Tag Archives: Pain

Tears Before The Mirror – Lamentations 3:31-33

Tears Before The Mirror – Lamentations 3:31-33

Tears before the mirror
The pain and the grief
Hurts so much
The heart is sinking
Yet it won’t be for long
The Lord never leaves
A heart holding grief
His unfailing love
Is waiting to make you whole
So cast off the shadows
And let the tears flow
Let the Lord be your comfort
Until the joy takes your soul

Lamentations 3:31-33

Lamentations 3:31-33

Wilderness – 1 Kings 19:3-4

Wilderness – 1 Kings 19:3-4

I’ve been there before
Just like a bush in the wilderness
Where with tear stained face
I begged You to take my life
I couldn’t go on
Wanted it no more
And this prayer You answered
Still not as I wished
You promised whatever I go through
You would go through with me
Whatever I faced
You would face it too
Side by side
Through it all
Until the day
When it’s time to come home

1 Kings 19:3-4

1 Kings 19:3-4

I Am Here – Exodus 10:4

I Am Here – Exodus 10:4

Hold my hand
For I am here
The loving God
Beside my child
I’ve seen you heart fall
Letting these walls rise
Letting the fear be the guard
Of the prison of life
Where your hope fades
And you soul is torn
Believe me my child
I am here
To put this all to an end
By my command
I tell them to stop
To set you free
I will destroy their ways
Put a stop to their means
I, the Lord
Creator of all
Who commands the winds
And controls the skies
Will silence their cries
Remove their poison words
Feel me here
Hear my voice
Comfort for tonight
Hope for tomorrow
Love for the lost
And healing for the broken
My child
I love
My child
I am here
Right now darkness trembles
Darkness falls
At the coming light
So rise my child
Let’s walk from here
Leaving footprints in the sand
As together we go

Exodus 10:4

Exodus 10:4

Twilight – 1 Corinthians 1:9

Twilight – 1 Corinthians 1:9

There’s a twilight
Setting around your soul
A doubt
A fear
A moment to fall
To let slide the belief
Sliding to darkness
Long since found
Why my friend?
Do you let it fall?
Set your face in prayer
Still you feel
You asked for the unaskable
You wanted the impossible
Set your dreams far too big
Now you think our God
Our mighty God
Is not great enough
To make your dreams
Came alive before your eyes
So you turn away
Let this twilight rise
Turn the light of day to night
Where darkness crawls
Within the skin
Setting fear against the hope
And there you are
Letting it win
My friend I sit here at your side
We’ve been here many times before
Today I need to say
Trust the Lord
Our faithful God
The One who gave
His Song for our souls
Your prayers He hears
Your dreams He sees
Our faithful God
Will answer all
When the time is right
When the moment is just
All will be revealed
All will be seen
The hope you cling to
Will burst to life
Before your eyes
The love of God comes alive
So here we sit
Together again
With God beside
And heave above
We will pray
We will believe
The twilight fades
To the brightest days
As hope grows
Before our eyes

1 Corinthians 1:9

1 Corinthians 1:9

Will You Go Before? – Exodus 14:19-20

Will You Go Before? – Exodus 14:19-20

Will You go before?
Stand before my night
Where darkness comes
So ever close
I dare not take
One more step
Oh, Angel of God
My Lord of Heaven
Be the one
That shields me from the night
Where I see the enemies
That gather in the shadows
To chase me closer
To the edge of no return
Will You go before?
Oh, Angel of God
Carry the word
Of truth within
Before their eyes
Against their words
No shadows can stand
No night may triumph
When the Angel of God
Is the light before
The brightest star
In the night skies
The light of morning
As the dead of night fails
Will You go before?
So I can walk again
Be the One
Who rescues this soul
Be the One
Who sets aside my emptiness
To fill with hope
The beleaguered soul
To fill with love
The broken heart
Will You go before?
Oh, Angel of God
Will You be the One?
Who carries me home

Exodus 14:19-20

Exodus 14:19-20

The Prisoner – Revelation 2:10

The Prisoner – Revelation 2:10

Walls of depression
Enclose me so
The voice of he
Invades my soul
An emptiness
Upon my mind
Further slipping
To colder floor
Thinking in circles
Of nothingness
He has me
Dragging a prisoner
To the gates of hell
My only hope
In darkened rooms
The faith I remember
From bleaker times
Cry His name
Cry it now
To open doors
Break out the light
The angels cry
Walls break wide
At the coming of the light
Which nothing breaks
Nothing bends
Shadows shudder
Darkness runs
The light of Christ
Holds dominion over all
So here I lay
Darkness gone
Grace where nothingness dwelt
Circles of emptiness
Now beating hearts
The prison falls
It’s guard deserted
Free again
Now to move on
Released by grace
Loved by Christ

Revelation 2:10

Revelation 2:10

Verse of the Day – Psalm 96:1-3

Psalm 96:1-3

Psalm 96:1-3

It is just over seven weeks from my accident, my legs are still healing, some days they feel okay and others, like today they cause me pain and discomfort.  Even this morning at Church, my left leg and foot were both giving me some discomfort and pain, but that didn’t stop me standing and singing out my worship, I may have been in pain, but I sung out every word.

