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Verse of the Day – Psalm 30:5

Psalm 30:5

Psalm 30:5

The Lord’s promise last for a lifetime, we may struggle, we may fail, we may weep, but He will bring rejoicing, beneath His love we will find joy.  Just know that whatever we go through He will go through with us.

NOW YOU’RE FOUND by ESTERLYN
If you’re lost in a heartache on your own, ohhh
And if you’re caught in a mistake and all alone, oh
If your soul is searching out
And your whole world’s turned around, ohhh
If your faith is burning out
And love leaves you in doubt
And you know there’s something more

Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
Feel my love abound
Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
You were lost, now you’re found

When you’re feeling forgotten on your own
When your soul is searching out
And your whole world’s turned around
If your faith is burning out
And love leaves you in doubt
And you know there’s something more

Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
Feel my love abound
Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
You were lost, now you’re found

Come as you are, just as you are
I’ll give you peace

Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
Feel my love abound
Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
You were lost, but now you’re found

Ohhh
Now you’re found
Ohhh
Now you’re found
Ohhh
Now you’re found
Ohhh

 

Finally A Decent Mother’s (Father’s) Day!

It’s fair to say that Mother’s Day for the last two years have not been great for me, both last year and the year before were shrouded by deep thoughts of suicide, not my best days by far, but in their own way both days of revelation, they may have started out badly, but by the end of the day there was a way forward.

Two years ago I was in the middle of a drinking binge, my life having all but collapsed around me, I found myself in my bathroom with a penknife held against my wrist, I was a mess, but I couldn’t do it, through all the low thoughts, the only one that made a difference was my kids needed me, regardless of how low I was or how badly I had fallen.

Then last year I was struggling with the death of my Nan, Mothering Sunday fell just two days before her funeral, I was filled with remorse and self pity, as I sat by the lake that morning my only thought was to stand up and walk out into the middle of it, I was convinced nobody would ever notice I was gone, once again the thoughts about my kids was the key to standing up and walking home.

But both days ended with hope, two years ago it was a telephone number and the offer to talk, that number was Gareth’s, the next day I found the courage to call him and start this journey with God.  Last year it was the support of Paul and Jo Tilley from my Church, they threw an arm around me and took me in for a few hours, just the offer of dinner with them changed my outlook, I no longer felt alone.

Today has been totally different, maybe it’s because I’m on a high after yesterday two year anniversary of my sobriety, which by the way I missed at 10.30pm because I fell asleep, oh well, I woke up just after 11pm and had that drink of Pepsi Max!  But I have to say I feel so different at the moment, more content than ever.  I may not have everything I want in my life at the moment, but does any of that really matter, when I consider where I was last year and the year before, life is brilliant!

Today’s services at Church where great, Ian’s preach in the first service was on the Jesus’s statement “I am the good shepherd”, it got me thinking about the parable of the shepherd, that he would leave the rest of his flock to look for the one lost sheep and rejoice when he found it, I guess I’ve wandered off and got lost so many times, but He keeps finding me and bringing me back, it’s an amazing feeling to know that despite my failures He still rejoices in finding me.

Part of the Mother’s Day service was a number of video’s where Kids told their Mum’s what they thought about them, just when I was beginning to stew on my last two Mother’s Days, these video’s and along with a few things that Ruth said, changed my thinking once more, once again it was as though I was being spoken to.

My daughter said something to me last night that I dismissed, something that I thought no way, my mind was still in those dark days of the past, that I still wasn’t enough for my family and never would be.  But this voice was telling me what my daughter said last night and that she believed it, so should I.

Last night Eve sat on the arm of my settee, put her arm around me and said I was “the best Dad ever!”  Instantly I dismissed it, I put them through so much rubbish, how could I be?

But I was being told to listen to my daughter, she believed it, she meant it, it didn’t matter about the past anymore, just about the now and the future, through all that she loves me now more than ever, to her I’m the best Dad ever, all those dark thoughts of ending it because I wasn’t good enough, they’re dead, gone forever.

Life isn’t perfect, but it’s good, we’re getting by, I’m burying my past deeper everyday and moving forward once again.

 NOW YOU’RE FOUND by ESTERLYN
If you’re lost in a heartache on your own, ohhh
And if you’re caught in a mistake and all alone, oh
If your soul is searching out
And your whole world’s turned around, ohhh
If your faith is burning out
And love leaves you in doubt
And you know there’s something more

Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
Feel my love abound
Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
You were lost, now you’re found

When you’re feeling forgotten on your own
When your soul is searching out
And your whole world’s turned around
If your faith is burning out
And love leaves you in doubt
And you know there’s something more

Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
Feel my love abound
Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
You were lost, now you’re found

Come as you are, just as you are
I’ll give you peace

Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
Feel my love abound
Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
You were lost, but now you’re found

Ohhh
Now you’re found
Ohhh
Now you’re found
Ohhh
Now you’re found
Ohhh

Verse of the Day – Nahum 1:7

Nahum 1:7

Nahum 1:7

Two years ago today I was desperate and sought a way out, an end.  Then I found a refuge, a safe place under the shadow of His wings.

NOW YOU’RE FOUND by ESTERLYN
If you’re lost in a heartache on your own, ohhh
And if you’re caught in a mistake and all alone, oh
If your soul is searching out
And your whole world’s turned around, ohhh
If your faith is burning out
And love leaves you in doubt
And you know there’s something more

Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
Feel my love abound
Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
You were lost, now you’re found

When you’re feeling forgotten on your own
When your soul is searching out
And your whole world’s turned around
If your faith is burning out
And love leaves you in doubt
And you know there’s something more

Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
Feel my love abound
Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
You were lost, now you’re found

Come as you are, just as you are
I’ll give you peace

Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
Feel my love abound
Come to me now, lay your burdens down
Come rest in my arms
You were lost, but now you’re found

Ohhh
Now you’re found
Ohhh
Now you’re found
Ohhh
Now you’re found
Ohhh