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Light Up, Light Up, As If You Have A Choice

So it’s day one without the anti-depressants, which coincides with my 851st SoberDay.  So far it’s been okay, a few headaches as the day went on, but other than that it’s been pretty good, although it will be too early to tell.

This morning on the way to work I had one of those moments of inspiration and support.  As I do every time on the way to work, I stop by my Nan’s grave and pray.  Obviously today I prayed for support today, for help to get through the next few days as I try to get through without the anti-depressants, I know it won’t be easy and I know I will need His strength to get me through.

I always leave me headphones in and the music on quietly when I pray, so as I finished my prayer and started to walk away, the song changed in that instant.  Now I’ve experienced this before, where no sooner than I’ve finished my prayer, the song changes and brings comfort. Well this happened again this morning, usually though the song is from a Christian artist with a strong Christian theme, this time it was a little different.  It was not a song which inspired from start to finish, not even a song by a Christian artist, it was only a part of the chorus that seemed to speak to me, the song itself seemed loader than usual and the chorus even loader, I couldn’t ignore it.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you dear

I have to say I have heard this song so many times over the years, it’s a great song, but never before has it put me on the verge of tears.  This sort of thing happens quite often to me, I can hear a song I have heard time after time and suddenly this one time, it resonates with how I am feeling and provokes a strong emotional response, just like this morning.

I still know this will be a rough few days, maybe weeks, but I know I can get through it, because He is right beside me.

RUN by SNOW PATROL
I’ll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You’ve been the only thing that’s right
In all I’ve done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we’ll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we’ll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can’t raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we’ll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can’t raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don’t have time for that
All I want’s to find an easy way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart, my dear
We’re bound to be afraid
Even if it’s just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you dear