This is just a season of discomfort and readjustment, the Lord saved me from any major damage, I know that to be true, now I just have to work through the rest.  The journey may be one which includes pain, but it is a journey which contains many lessons, it’s a time to grow through the challenge.

In the mean time, I will continue to sing and offer the Lord my praise and worship.

The pain will go away, but the Lord will never leave!

KING OF MY HEART by BETHEL MUSIC
Let the King of my heart
Be the mountain where I run
The fountain I drink from
Oh, He is my song
Let the King of my heart
Be the shadow where I hide
The ransom for my life
Oh, He is my song

‘Cause You are good
You are good, oh-oh
You are good
You are good, oh-oh
You are good
You are good, oh-oh
You are good
You are good, oh-oh

And let the King of my heart
Be the wind inside my sails
The anchor in the waves
Oh-oh, He is my song
Let the King of my heart
Be the fire inside my veins
The echo of my days
Oh-oh, He is my song

Let the King of my heart
Be the wind inside my sails
The anchor in the waves
Oh-oh, He is my song
Let the King of my heart
Be the fire inside my veins
The echo of my days
Oh, He is my song

‘Cause You are good
You are good, oh-oh
You are good
You are good, oh-oh
You are good
You are good, oh-oh
You are good
You are good, oh-oh

You’re never gonna let
You’re never gonna let me down
And You’re never gonna let
You’re never gonna let me down
You’re never gonna let
You’re never gonna let me down
You’re never gonna let
You’re never gonna let me down

Oh ’cause You are good
You are good, oh-oh
‘Cause You are good
You are good, oh-oh
‘Cause You are good
You are good, oh-oh
You are good
You are good, oh-oh..

You’re never gonna let
You’re never gonna let me down…

Yesterday’s Rain

Yesterday’s Rain

Dark and gnarled they rise
To the shadows of darkened leaf
That blacks out the daylight sky
So no light can find it’s way
How did I find my way here?
Here my soul sleeps
And my heart bleeds
The darkness from within
Flows out upon the ground
Among the dying plants
Where little ever grows
Here I lay
In this humid air
That squeezes upon my lungs
I gasp for air
I try to breathe
Is this where death begins?

The thickness of this forest
Walls of rotting bark on my every side
The ivy spreads upon the floor
Running rings around towering trees
Looking for a way forward
For there is no way back
Only darkness upon the left and right
Still darkness up ahead
Where do I go from here?
It has a similar feel to before
Is this real or just in my mind?
I’m struggling for what is truth
How is one released from here?
Or does one become darkness’s tree?

I can hear a faint wind
Blowing through the trees above
It’s shakes the branches overhead
Only to bring down yesterday’s rain
A temporary cooling upon my brow
For a moment I can taste the spring
But ultimately lost in this humid tide
Still I struggle to breathe
I scratch upon the forest floor
Crawling in the dirt for an exit
I can’t see the way out of here
But still I must believe
If I believe it’s here
And trust what’s left in my heart
Surely the light must appear
I can’t be destined to spend all my days?
In this darkness and it’s fear
Etching words of anguish deep upon my soul
As I fall lower and lower upon this floor

Still yesterday’s rain falls upon me
With every shimmer of the winds above
Above me the darkened branches
Spread their leaves across my sky
Blocking out the light of life
Only the waters of the rains make it through
Here nothing lives around me
Only the creatures that dwell in the dark
Their faint noises tease my fear
And my tears mingle with yesterday’s rain
I’m lost and can’t find myself
Can I be the only one in here
Are the creaking of the branches
Just the cries of all my fears
The ones that leave me heart
And cry out to the night

Are my fears and anguish creating this forest?
Is this darkness the shadows of my depression?
Does my crying heart create the rain?
That falls like yesterday’s hopes
How can I wash away this dirt?
From the forest floor where I’ve found myself
As I crawl upon bleeding knees
Tattered and torn the rags I wear
From mattered hair to filthy toe
I have become a mess
The dirt of darkness and failure
Stain my being
And still I can’t breathe
There’s no air to fill these lungs
The only relief is yesterday’s rain

