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From The Vine – Isaiah 24:11

From The Vine – Isaiah 24:11

I spent many nights
In my own darkness
Where I cried out
For lack of wine
I had let is sustain me
Be my crutch in harder times
It had robbed me of my money
Took the dignity from my face
And I became so angry
When I couldn’t taste the vine
Then the Lord, He came calling
And told me there is a way
To walk out from this darkness
And break my chains to this wine
From that day I have never wanted
Never cried for the fruit of the vine
I found a new way forward
One with the Lord’s hand in mine

Isaiah 24:11

Isaiah 24:11

Verse of the Day – Revelation 3:21

Revelation 3:21

Revelation 3:21

Sometimes we just have to stick in there, it may seem hard, but we will be victorious and receive this promise of Christ.

I have been sticking in there for 2000 days now, because today I have been sober for 2000 days.

Some days I don’t feel like an overcomer, but everyday I am still thankful for the Lord’s grace and mercy for helping me make it this far.

THE CROSS HAS THE FINAL WORD by CODY CARNES
The cross has the final word
The cross has the final word
Sorrow may come in the darkest night
But the cross has the final word

The cross has the final word
The cross has the final word
Evil may put up its strongest fight
But the cross has the final word

The cross has the final word
The cross has the final word
The Saviour has come with the morning light
The cross has the final word

The cross has the final word
The cross has the final word
He traded death for eternal life
The cross has the final word!!!

There’s nothing stronger, nothing higher
Nothing greater, than the Name of Jesus
All the honour, all the power
All the glory to the Name of Jesus
There’s nothing stronger, nothing higher
Nothing greater, than the Name of Jesus
All the honour, all the power
All the glory to the Name of Jesus!

The cross has the final word
The cross has the final word
The Saviour has come with the morning light
The cross has the final word

The cross has the final word
The cross has the final word
He traded death for eternal life
The cross has the final word!!!

Verse of the Day – 1 John 1:9

1 John 1:9

1 John 1:9

It is now 285 weeks of sober freedom, He set me free from my addiction on that Thursday evening, that seems so long ago now.  My sins were set aside and forgotten, left in my past and He set me on a path to a better life.

NO LONGER SLAVES by JONATHAN DAVID AND MELISSA HELSER
You unravel me with a melody
You surround me with a song
Of deliverance from my enemies
‘Til all my fears are gone

I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God

I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God

From my mother’s womb
You have chosen me
Love has called my name
I’ve been born again into your family
Your blood flows through my veins

I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God

I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God

I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God

I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God

I am surrounded
By the arms of the father
I am surrounded
By songs of deliverance

We’ve been liberated
From our bondage
We’re the sons and the daughters
Let us sing our freedom

You split the sea
So I could walk right through it
My fears were drowned in perfect love
You rescued me
And I will stand and sing
I am a child of God.

You split the sea
So I could walk right through it
My fears were drowned in perfect love
You rescued me
And I will stand and sing
I am a child of God.

Yes, I am
I am a child of God
I am a child of God
Yes, I am
I am a child of God
Full of faith
Yes, I am a child of God
I am a child of God

I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God

I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God

I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God

 

Verse of the Day – Psalm 3:2-6

Psalm 3:2-6

Psalm 3:2-6

I am sure that back in March 2012, when I was descending deeper and deeper in to the pit of addiction, many thought that I was beyond help, but the Lord came to me, I never asked, I never called out His name, He came anyway and He delivered me.  Since then I have conquered my addiction, with God at my side, I have come through depression, rejection and loneliness, with God at my side, so who or what should I fear?

YOU ALONE by KUTLESS
In Your hands
You hold every star
And You hold my heart
My beating heart

With Your voice
You created life
And opened up my eyes
My blinded eyes

There is one like You, no one

Great is the Lord
Ruler of all
You alone
Conquered the grave
You are the way
You alone
You alone

At the cross
You stretched out Your arms
Now You wear the scars
You wear the scars

At Your name
Every knee will bow
Every voice will shout
We will shout

There is one like You, no one

Great is the Lord
Ruler of all
You alone
Conquered the grave
You are the way
You alone
You alone

We lift our holy hands to You our Savior
Your love is shining through the dark
We wanna see Your kingdom
Reign forever
Jesus we worship who You are

There is one like You, no one
There is one like You, no one
There is one like You, no one
There is one like You, no one

Great is the Lord
Ruler of all
You alone
Conquered the grave
You are the way
You alone

Great is the Lord
Ruler of all
You alone
Conquered the grave
You are the way
You alone
Jesus, You alone
 

Accident Update – Two Weeks On

It’s been two weeks now since my accident and I am gradually getting a little bit more movement back each day, but it is hard going.  That having been said, if I had broken the leg I guess being in plaster would be an even bigger problem.

I can walk short distances without crutches, but it’s hard work and very slow going due to the swelling and bruising of the left calf/shin and the right heel.  For longer distances I use the crutches, I can get some speed going on them, not as quick as I used to walk, but at least I can still move and get around by myself.

Day Of The Accident

Day Of The Accident

One Week On

One Week On

Two Weeks On

Two Weeks On

The swelling is going down each day, but I think it will still be a few weeks until it’s gone and I can start to walk normally again.  It is actually more comfortable to get up and walk around, get some movement in the muscles, but it takes it toll.  I went back into work for a few days this week, but by the end of each afternoon I had had enough.  I liked being up and about, but after so long my legs begin to throb and ache quite badly.  I’ve had the last couple of days off, but just sitting around is hard, trying to find a comfortable position isn’t easy.  Some nights I struggle to sleep because of it being so uncomfortable.

To top it off, the skin on my left leg is now so irritable that resting it on anything makes it feel so sore, which makes it even harder to find a comfortable position!!!

