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Yesterday’s Rain

Yesterday’s Rain

Dark and gnarled they rise
To the shadows of darkened leaf
That blacks out the daylight sky
So no light can find it’s way
How did I find my way here?
Here my soul sleeps
And my heart bleeds
The darkness from within
Flows out upon the ground
Among the dying plants
Where little ever grows
Here I lay
In this humid air
That squeezes upon my lungs
I gasp for air
I try to breathe
Is this where death begins?

The thickness of this forest
Walls of rotting bark on my every side
The ivy spreads upon the floor
Running rings around towering trees
Looking for a way forward
For there is no way back
Only darkness upon the left and right
Still darkness up ahead
Where do I go from here?
It has a similar feel to before
Is this real or just in my mind?
I’m struggling for what is truth
How is one released from here?
Or does one become darkness’s tree?

I can hear a faint wind
Blowing through the trees above
It’s shakes the branches overhead
Only to bring down yesterday’s rain
A temporary cooling upon my brow
For a moment I can taste the spring
But ultimately lost in this humid tide
Still I struggle to breathe
I scratch upon the forest floor
Crawling in the dirt for an exit
I can’t see the way out of here
But still I must believe
If I believe it’s here
And trust what’s left in my heart
Surely the light must appear
I can’t be destined to spend all my days?
In this darkness and it’s fear
Etching words of anguish deep upon my soul
As I fall lower and lower upon this floor

Still yesterday’s rain falls upon me
With every shimmer of the winds above
Above me the darkened branches
Spread their leaves across my sky
Blocking out the light of life
Only the waters of the rains make it through
Here nothing lives around me
Only the creatures that dwell in the dark
Their faint noises tease my fear
And my tears mingle with yesterday’s rain
I’m lost and can’t find myself
Can I be the only one in here
Are the creaking of the branches
Just the cries of all my fears
The ones that leave me heart
And cry out to the night

Are my fears and anguish creating this forest?
Is this darkness the shadows of my depression?
Does my crying heart create the rain?
That falls like yesterday’s hopes
How can I wash away this dirt?
From the forest floor where I’ve found myself
As I crawl upon bleeding knees
Tattered and torn the rags I wear
From mattered hair to filthy toe
I have become a mess
The dirt of darkness and failure
Stain my being
And still I can’t breathe
There’s no air to fill these lungs
The only relief is yesterday’s rain

My consciousness slips
These fading eyes feel so heavy
I’m struggling to raise my face
To look and find any way
Or a chink of light before I fail
The sound of fear all about
Echo the anguish of this heart
Is there a way?
I must still believe
That no matter how dark this forest becomes
The light will come and find me here
To erase this fear
To silence these cries
And bring back life
To fills these lungs
And heal this heart

Can you hear the whisper of the wind?
Can you hear my voice among the leaves?
I am the wind that shakes the trees
The wind that makes the raindrops fall
I am here
I have always been
You’ve lost your way
Misplaced your hope
But I have brought the rain for you
Yesterday’s rain full of yesterday’s hopes
The hopes you held when life was strong
The hopes you held within my hands
Remember them they have sustained you
Now lift eyes and hear my voices
And see this forest slip far away

I hear the whisper
But my mind is weak
Consumed by the fear my heart bleeds
My soul shakes
A shiver of despair
All I see is the darkened trees
That block my way and pen me in
The dirt is deep and here I sink
No light above
Only the darkness of the forest leaves
Speak my Lord so I know it’s You
Call my name louder than this fear
Command me to rise
And see Your face
Before the forest takes this life

Around me now I hear the wind
Ever strong in the tallest trees
The leaves they shake
Like fear consumes them
And the endless shimmer
Brings down yesterday’s rain
Stronger and stronger the wind becomes
And relentlessly the rain falls
I’m flooded now with what feels like hope
As the water washes away my dirt
I lift my eyes
Desperate to see the skies
Still I see the shaking trees
With falling rains and loosened leaves
And slowly slowly my fear released

