Contrast In Reflection

Contrast In Reflection

On Surface

On Surface

Morning Rays

Morning Rays

BRIGHTER DAYS by LEELAND
Time keeps moving on
Through the sunshine and the storm
And my dreams are set in stone
And someday I’ll be who I want to be
For now I’ll wait
For the sun to shine again
And for now I’ll wait
For the rain to pass away

And I’m looking for the brighter days
When all my hurts seem to fade away
I’m looking for the brighter days to come my way

Faces come and faces go
But none seem to look my way
And walls have stood and walls have fallen
But my heart seems to wait
For now I’ll sit at the end of the road
And for now I’ll wait
At the end of the pathway

I’ll see the sun one day shine upon me
I’ll see the sun one day
And watch the nighttime turn to morning
But for now it all comes back around

Verse of the Day – Job 12:9-10

 

Job 12:9-10

Job 12:9-10

I know what the hand of the Lord has done in life and I give thanks for everything that He has done for me.

Two days to go!

CHAINS HIT THE GROUND by LEELAND
I’m holding on to You
It’s all I know to do
When fear has had me bound
When enemies surround
There’s freedom in this truth
My salvation is in You

And I remember the nails that You took for me
When You died in my shame and iniquity
Jesus, You have set me free
The thorns of my pain You wore in a crown
When You bowed Your head
Your love was poured out
And my chains hit the ground

You are the Rock I’ve found
Above the shifting ground
Amid a raging war
You’re the One I’m fighting for
For all of my years
My banner will be clear

I am Yours
And even though the waves, they crash below
I’m holding onto love
I’m holding onto love
I am Yours
Forever all my days, I lay before Your holy love
I’m holding onto love

Verse of the Day – Hebrews 10:25

Hebrews 10:25

Hebrews 10:25

Another great Connect Group tonight, I am so thankful they have supported me through so much over the last year.

Three days to go now!

THE GREAT AWAKENING by LEELAND
One man wakes, awakens another
Second one wakes his next door brother
Three awake and rouse a town
…And turn the whole place upside down

Many awake, will cause such a fuss
It finally awakes all of us
One man awakes with dawn in his eyes
Surely then it multiplies

One man wakes, awakens another
Second one wakes his next door brother
Three awake and rouse a town
By turning the whole place upside down

Many awake, will cause such a fuss
It finally awakes The rest of us
One man awakes with dawn in his eyes
Surely then it multiplies

Verse of the Day – Hebrews 12:2

Hebrews 12:2

Hebrews 12:2

Thankful I lifted my eyes and set them on the author and perfecter of our faith.

LIFT YOUR EYES UP by LEELAND
It feels like
Your world’s crashing down
And solid ground is hard to be found
It feels like the walls are closing in
And night has fallen
And the sun is gone
Your heart is dry
You need some time to find God

Come on, Come on
Lift your eyes up
Lift your eyes up
To the hills

Even in the testing fire
God supplies every need in your life
And He’ll come like the morning star
And wipe away your heart’s fears
And the dark will fall and the light will shine
It’s all alright with God here

Come on, Come on
Lift your eyes up
Lift your eyes up
To the hills

Come on, Come on
Lift your eyes up
Lift your eyes up
To the hills

And the sun will shine 
It’s a holy day
It’s a brighter day for you

The sun it will shine 
It’s a holy day
It’s a brighter day for you

Come on, Come on
Lift your eyes up

Come on, Come on
Come on, Come on
Come on, Come on … Yeah

Come on, Come on
Lift your eyes up
Lift your eyes up
To the hills

Come on, Come on
Lift your eyes up
Lift your eyes up
To the hills

Verse of the Day – Psalm 56:8-11

Psalm 56:8-11

Psalm 56:8-11

In times of struggle I had many sleepless nights and cried so many tears, yet with the strength I prayed for I made it through, but how comforting to know that He’s counted all those nights, kept all my tears and God is for me.