Still, all things considered, this is all just a minor inconvenience, when I think that being run over by a fork lift truck this could have been a whole lot worse, it should have been a whole lot worse, my God was definitely looking out for me that day.

It’s not going to be an overnight recovery, I know that, but I keep taking it day by day, doing a little bit more, but being careful not to over do it.

GET BACK UP by TOBYMAC
You turned away when I looked you in the eye,
And hesitated when I asked if you were alright,
Seems like you’re fighting for you life,
But why? oh why?
Wide awake in the middle of your nightmare,
You saw it comin’ but it hit you outta no where,
And theres always scars
When you fall back far

We lose our way,
We get back up again
It’s never too late to get back up again,
One day you will shine again,
You may be knocked down,
But not out forever,
Lose our way,
We get back up again,
So get up, get up,
You gonna shine again,
Never too late to get back up again,
You may be knocked down,
But not out forever
(May be knocked down but not out forever)

You’re rolled out at the dawning of the day
Heart racin’ as you made you little get away,
It feels like you’ve been runnin’ all your life
But, why? Oh why?

So you’ve pulled away from the love that would’ve been there,
You start believin’ that your situation’s unfair

But there’s always scars,
When you fall back far

We lose our way,
We get back up again
Never too late to get back up again,
One day, you gonna shine again,
You may be knocked down but not out forever,
Lose our way, we get back up again,
So get up, get up
You gonna shine again
It’s never too late, to get back up again
You may be knocked down, but not out forever,
May be knocked down, but not out forever!

This is love callin’, love callin’, out to the broken,
This is love callin’.
This is love callin’, love callin’, out to the broken
This is love callin’.
This is love callin’, love callin’,
I am so broken
This is love callin’ love callin

Lose our way, (way way way ay ay ay)
We get back up, (get back up again)
It’s never too late (late late late ate ate ate)
You may be knocked down but not out forever!

Lose our way,
We get back up again,
So get up get up
You gonna shine again
Never too late to get back up again
You may be knocked down,
But not out forever,

This is love (lose our way) callin’ love callin’ (get back up again)
To the broken
This is love (never too late) callin’
(may be knocked down but not out forever)
This is love (lose our way) callin’ love callin’ (we get back up again)
To the broken
This is love (never too late) callin’
(may be knocked down but not out forever)

This is love callin’ love callin’
Out to the broken,
This is love callin’….
 

Lucky Escape

Apologies to regular readers, but due to unforeseen circumstances, I am unable to post my usual verse based poem and verse of the day observations.

I can definitely say I have had better days, it was all going fine until shortly before lunch, when I went into the yard at work to put some things into the skip, I observed one of the forklift trucks unloading a lorry and gave it a wide birth as I went across the yard. At least I thought I had.

The next thing I know the truck is right there backing towards me and then it hit me, it all happened so quickly that I am not sure what actually happened, but it hit my left leg pretty hard, I’m honestly not sure it was run over or not and then my right foot was pinned under the back wheel of the truck.

Immediately an ambulance was called for as I screamed in pain and rolled around the floor swearing profusely. I calmed down and the only thing that was really bothering me, apart from the pain, is the fact that tomorrow afternoon I am going on holiday with the kids, it looked at that point as if it wasn’t going to be.

Soon a paramedic arrived and then the Air Ambulance arrived, followed by an ambulance and a policewoman! Everyone seemed to be gathered around me as I lay in pain on the floor.

The paramedics and ambulance people were convinced my leg was badly broken. They gave me pain killers, which numbed things a little, then put me into the ambulance, the Air Ambulance wasn’t considered necessary, it was just in the area and responded to the call. They treat crush injuries by forklift trucks pretty seriously.

They rushed me to Nottingham Queens Medical Centre and I was put in A & E. I was sent into X-Ray, they took quite a few of both legs and then I went back to A & E. The Doctors said they was no break in either the leg or the ankle, although there may be a slight fracture in my left leg, they will know more when the swelling reduces.

I’ve been kept in over night to check for Compartment Syndrome, which is excess swelling due to the blood build up, which in severe cases needs to be cut open to relieve the pressure, worse case it could lead to amputation.

So currently I sat in my hospital bed, bored. But thankful that I was protected from something that could have taken my life, forklift trucks aren’t usually very forgiving.

My friend, Ally, has been this afternoon and brought my kids to see me this evening. I texted him from the ambulance to tell him and asked for prayer from him and others from our Church. The hardest part was trying to word the text in a way that didn’t sound like a joke. “Pray for me, I’ve been run over by a forklift!” This would make me laugh!!!

Hopefully I will be allowed out tomorrow evening and I can go on holiday just a day late. It may not be quite the same, but we are going regardless.

All prayers would be greatly appreciated, my leg throbs and I’m not sure how I am going to get to sleep with it, so prayers for peace and no further complications would be welcome.

I am thankful to my God this evening, that I still have everything intact and most importantly my life, He was definitely watching over me this morning.

Hopefully tomorrow evening I can get back to normal service and write my daily posts.

Within The Bottle – Isaiah 51:12

Within The Bottle – Isaiah 51:12

Within the bottle
A world so crushed
All dreams
Faded into nothing
Everything held
Had become lost
As the turmoil boiled
Within the bottle

I was lost
Could I ever be found?
It seemed the end
Was I all I had
Not to say goodbye
Just to simply leave
Body cold, no life left
Within my bottle

But there I was
Staring at the lifeless
Speaking lies
Of all my worth
Still He came that day
To set me free
From the prison
Within my bottle

As days passed
His comfort He gave
To bring peace
To a torn heart
My God I found
As He found me
Seeking an escape from
Within the bottle

Isaiah 51:12

Isaiah 51:12