Trust me, I've been there, I've looked, I've searched and I know now, that there are no answers to be found in the bottom of a bottle or on the edge of a blade! Fighting Hard, Recovering, Rebuilding, REBORN. Moving on from addiction to a new life.
Have I been so blind? To live out such a life Not knowing who You were And from where I came You knew me before Watched on as I grew And You called out in vain As my soul ran away To darker paths So far from the home I was made to belong Yet You rejoiced with the angels When I made my way home And now I know Just who You are And the love that You hold And I thank You Lord For all that I am And all I will become
Before I came into this world You saw me as I was unformed Planning for me the days to come The pathways to who I should be All written within Your book Your blueprint for every part of me Did I follow the plan? No I feel far away Still You never gave up You came to rescue me Now I walk again On the pathways before With my eyes set upon You On the way to who I’m destined to be
Your Eyes They never left me Seeing from the beginning My birth to my being You saw through the darkness To see the light inside All my days You have watched And you knew the day That I would call You set the day And the days still to dawn All in the plan You set forth for me Now I see You Now I hold onto You And we will walk The days set together
Okay, so if you have been a regular follower of mine for some time, you will know that I count every day of sobriety and indeed passing every week, you will also know that I hold my own little celebrations at significant milestone, 1 year, 2 years, 500 days, 600 days, etc, etc. If you’re new to this site, then okay I can be a little weird from time to time also!
Psalm 90:12
So that fact that today is SoberDay 746 doesn’t really seem that significant, but I’ve looked at the days ahead and I’m being to see something more than coincidence with my date of Sobriety, the 29th March 2012, just a normal Thursday, nothing special, just another day.
Then last year my one year anniversary just so happened to fall on a Friday, Good Friday, coincidence? Maybe! I thought so at the time anyway. But it was a great day and a great way to celebrate.
But then earlier today, I worked out that my 750th SoberDay would fall on this coming Friday, Good Friday, another coincidence? Maybe, but then again my 1000th SoberDay will fall on Christmas Eve, now I’m being to think differently.
Psalm 139:16
So was Thursday 29th March 2012, just a normal day, when a troubled soul, just randomly decided to give up an addiction that had wrecked his life?
I’m beginning to think not, it wasn’t just a random day at all!
So Friday will be a great day of celebration, once again in more than just one way and I for one can’t wait!
BLINK by REVIVE Teach me to number my days And count every moment before it slips away Take in all the colors before they fade to gray I don’t want to miss even just a second more of this
It happens in a blink It happens in a flash It happens in the time it took to look back I try to hold on tight, but there’s no stopping time What is it I’ve done with my life It happens in a blink (x2)
When it’s all said and done No one remembers how far we have run The only thing that matters is how we have loved I don’t want to miss even just a second more of this
It happens in a blink It happens in a flash It happens in the time it took to look back I try to hold on tight, but there’s no stopping time What is it I’ve done with my life It happens in a blink (x4)
Slow down, slow down Before today becomes our yesterday Slow down, slow down Before you turn around and it’s too late
It happens in a blink it happens in a flash it happens in the time it took to look back I try to hold on tight but there’s no stopping time What is it I’ve done with my life It happens in a blink
It happens in a blink it happens in a flash it happens in the time it took to look back I try to hold on tight but there’s no stopping time What is it I’ve done with my life It happens in a blink It happens in a blink It happens in a blink It happens in a blink