I am the whisper
I am the wind
I am the voice the forest fears
I am the maker of yesterday’s rain
I am the Father of your soul
I won’t let the forest take your heart
I won’t let the fear tear you apart
I won’t let you stay in this place
I won’t let the darkness win
I won’t let your hope die
So lift you face and look to me
Don’t see a forest
Just see a tree
A tree that became mercy’s cross
Where the lamb conquered sin and shame
So look up and hear my voice
And believe this forest will fade away

With my eyes lifted
I see beyond these trees
As the light breaks through these leaves
The rain still falls
Washing clean my soul
And all the cries of fear I heard
Are replaced the prayers of a thousand saints
Spoken loudly in a thousand tongues
The fire of the sun lights up the sky
As the darkened leaves fade away
Before my eyes the scene has changed
I look to the tress and they’re not the same
No longer dark and gnarled climbing high
The branches have gone
The leaves have fallen
Now every tree is the shape of the cross
Upon my knees
My tears still fall
Yet the fear doesn’t fill them now
It’s my joy that simply falls

Ahead just one tree remains
The glorious cross
That trampled sin and shame
The ground around me
Like a pasture new
The greenest grass
Where fresh flowers bloom
The cross before
The light above
From all that despair I am released
The hope of the rains
Have formed rivers in me
Now I rise off bleeding knees
Yet the blood has gone
No scars remain
This world is mine to walk again
And whatever comes
I’ll forever remember yesterday’s rains
That the Lord gave to me
When I lost my way
I thank You Lord
For yesterday’s rains

Verse of the Day – Psalm 139:13

Psalm 139:13

Psalm 139:13

Our Lord created me for better things, He formed me, yet at times I don’t seem to be able to give Him control, I still feel I have to do things me own way, until I fall and He picks me up once again.

RAIN by MANIC DRIVE
Let Your light shine
And fill this earth
With a beautiful story
Let Your rain pour out
And fill this world
And reach out Your hand for me

Just an ordinary boy
Looking for extraordinary weather

Pouring rain
Feel Your love flowing right through me
Through the tears and pain
The earth shakes as it storms
Pouring rain
Let Your grace cover completely
Flood this selfishness and make it Yours again
And make it Yours

When I’m lost in doubt
I’m caving in
Still You hold on to me
Though my raging storms
Still I am sure
It’s You that’s raining down on me

Just an ordinary boy
Looking for extraordinary weather

Pouring rain
Feel Your love flowing right through me
Through the tears and pain
The earth shakes as it storms
Pouring rain
Let Your grace cover completely
Flood this selfishness and make it Yours again
And make it Yours

Pouring rain
Feel Your love flowing right through me
Through the tears and pain
The earth shakes as it storms
Pouring rain
Let Your grace cover completely
Flood this selfishness and make it Yours again
And make it Yours

 

Rain Is Coming – 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

Rain Is Coming – 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

The rain is coming
Yet I’m gonna sing
Let the storm rage
With all it can bring
Still I’m gonna praise loud
For the joy He gives
I just wanna make Him proud
Because I won’t give in
I’ll keep praying through it all
For when I call His name
I know I will never fall

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

Verse of the Day – Isaiah 55:10-11

Isaiah 55:10-11

Isaiah 55:10-11

From time to time we have to suffer the harsh winter, before we can walk into the new life that spring brings with it.