I CRY by LEELAND
Fear is far from love
And I feel scared enough
To think You’ve given up on me
But I can’t hide my shame
You know my deepest pain
You are well acquainted with my grief
Oh great God of power
I have lost my strength
This is my desperate hour
I’m calling out Your name

I cry
Are You out there tonight
Or am I all alone
This time it’s the fight of my life
So I cry
I can’t do this on my own
I can’t do this on my own
I am giving You control

If weakness is a crown
Then I kneel before You now
And lay it at Your feet as an offering
And if You hold everything
Then don’t let go of me
Hide me in the shadow of Your wings
Oh great God of power
I have lost my strength
This is my desperate hour
I’m calling out Your name

Are You out there tonight
Are You out there tonight
Are You out there tonight
So I cry

Are You out there tonight
(You said You’d never leave me)
Are You out there tonight
(You said You’d never leave me)
Are You out there tonight
(You said You’d never leave me)
So I cry

I can’t do this on my own
I can’t do this on my own
I can’t do this on my own
I can’t do this alone
I can’t do this

I’m holding on to You
I’m holding on to You
I’m holding on
I’m holding on to You
God, I’m holding on to You
Lord, I’m holding on

Verse of the Day – Isaiah 46:4

Isaiah 46:4

Isaiah 46:4

Tonight I am thankful to the Lord for carrying me through so many trying times.

CARRY ME ON YOUR BACK by LEELAND
Even heroes fall down
And mountains won’t last forever
But your promise never fails
Mmm
When the ocean is raging
I find stillness in your presence
and I lift my voice to say
Jesus take me away

Carry me on your back
Through the storm, Lord
Carry me on your back
Through the storm, Lord
Through the storm, Lord

When the furnace is buring
I know rescue is coming
Your promise never fails
Ohhh
In the darkness your light shines
Breaking over the horizon
And I lift my eyes to see
Heaven is falling for me

Carry me on Your back
Through the storm, Lord
Carry me on Your back
Through the storm, Lord
Through the storm, Lord

Waking up in the arms of love
I’ll be singing, singing a new song
Waking up in the arms of love
I’ll be singing, singing a new song

Oh Carry me on Your back
Through the storm, Lord
Carry me on Your back
Through the storm, Lord
Through the storm, Lord
Through the storm, Lord

Kind Skies

Despite the frosty ground and cold air, the skies were kind this morning, it was a shame I had to leave the lake to get to work, it looked like it was going to get even better.  I start work half an hour later tomorrow, hopefully the skies are kind again.

Breaking The Darkness

Breaking The Darkness

Sunrise & Street Lights

Sunrise & Street Lights

Breaking Gold

Breaking Gold

Beyond The Lake

Beyond The Lake

Light Over The Lake

Light Over The Lake

Subtle Reflections

Subtle Reflections

Morning Shades

Morning Shades

FOLLOW YOU by LEELAND & BRANDON HEATH
You lived among the least of these
The weary and the weak
And it would be a tragedy for me to turn away.

All my needs you have supplied.
When I was dead you gave me life.
How could I not give it away so freely?

And i`ll follow you into the homes that are broken.
Follow you into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy god.
Follow you into the world.

Use my hands use my feet
To make your kingdom come
Through the corners of the earth
Until your work is done
`cause faith without works is dead
And on the cross your blood was shed
So how could I not give it away so freely?

And I`ll follow you into the homes that are broken.
Follow you into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy god.
Follow you into the world.

And I`ll follow you into the homes that are broken.
Follow you into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy god.
Follow you into the world.

I give all myself.
I give all myself
I give all myself.to you.

And I give all myself.
Yes I give all myself.
And I give all myself.to you.

And I`ll follow you into the homes that are broken
Follow you into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy god.
Follow you into the world

And I`ll follow you into the homes that are broken
Follow you into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy god.
Follow you into the world

Falling In The Dark Hours

Everything seemed to be going really well until this evening, a few things just started to go wrong, slowly I found myself getting more and more agitated and eventually becoming very angry.  By the time I got home I just wanted to be alone in the dark, I went straight upstairs out of the way without speaking with anyone, I think Victoria could tell something wasn’t right, but she never said anything.

After I while I came back downstairs, had something to eat and laid down on the settee, but I just began to get further and further wound up.  My breathing was heavy and I sank back into a dark place.

I began to get similar feelings to those that kept coming to me before Christmas, they came back again tonight, I’ve never mentioned them to anyone before, they went away when Christmas passed quietly, but as I say I had them again tonight.  All I wanted to do was to cut something into my left arm, before Christmas I kept wanting to carve “I’ll Never Be Enough”, but tonight it was “I Hate Myself”!  I’ve never self harmed and before the end of last year, never contemplated it.  At Christmas I kept imagining that I would just find myself in a daze on Christmas day with these words cut into my arms, this evening was very similar.

