Trust me, I've been there, I've looked, I've searched and I know now, that there are no answers to be found in the bottom of a bottle or on the edge of a blade! Fighting Hard, Recovering, Rebuilding, REBORN. Moving on from addiction to a new life.
Once I found myself Keeping endless days In lost solitude It seemed like just a cell Four walls yet no door No window and no daylight Trapped here forevermore But at the last I heard a knocking Upon a door I’d never seen With trembling hands I reached And slowly opened Not knowing what to find There He was, the Risen Saviour And in He came into my life For those walls just disappeared There was daylight Where once only night In that moment I came alive Turned my back upon my death Now when the walls Start forming once more I find I reach Right out for that door
For oh so long I could hear the rhythm Of knuckled flesh Upon the door it tapped a beat Of a heart awaiting A soul to hear Over and over Day after day That beat rang within my ears Still time and again My hands cover these ears That was until I grew so, so weak To hold up these arms no more And as I fell I heard that beat no longer And You were there Stepping within the threshold Of the cell of all my pain And as the light hit the walls The scene so transformed The cell faded far from view We sat within the banquet hall And there I was fed With truth time and time again From my hands fell the bottles From my wrists fell the chains Beyond death I found a life And now There is a beat I still hear Of a heart so ever near
Is my door open? As I hide within my walls Though I sit here Deep within my chaos I still hear a knock On my distant door Will I rise from my lethargy To open my door to Him To let my Lord into my room To occupy the space within SO many times I close the door Trying to refuse His knock But today I can no longer deny Here I cross this room To throw wide open my door To let Him into my space To bring peace upon this life
In my shadows Your light Fell upon the door Behind which I heard Your call With the rhythm of Your knock I found the strength To throw wide the door In You walked And You sit with me At the banquet I could never deserve Yet Your grace is greater Your mercy unbounded So here I can sit With the humble food I bring to the table Made plentiful in Your presence Made perfect by Your love
Last year when I was in the midst of depression, I was put through some training at work that I really wasn’t in the frame of mind for, when it came to the test I sang the lyrics to “When You Walk Into The Room” over and over in my head, I had to remind myself to open the door to Him, there was no way I could do it on my own, I needed Jesus, but I had to open myself up to Him, stop shutting myself off in a room of my own isolation.
WHEN YOU WALK INTO THE ROOM by BRYAN & KATIE TORWALT When you walk into the room Everything changes Darkness starts to tremble At the light that you bring And when you walk into the room Every heart starts burning And nothing matters more Than just to sit here at your feet And worship you We worship you
We love you We’ll never stop We can’t live without you, Jesus We love you And we can’t get enough All this is for you, Jesus
When you walk into the room Sickness starts to vanish Every hopeless situation ceases to exist And when you walk into the room, The dead begin to rise ‘Cause there is resurrection life In all You do
Come and consume, God All we are We give you permission Our hearts are Yours We want You We want You