Finally Gone

Finally Gone (John 14:27)

With this heart
Broken and aching
Awash with pain
As I was lost
In the chaos of my mind
My world in flames
Nowhere could I turn
Then You came
Taking away the chaos
And the source of this pain
From Your hands
You showered me in peace
No more broken nights
Just the deepest sleep
The fear of my heart
The trouble and the pain
All gone, finally gone

John 14:27

John 14:27

Finding The Green Fields Once Again

About a month ago I got off to a bit of a false start in terms of getting out each morning and walking as the sun rises.  At one time I was out every morning, regardless of the weather, the days when I walked seemed to have far more balance to them, then about two years ago it started to get a little sporadic, until eventually I stopped before slipping into a period of dark depression.

Over the last couple of years I’ve tried many a time to get out again.  Just like a month ago it starts out alright for a few days, but somehow I find an excuse to miss a day, then two, then three and so on and so on.  Last month it lasted just short of a week and then due to being busy with work, I decided I was too tired and caved in each morning.  But each night I would berate myself in my journal for not getting out, I would promise myself I would get out again the next morning, but it never happened and the cycle carried on.  This morning though, the alarm went of and there was no deliberation, within ten minutes I was out the house walking.

My plan was to walk the cycle track, which is about four miles long and then return, it a total walk of around eight and half miles, in around two hours, on the way I would just make it to the lake as the sun rises.

Blue Skies

Blue Skies

Hidden

Hidden

Beyond

Beyond

Over The Green Fields

Over The Green Fields

Before The Clouds

Before The Clouds

As I got to the end of the track, which up to the point where I turn around is tarmac, I noticed that the dirt path which continues for another few miles had been cut back, over recent years it has been overgrown, last time I attempted to walk it was almost three years ago, but it was so overgrown I couldn’t get through.  I walked it about five years ago and remember coming across a peaceful little spot where a small stream runs under a bridge, I’ve wanted to find it again so many times, but as I say the last time I tried it was impossible.

This morning for some reason, I just carried on, without even thinking I found myself walking the small path, until I found the bridge right at the end of the path, after the bridge it is still overgrown, but I wasn’t bothered about that, I had found what I wanted.

The Stream

The Stream

The Bridge

The Bridge

It’s Bank Holiday Monday tomorrow and I am not working this one, so all being well I intend to walk it again in the morning, although my aching hips may have something to say about that!!!

This morning I wrote “Green Fields”, I felt it was an answer to my prayers, to get up again and get out walking, I feel I have drifted a little for long enough, keeping some of the routines that help me along the way in this recovery, but abandoning others, like the daily walking.

There is a cheeky reference in there from a classic song, not sure whether anyone can spot it, there a clue included in the title too.

MERCY TREE by LACEY STURM
On a hill called Calvary
Stands an endless mercy tree
Every broke and weary soul
Find your rest and be made whole

Stripes of blood that stain its frame
Shed to wash away our shame
From the scars pure love released
Salvation brought the mercy tree

In the sky, between two thieves
Hung the blameless Prince of Peace
Bruised and battered, scarred and scorned
Sacred Hands pierced by our thorns

It is finished was his cry
The perfect Lamb was crucified
The sacrifice, our victory.
Our Savior chose the mercy tree

Hope went dark that violent day
The whole earth ‘quaked at love’s display
Three days silence in the ground
This body born for Heaven’s crown

On that bright and glorious day
Heaven opened up the grave
He’s alive and risen indeed
Praise him for the mercy tree

Death has died. Love has won!
Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
Jesus Christ has overcome.
He has risen from the dead.

Death has died. Love has won!
Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
Jesus Christ has overcome.
He has risen from the dead.

One day soon we’ll see His face
And every tear, He’ll wipe a way
No more pain or suffering
Oh, praise him for the mercy tree

Death has died. Love has won!
Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
Jesus Christ has overcome.
He has risen from the dead.

Death has died. Love has won!
Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
Jesus Christ has overcome.
He has risen from the dead.

On a hill called Calvary
Stands an endless mercy tree

Green Fields

Green Fields

As the sun slowly rose
You called me from my slumber
To walk again with You
Along the comfortable path
I’ve walked so many times
Yet there at the end
You called me on
To where my feet went further
Than my heart had planned

There the blue skies
Beyond the trees above
Took away the pain
And at the end I found
The green fields You promised
And there I let go
Of this cold steel rail
That I’ve held on to
For far too long

Hope You Give

Hope You Give (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)

I was down
you picked me up
I was gone
You brought me back
From out on the brink
You gave me life
So now I rejoice
In the hope You give

So then we walked
In the strength You gave
Although I stumbled
You never let me fall
Sheltering me from the storm
So here I pray
With my continuing thanks
For the hope You give

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

From The Dark

From The Dark (Daniel 10:19)

There you sit in the dark
I see your soul
Shivering in weakness
Overcome by fear
Afraid to show
The pain upon your heart

Know you are precious
And know you are mine
You have my strength
And I give you my peace
For I am with you
So let go of your fear

So bring your pain
And bring your brokenness
Sing them to me
In your prayers from the dark
There I will lift them from you
And bring the light once again

Daniel 10:19

Daniel 10:19

Came The Day

Came The Day (Romans 6:6)

Who I was
Cried out in his pain
Who I was
Need it all to end
Then came the day
That who I had become
Died along with You
You did this for me
Took the pain
Upon Yourself
So I could walk free
No longer a slave
To the sin that bound me
Dominated and defeated me
So now I stand free
Because You paid the price
Upon the cross for me

Romans 6:6

Romans 6:6