Tag Archives: Loneliness

My Illness

My Illness

I’m wrapped up in my illness

I feel the suffering of my Isolation
I feel the suffering of my Loneliness
I feel the suffering of my Longing
I feel the suffering of my Nothingness
I feel the suffering of my Empty heart
I feel the suffering of my Soul
I feel the suffering of my Seasons

I’m so wrapped up in these feelings
I stand shivering
In the space that’s come between us Lord
Still I hear Your voice
Saying the space is just a feeling
You are there at my side
We are together in these moments
My soul is never alone
You ask me to let You fill this heart
You ask me to let You be my all
Then is illness will fade in the light
The space will be no more
Just a feeling in my memory
As I hold to You so tightly

It’s Okay

I found this poem earlier this evening, it’s from back in May this year, I honestly don’t remember writing it, let alone posting it.  But having written over last night and today about how alone I felt, this seemed to bring some comfort.

IT’S OKAY

Hello my child
I can see your heart
And I feel this is something
That I have to say
I need you to know
It’s okay not to feel okay

It’s okay
To be afraid of fear
There’s no shame
In the fear of being afraid
As when you’re frightened
I’ll be there holding tight

It’s okay
To feel alone in the dark
It’s alright to feel
Like you just don’t fit
Or that your life feels empty
I’ll be there to fill your heart

It’s okay
To feel that you are weak
There’s no shame in feeling that way
Or when you’re tired and weary
And you just can’t go on
I’ll be the one to carry you

It’s okay
It doesn’t matter to me
How far you fall
Or where you hide
Just lean on me my child
As I’ll be always by your side

I Feel

I FEEL

Why is it I feel so alone
Even here in my own home
Yet this house is full
Everyone’s here
Yet still
I feel
So alone
I feel Your hand
Upon my shoulder
I feel Your arms
Holding my tight
Yet still
I feel
So alone
My heart is captive
Held in another hands
I feel You with me
And still
I feel
So alone

NOTE:
This one was rumbling around my head last night, it was the way I felt, I was going to bury it and leave in my drafts.  But I must say that this morning at Church I felt encouraged once again and not quiet so alone.

Verse of the Day – Psalm 25:16-17

Psalm 25:16-17

Psalm 25:16-17

There are times when, just like this evening, that I feel alone in a house that is full, these are nights when all I can do is to say this prayer.

NO GOOD TO BE ALONE by BRANDON HEATH
We’re leaving you a message on your telephone
Everybody’s wondering what you’re doing home
Yeah, we’re starting and you’re missing the party

Can you hear it playing your favorite song?
Everybody’s singing but something’s wrong
‘Cause you’re missing
Hey, hey, are you listening?

It’s no good to be alone
It’s no good to be out there on your own
It’s no good for you anymore than it is for me
It’s no good, no good for you to be alone
Alone, alone, alone, alone, no good to be alone

It’s been a little while, you’ve been outta the scene
Spending all your time chasing down a dream
Takes a lifetime
It’s a short life

You know it doesn’t matter how high you climb
If no one’s there to share the ride
When you get there who’s gonna be there?

It’s no good to be alone
It’s no good to be out there on your own
It’s no good for you anymore than it is for me
It’s no good, no good for you to be alone
Alone, alone, alone, alone, no good to be alone

Nobody’s suppose to be an island
Stuck out in the middle of the ocean on your own
I’m not giving up until I find you
Give me an S.O.S., I’ll bring you home
It’s no good for you to be alone

Don’t you know?
It’s no good to be alone
It’s no good to be out there on your own
It’s no good for you anymore than it is for me
It’s no good, no good for you to be alone
Alone, alone, alone, alone, no good to be alone
Alone, alone, alone, alone, no good to be alone