NEW LEASE ON LIFE by MERCYME
Oh Lord have mercy on this weary soul
Come and take me to the river and make me whole
It’s down with the old up with the new
The hard reset my life take two
Oh Lord have mercy on this weary soul

I’ve got a new lease on life
They say you only live once
But I live twice
I’ve got a new lease on life
I’ve got a new lease on life
Yeah…

Oh Lord remind me of who I am
My chains have been shattered I’m a brand new man
I’m free indeed, I’m dead no more
At my worst I’m still adored
Oh Lord remind me, this is who I am

I’ve got a new lease on life
They say you only live once
But I live twice
I’ve got a new lease on life
I’ve got a new lease on life
Yeah…

The enemy knows where I call my home, but he’s still trying
To mess up my life in the meantime, so Lord remind me

I’ve got a new lease on life
They say you only live once
But I live twice
I’ve got a new lease on life
I’ve got a new lease on life
Yeah…

Rain Drops On The Sun

I took this photo on Saturday morning, the skies were almost clear and the sun shining bright, but as I stood by the lake, drops of rain started to fall upon the sun’s reflection on the surface of the lake, creating an interesting effect.

Rain Drops On The Sun

Rain Drops On The Sun

I dedicate this photo to Jill at Two Rights Attempting To Make A Left, remember:

Your tears will always fall on the light of God above.

Praying for you Jill, as always.

 

Afraid Of The Wind

Afraid Of The Wind

I am afraid of the wind
It tries to blow me off my path
Buffers me this way and that
Sometimes forward at times back

Although I embrace the sun
I walk alongside it’s morning rise
Bringing light to guide our eyes
God’s gift the illumination of life

Also I hate the frost
It wants me to slip
Drawing me to slide right back
Enticing me with it’s beauty

Alas I wish for snow
So I can be a child again
Make snowmen in my innocence
Bringing youth back to a weary soul

Quietly I dread the hail
Born upon a cold icy wind
Tiny ice peppering against my skin
Freezing the mind that’s held within

But I love the rain
It hides the tears which fall
So no one can witness
The tracks that mark my pain

Crazy World Of Christmas Shopping

I know some you live in sunnier climates, i.e. Australia and California (even French Polynesia, although I haven’t got a clue where that is) and therefore Christmas on the beach is probably a wonderful experience I hope to try sometime, but here in good old Blighty it is raining again, it’s been raining for days, shame the world didn’t end, at least it may have stopped raining!

I had to nip in town this morning to pay the rent, exchange presents, stuff like that, great! I can honestly say I will not be going in town again this Christmas, firstly because of the traffic.

Now I don’t mean road traffic, I don’t drive (I never have), but I walk and at pace, the tiny streets of Newark have been around since well before the advent of the car, so our pavements (sidewalks for my American friends) are quite narrow, which is not good for me when the rest of the town walks at less then one mile an hour, at least two abreast or just hogging the middle of the pavement/sidewalk. I have to say I am usually quite tolerant with people, but this just winds me up, the roadside is full of parked cars so it leaves nowhere for me to go, no option but to walk slowly behind them, waiting for a gap.

In the past I use to walk behind these people and hum the Vangelis Theme Tune to Chariots of fire, you know the one with the slow motion running thing, this one, but always seemed to get a kick off Victoria or nudge in the ribs, she always said I was embarrassing her. It is no fun to do that these days though, because those in front are oblivious to anyone else or just don’t get it and also there’s no Victoria to nudge me anymore!

It’s even worst when those in front just stop for no reason at all, they just stop right in front of you, why? Never heard of mirror, signal, manoeuvre, there should be a highway code for walking as well, actually better not, I would probably get pulled for speeding!

Secondly, all my shoes and trainers are now completely worn out (you would think they would be guaranteed for at least 1000 miles of walking), the soles let in water, so if it is raining I end up with wet socks, fantastic squelching trainers and ringing wet socks, on top of slow moving traffic, really makes my day, but it’s all part of Christmas, isn’t it?

“Home
Where the flowers grow
A place for us to go
Where I don’t feel alone
When I go away
I will always come back home”
(Home by CircleSlide)

But thankfully I’m back home now, out of the rain and dry, at least that’s all my shopping done for this year, maybe hit the New Year sales, get myself some new footwear, until then it looks like I’ll have to live with the wet socks!