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Light Beyond Dark Clouds

We still seem to be in that winter season, where I go to work and then return home in the dark, for the most part I work inside a shop/warehouse with no windows, so I see very little daylight during the day.  But thankfully the days are slowly pulling out, this morning although there wasn’t a fantastic sunrise, there was enough light on my way to work to grab a couple of photos, but give it a few weeks I should see the sunset as I walk home too.

Early Light

Early Light

Light Beyond The Dark Clouds

Light Beyond The Dark Clouds

Light In The Dark

Light In The Dark

Blue Within The Black

Blue Within The Black

Light Upon The Path

Light Upon The Path

I guess over these last few months my life has mirrored the season, my comings and goings have been in darkness, seeing only fleeting glimpses of light as I keep working through it all.  But each day now gets lighter and lighter, yes there are those days when a dark cloud passes over and a storm brews, I had that on Tuesday, yet following that I had a day of clear bright skies and that continues today.

When I started this Blog my ultimate goal for it was to be inspiring, but there have been times over these last few months that I have felt anything but, times when it was a big internal fight to post or not, I was at a real low and didn’t feel I had anything positive to say.  It felt like I was being self indulgent and attention seeking, but I guess it was a cry for help also, but having said that it never felt wrong to post about it.  I have to say I am glad I kept blogging, I did at one point want to stop for a while at least.

But this journey didn’t just stop when I stopped drinking, it didn’t hit it’s peak when I was baptised, no that was just the start of this walk towards a new life and it continues on, sometimes along easy roads, at others through rough paths.

This walk may just take me through more and more dark times, but there will be good times too, so for now I’ll continue to do what I do, write about it, the good, the bad and the ugly.

I know I don’t get as much chance to respond to comments or visit other blogs as I would like, but I do read every comment and I appreciate them all, I just wanted to say thank you for all the support over the last few months, it has helped immensely.

The Lord bless you and keep you; 
The Lord make His face shine upon you, 
And be gracious to you; 
The Lord lift up His countenance upon you, 
And give you peace.
Numbers 6:24-26

THIS LIFE by THE AFTERS
I come in to tuck her in. 
I’m so tired from where I’ve been, doing all I can to stay awake.
As she goes on about her day, I hang on every word she says.
She reaches out and puts her hand in mine.
For a moment, we are here together. 
And it hits me that this won’t last forever.

We can’t own it
We just get to hold it for a while. 
This Life.
We can’t keep it
Or save it for another time. 
This Life.

He was always there for me. 
Now he’s fighting just to breathe.
I tell him it’s ok to let go. 
As I look into his eyes, I know that this won’t be the last time.
But for now, we’re taking different roads.
For a moment, we are here together. 
And it hits me that this won’t last forever.

We can’t own it
We just get to hold it for a while. 
This Life.
We can’t keep it
Or save it for another time. 
This Life.

What we give is all we have. 
How we love is what will last.
And this hope we know will carry us through this life.

We can’t own it
We just get to hold it for a while. 
This Life.
We can’t keep it
Or save it for another time. 
This Life.

We were never meant to stay, 
So we don’t have to be afraid
Of what is waiting on the other side.

Kids, Food, Spiders & Crocodiles

Another great day with the sun out once again, so after a lazy morning, the kids and I took to the park to soak up some sun.  We had a great time, well they did especially, I sat and watch mostly, a little to old for climbing frames and swings now.

Ben found a few friends to play football with, which kept him occupied for a while, whilst Eve continued to play and the equipment, though they came together to play again, before we had a quick game of football between us.

Playing Together Peacefully

Playing Together Peacefully

We left the park for a drink at the Pub around the corner, where they then decided they were hungry and gave those sad faces until I said we could eat there, they know which faces to pull!

They both chose their meals and I chose a burger tower which they said was like Man Vrs Food or Dad Vrs Food, when it arrived they said I wouldn’t finish it, but I proved them wrong, Adam Richman would have been proud!

Dad Vrs Food

Dad Vrs Food

It’s been a great weekend with the kids, Eve in particular has kept us entertained, on Saturday her scream rang throughout the house when there was a spider in the back room, you may remember how I previously saved her from a spider, well this time she took it on herself, the tiniest of spiders was hanging from the ceiling by a single thread and she was waving a brush handle at it, widely swinging and grandly missing, so I calmly scooped up the spider and put it outside, incredibly for me without pulling off one of it’s legs.

Then yesterday morning I woke to find her walking around the house dressed in a crocodile outfit, not the strangest thing I’ve ever woke to, but pretty close!

Attack of the Crocodile People

Attack of the Crocodile People

Oh well, back to work tomorrow, lots to do as usual, but I’ll be glad to get back into a routine again, plus get rid of the extra pounds I’ve put on this weekend!

THIS LIFE by THE AFTERS
I come in to tuck her in
I’m so tired from where I’ve been, doing all I can to stay awake
As she goes on about her day, I hang on every word she says
She reaches out and puts her hand in mine
For a moment, we are here together
And it hits me that this won’t last forever

We can’t own it
We just get to hold it for a while
This life
We can’t keep it
Or save it for another time
This life

He was always there for me
Now he’s fighting just to breathe
I tell him it’s ok to let go
As I look into his eyes, I know that this won’t be the last time
But for now, we’re taking different roads
For a moment, we are here together
And it hits me that this won’t last forever

We can’t own it
We just get to hold it for a while
This life
We can’t keep it
Or save it for another time
This life

What we give is all we have
How we love is what will last
And this hope we know will carry us through
What we give is all we have
How we love is what will last
And this hope we know will carry us through this life
What we give is all we have
How we love is what will last
And this hope we know will carry us through this life
What we give is all we have
How we love is what will last
And this hope we know will carry us through

We can’t own it
We just get to hold it for a while
This life
We can’t keep it
Or save it for another time
This life

We were never meant to stay
So we don’t have to be afraid
Of what is waiting on the other side of this life