Trust me, I've been there, I've looked, I've searched and I know now, that there are no answers to be found in the bottom of a bottle or on the edge of a blade! Fighting Hard, Recovering, Rebuilding, REBORN. Moving on from addiction to a new life.
And another child dies As the parents simply weep How could they bring the end? Cold steel upon the skin Or bitter pills taken in Because in this world They just didn’t fit
Teased cruelly by their piers For just not fitting in Not looking or feeling the same Their words just cut upon the soul Why does it come to this? We reject what simply doesn’t fit And another child dies For trying to fit in to this world
But it just looks on Shakes it’s head in disdain Stupid little child Just another wayward teen Who just wouldn’t fit in
But why should they try? Why should we make them? Why should we push them? To become what we wish
The Father sees them as beautiful The Father sees them as unique Made within His image So why do they need to fit in?
But another a child dies And a family just weeps And the world just stands by To throw its ugly words Against another troubled teen Until another child dies
There was a day to die By Your word it never came Now I once more walk In the land of the living In every step I see Your goodness, Lord There will be a day to die The day that You set Not by this hand of mine And for now I will walk In Your goodness, Lord Each step taken with faith In the land of the living
Don’t say to me it’s selfish Don’t say how could they do it Because the roses in your garden Have bloomed so very brightly Ever felt the anguish? Ever felt the pain? Of feeling so worthless When everyday is just the same An emptiness of inside Where the world’s so far away Everyone’s better off without you There seems no other way If you’ve never been there Hanging on the edge of hopelessness Where all the words you’re hearing Are the lies spread over this world The lies of a thief That has come to steal our souls Where it’s hard to hear the true voice That is begging us to come home So don’t say that it is selfish When you’ve never tasted that pain For your judgement is part of the lies The enemy has spread through the world
Two have fallen Below their blackened skies Where darkness flowed In empty sense Gone today Yet never forgotten Now lift them high Into heaven’s skies Where angels sing Their words of hope Words that have led A lonely generation Now two have fallen Lest we forget The legacy left For tomorrow’s generation Their blackened skies Fade to heaven’s open arms In angel chorus They now sing along Two have fallen Now lifted high
After the news that another icon and inspiration of many teenagers and young adults, maybe finally the world will start to wake up and see that suicide, depression and metal illness are real, very real, not something we should just be brushing under the carpet.
In my lowest moment, I was close to taking my own life, this was the most painful moment of my life, my mind tortured me, telling me I was worthless. Fortunately for me, I heard the word of God in that moment, He told me I was needed by the very people I felt would be better off without me, I was lucky, I put down the knife and searched for help, I found the people who would lead me to a life with God.
So tonight I pray for all those who are struggling, all those who feel alone and lost, I pray they hear the same voice that I heard.
I’ve chose this song, not only because it is by Chester Bennington and Linkin Park, but it is a message of hope to those struggling, to hold on.
IRIDESCENT by LINKIN PARK When you were standing in the wake of devastation When you were waiting on the edge of the unknown And with the cataclysm raining down Insides crying, “Save me now!” You were there, impossibly alone
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation? You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known Remember all the sadness and frustration And let it go. Let it go
And in a burst of light that blinded every angel As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars You felt the gravity of tempered grace Falling into empty space No one there to catch you in their arms
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation? You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known Remember all the sadness and frustration And let it go. Let it go
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation? You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known Remember all the sadness and frustration And let it go. Let it go
Let it go Let it go Let it go Let it go
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation? You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known Remember all the sadness and frustration And let it go. Let it go
I’m not going to let you die tonight
He gave my death that you should live
This isn’t the end just the beginning
Together we have so much to give
So do let go as the stars shine
Let despair fall under the light of the moon
My peace will wash over you
Like the rain washes away the tears
I’ve seen the pain you try to sleep in
I felt the tears as I cried my own
I understand the hopelessness in your heart
But I need you to know tonight this will end
I am here beside and I won’t let go
I will stay until you walk the paths of heaven
Your pain I will carry upon my shoulders
Your burdens I will life from your heart
When you wake beneath the new sun
You world will feel so different
I tell you that you’ll no longer belong to the earth
From this moment you are a child of heaven
Wake my child and open your eyes
See my face and hear my words
I never let you die, I brought you life
Now rise above and embrace the truth
I’m not going to let you die tonight
He gave my death that you should live
This isn’t the end just the beginning
Together we have so much to give
In a week where suicide has been highlighted in the media once more, by the tragic death of Chris Cornell, I am ever thankful that I was saved by His hand.
I pray for the family, friends and fellow band members of Chris. As with many his music through the last twenty years has been a part of my life and sadly another great talent has fallen to a problem that is so often just brushed under the carpet.
Suicide and the thought of it is so real to so many people, both young and old, in my opinion it is the point where all hope has gone.
Only one can replace that hope, only one can save those so lost, only the Father.
I love this song by Blue October, the singer Justin Furstenfeld has himself struggled with anxiety, depression, addiction and suicidal thoughts, the lyrics are very real and the last line says it all…
Ask him to help you carry on.
FEAR by BLUE OCTOBER All my life Been running from a pain in me A feeling I don’t understand Holding me down
Rain on me Underwater All I am, getting harder A heavy weight I carry around.
Today I don’t have to fall apart I don’t have to be afraid I don’t have to let the damage Consume me, My shadow see through me
Fear in itself Will reel you in and spit you out Over and over again Believe in yourself And you will walk Fear in itself Will use you up and break you down like you were never enough I used to fall, now I get back up.
I’m up here I’m looking at the way down there I’m staring through the I don’t care It’s staring back at me
The beauty is I’m learning how to face my beast Starting now to find some peace Set myself free
Today, I don’t have to fall apart I don’t have to be afraid I don’t have to let the damage Consume me, My shadow see through me
Fear in itself Will reel you in And spit you out over and over again Believe in yourself And you will walk Fear in itself Will use you up and break you down Like you were never enough I used to fall but now I get back up
I’m moving on Oh god just move on Today, I don’t have to fall apart I don’t have to be afraid…. Get back up Get up
Fear in itself will use you up And break you down just like you’re Never enough I used to fall
Breathe, Ask for more If you’re bitter still Ask him to help you carry on.
Ever fallen in the dark Where You feel no one will go All alone Desperate for air Such a none believer All hope had left the soul Take it from me I’ve been there Where life felt such a chore Wishing for the end of the world There is a way out my friend I promise you this Only One carries enough hope To rescue your wounded soul To bring you back to life My God, my Father He was my way He found me in that darkness And brought me to a bright new day Trust in Him Hope in Him Don’t worry for those who label you With names you never deserved You are more than they could ever say Because my child You are HIS
The Bottom of a Bottle 