My consciousness slips
These fading eyes feel so heavy
I’m struggling to raise my face
To look and find any way
Or a chink of light before I fail
The sound of fear all about
Echo the anguish of this heart
Is there a way?
I must still believe
That no matter how dark this forest becomes
The light will come and find me here
To erase this fear
To silence these cries
And bring back life
To fills these lungs
And heal this heart

Can you hear the whisper of the wind?
Can you hear my voice among the leaves?
I am the wind that shakes the trees
The wind that makes the raindrops fall
I am here
I have always been
You’ve lost your way
Misplaced your hope
But I have brought the rain for you
Yesterday’s rain full of yesterday’s hopes
The hopes you held when life was strong
The hopes you held within my hands
Remember them they have sustained you
Now lift eyes and hear my voices
And see this forest slip far away

I hear the whisper
But my mind is weak
Consumed by the fear my heart bleeds
My soul shakes
A shiver of despair
All I see is the darkened trees
That block my way and pen me in
The dirt is deep and here I sink
No light above
Only the darkness of the forest leaves
Speak my Lord so I know it’s You
Call my name louder than this fear
Command me to rise
And see Your face
Before the forest takes this life

Around me now I hear the wind
Ever strong in the tallest trees
The leaves they shake
Like fear consumes them
And the endless shimmer
Brings down yesterday’s rain
Stronger and stronger the wind becomes
And relentlessly the rain falls
I’m flooded now with what feels like hope
As the water washes away my dirt
I lift my eyes
Desperate to see the skies
Still I see the shaking trees
With falling rains and loosened leaves
And slowly slowly my fear released

I am the whisper
I am the wind
I am the voice the forest fears
I am the maker of yesterday’s rain
I am the Father of your soul
I won’t let the forest take your heart
I won’t let the fear tear you apart
I won’t let you stay in this place
I won’t let the darkness win
I won’t let your hope die
So lift you face and look to me
Don’t see a forest
Just see a tree
A tree that became mercy’s cross
Where the lamb conquered sin and shame
So look up and hear my voice
And believe this forest will fade away

With my eyes lifted
I see beyond these trees
As the light breaks through these leaves
The rain still falls
Washing clean my soul
And all the cries of fear I heard
Are replaced the prayers of a thousand saints
Spoken loudly in a thousand tongues
The fire of the sun lights up the sky
As the darkened leaves fade away
Before my eyes the scene has changed
I look to the tress and they’re not the same
No longer dark and gnarled climbing high
The branches have gone
The leaves have fallen
Now every tree is the shape of the cross
Upon my knees
My tears still fall
Yet the fear doesn’t fill them now
It’s my joy that simply falls

Ahead just one tree remains
The glorious cross
That trampled sin and shame
The ground around me
Like a pasture new
The greenest grass
Where fresh flowers bloom
The cross before
The light above
From all that despair I am released
The hope of the rains
Have formed rivers in me
Now I rise off bleeding knees
Yet the blood has gone
No scars remain
This world is mine to walk again
And whatever comes
I’ll forever remember yesterday’s rains
That the Lord gave to me
When I lost my way
I thank You Lord
For yesterday’s rains

As The Stars Shine

As The Stars Shine

I’m not going to let you die tonight
He gave my death that you should live
This isn’t the end just the beginning
Together we have so much to give

So do let go as the stars shine
Let despair fall under the light of the moon
My peace will wash over you
Like the rain washes away the tears

I’ve seen the pain you try to sleep in
I felt the tears as I cried my own
I understand the hopelessness in your heart
But I need you to know tonight this will end

I am here beside and I won’t let go
I will stay until you walk the paths of heaven
Your pain I will carry upon my shoulders
Your burdens I will life from your heart

When you wake beneath the new sun
You world will feel so different
I tell you that you’ll no longer belong to the earth
From this moment you are a child of heaven

Wake my child and open your eyes
See my face and hear my words
I never let you die, I brought you life
Now rise above and embrace the truth

I’m not going to let you die tonight
He gave my death that you should live
This isn’t the end just the beginning
Together we have so much to give

Within The Bottle – Isaiah 51:12

Within The Bottle – Isaiah 51:12

Within the bottle
A world so crushed
All dreams
Faded into nothing
Everything held
Had become lost
As the turmoil boiled
Within the bottle

I was lost
Could I ever be found?
It seemed the end
Was I all I had
Not to say goodbye
Just to simply leave
Body cold, no life left
Within my bottle

But there I was
Staring at the lifeless
Speaking lies
Of all my worth
Still He came that day
To set me free
From the prison
Within my bottle

As days passed
His comfort He gave
To bring peace
To a torn heart
My God I found
As He found me
Seeking an escape from
Within the bottle

Isaiah 51:12

Isaiah 51:12