But then something changed, as I laid there I could feel my heart beating hard and then I remembered the words that kept coming to me on Sunday, the words I posted Sunday evening:

Even though I go through all the anxiety, the worry, the stress, the emptiness, the desolation and despair, I’m never alone, but I should believe that when I go through this and my heart beats in double time, it’s not just my heart that’s beating, but the heart of Christ beating alongside mine.

As soon as I began to think about that everything changed, the emptiness and the dark urges ceased almost immediately and I slowly began to pick up.  So less than an hour later I feel much calmer, not as calm and content as last evening, but nowhere near how empty and low I felt earlier this evening.

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.’
Joshua 1:9

WHILE WE SING by LEELAND
I’ve sat by far too long
And I’ve watched the hurting suffer on their own
I have chances everyday
To live like You, die to myself
Give Your love away
And I wonder why I feel so empty inside

While I sing la la la la la la la la la
As the hungry roam the streets
La la la la la la la la la
As the broken are on their knees
La la la la la la la la la
I keep singing

We are frozen, we are still
But we’re called to be a city on a hill
And as our melodies resound
We cannot hear the silent cry
This world is screaming out
And we wonder why we feel so empty inside

While we sing la la la la la la la la la
As the hungry roam the streets
La la la la la la la la la
As the broken are on their knees
La la la la la la la la la
We keep singing

Remember salvation’s day
When Jesus washed our sins away
The lost are crying out to be saved

While we sing la la la la la la la la la
As the hungry roam the streets
La la la la la la la la la
As the broken are on their knees
La la la la la la la la la
We keep singing
But just a song won’t heal
The bleeding wound
Church wake up
We’re sleeping in an empty tomb

Church arise, arise and shine
Shake yourself from the dust
God is calling us to go

Anniversaries And Recovery

I’m not really sure if it’s just me or if this applies to others who form part of the recovery community, but for me I remember all the crucial dates that form my recovery, from the day it all went wrong big time, to the day I stood with a blade seeking a way out, to the following day when I met with Gareth, then two days later when I first prayed and on to 29th March 2012, when I last took a drink.

So that makes it exactly 18 months of sobriety so far and I promise you, that is just the start. I count every day, I count every week and obviously I count the months too, that’s because as long as I can write that date at the top of every journal page, at the end of every single day, then I know that whatever is going on in my life, whatever ups and downs, whatever the crisis or the victory it’s been a fantastic day, because I will know I’m still walking on this journey with God and I still carry this testimony for Him.

The memories of those two whirlwind weeks are still so, so vivid, those two weeks that went from total destruction to early stages of reconstruction, they really where poles apart, but the beginnings of the most amazing journey. On that journey I’ve met some amazing people along the way, through Church, where despite my early fears of being judged, I can say I’ve haven’t met anybody that has judged me, they have all  encouraged and helped on my journey, strengthening me and they’ve held me when I’ve need it too.

But also on this blog, I’ve made friends from all over the world and I’ve received so much positive feedback and encouragement, it’s been an unbelievable experience, in fact I never received a comment which I would consider negative, only support, praise and advice.

On this day last year, I started to put my testimony into words, this time last year I started writing articles that would end up being among the first posts on this blog.

That night I began preparing a number of articles, which would eventually become:

The Windup Torch
The Healing Begins
The Miracle Marathon
&
The Forgotten Box

It took another week to take the plunge and actually start this blog, in that week in between the first drafts of other articles appeared and edits were made of those early drafts, but I still sat on them a little while longer.

So next Sunday this blog officially becomes one year old, I’m not sure what I’m going to do to celebrate that, but I’ll find a way, somehow.

THE GREAT AWAKENING by LEELAND
One man wakes, awakens another
Second one wakes his next door brother
Three awake can rouse a town
And turn the whole place upside down
Many awake will cause such a fuss
It finally awakes all of us
One man wakes with dawn in his eyes
Surely then it multiplies
Surely then it multiplies

One man wakes, awakens another
Second one wakes his next door brother
Three awake can rouse a town
And turn the whole place upside down
Many awake will cause such a fuss
It finally awakes all of us
One man wakes with dawn in his eyes
Surely then it multiplies
Surely then it multiplies