Trust me, I've been there, I've looked, I've searched and I know now, that there are no answers to be found in the bottom of a bottle or on the edge of a blade! Fighting Hard, Recovering, Rebuilding, REBORN. Moving on from addiction to a new life.
No matter how dark the day or how black the night, tomorrow a new sun rises, a new start, a new day.
NEW DAY by GREEN RIVER ORDINANCE In the city that never sleeps, Restless hearts are moving through the beat Trying to find out who we trying to be Nowhere to go Man on the corner asking for some change Several arms are reaching for a way So many times you know I hear them say Nowhere to go
Whoa, yeah I need a hallelujah I said, whoa, Whoa, yeah I need a hallelujah There’s a … Us all Hurting and … To break my fall I need a town Whoa brother would you come and help me out
Whoa, yeah I need hallelujah I said, whoa, Whoa, yeah I need a hallelujah
When you walk in this fire, just open your eyes, sing
Need somebody, …get away Never gonna … The lovers do, running away Yesterday has gone away You’re waiting on a new day Need somebody, …get away Never gonna … The lovers do, running away Yesterday has gone away You’re waiting on a new day No lost in … We’re lost in …whoa Need somebody, …get away Never gonna … The lovers do, running away Yesterday has gone away You’re waiting on a new day Need somebody, …get away Never gonna … The lovers do, running away Yesterday has gone away You’re waiting on a new day.
For the second day running I was up and out before 5am, ready for a long walk and to see yet another sunrise.
It may be the same sun, but it’s definitely a new day and different sky, but yet another great sunrise.
As long as the sunrise is different each morning, no day will ever be the same, there to be embraced.
Sky Ribbons
Over Deep Blue
Alone In The Blue
Highlight The Clouds
Frayed Within The Waters
Creeping Through
Breaking The Horizon
Between The Blue
Through Morning Leaf
Above The Trees Beyond
Across The Blue Waters
I love this song, it’s hard not to.
ANGELS ON THE MOON by THRIVING IVORY Do you dream that the world will know your name? So tell me your name Do you care about all the little things or anything at all? I wanna feel, all the chemicals inside I wanna feel I wanna sunburn, just to know that I’m alive To know I’m alive
Don’t tell me if I’m dying ‘Cause I don’t wanna know If I can’t see the sun, maybe I should go Don’t wake me ’cause I’m dreaming Of angels on the moon Where everyone you know Never leaves too soon
Do you believe, in the day that you were born Tell me do you believe? Do you know, that every day’s the first Of the rest of your life?
Don’t tell me if I’m dying ‘Cause I don’t wanna know If I can’t see the sun Maybe I should go Don’t wake me ’cause I’m dreaming Of angels on the moon Where everyone you know Never leaves too soon.
This is to one last day in the shadows And to know a brother’s love This is to New York City angels And the rivers of our blood This is to all of us To all of us
Don’t tell me if I’m dying ‘Cause I don’t wanna know If I can’t see the sun Maybe I should go Don’t wake me ’cause I’m dreaming Of angels on the moon Where everyone you know never leaves too soon
You can tell me all your thoughts About the stars that fill polluted skies And show me where you run to When no one’s left to take your side But don’t tell me where the road ends ‘Cause I just don’t wanna know No I don’t wanna know
Don’t tell me if I’m dying Don’t tell me if I’m dying
So Victoria and the kids went off to camp yesterday and now it’s just me and the rabbit, who has been fed and had a little run around the room, she seems happy enough at least.
It’s true the silence in this house is strange, the house lacks soul because the kids aren’t here to fill it with noise, no Ben shouting at the Playstation or the sounds of Good Luck Charlie played loudly as Eve makes loom bands!
Do I prefer the noise and the annoying interruptions or the silence, well actually I would take the noise everyday of the year!
A few days ago I was pretty fearful of being alone in an empty house, fearing the worst parts of me would start to show, but at the moment, apart from this silence, I feel pretty content.
I’ve been out walking again this morning, another 8½ miles, no sunrise this morning, only grey skies and a downpour of rain, so no pictures to share, but I did have some great thinking time, working through in my head and in prayer how to approach the request for help from a friend across the Atlantic. Which is also keeping my mind pretty busy this evening, it’s taken my mind from my own problems, to how I can used my experience to help another, not always an easy process, but I am glad that I can help in some way at least and early signs seem encouraging.
Hopefully the rest of the week is going to be pretty busy and my nights will be filled with things to keep my mind occupied and not drowning in silence.
NEW DAY by GREEN RIVER ORDINANCE In the city that never sleeps, Restless hearts are moving through the beat Trying to find out who we trying to be Nowhere to go Man on the corner asking for some change Several arms are reaching for a way So many times you know I hear them say Nowhere to go
Whoa, yeah I need a hallelujah I said, whoa, Whoa, yeah I need a hallelujah There’s a … Us all Hurting and … To break my fall I need a town Whoa brother would you come and help me out
Whoa, yeah I need hallelujah I said, whoa, Whoa, yeah I need a hallelujah
When you walk in this fire, just open your eyes, sing
Need somebody, …get away Never gonna … The lovers do, running away Yesterday has gone away You’re waiting on a new day Need somebody, …get away Never gonna … The lovers do, running away Yesterday has gone away You’re waiting on a new day No lost in … We’re lost in …whoa Need somebody, …get away Never gonna … The lovers do, running away Yesterday has gone away You’re waiting on a new day Need somebody, …get away Never gonna … The lovers do, running away Yesterday has gone away You’re waiting on a new day.